Brian and Amber got home both quiet. Brian was angry at her for her behavior during the evening. He wanted to talk to her about it but only when they'd be home.
"I'm tired...I think I'll go to bed right now.." Amber said walking to the bedroom.
"Wait... Can I talk to you about something?" Brian asked.
"Hum..yeah sure...what?" she asked as she turned to face him.
"Can you tell my why you acted that way tonight? Are you still mad at me about the other day?" he asked.
"No...I'm not..." she said nervously. Her heart was beating so fast that she thought he was probably hearing it.
"Then what is it? Can you tell me because I don't really understand... " he said trying to be as nice as possible. "You've been acting so different since a few days..."
"I don't see what you're talking about.." she said avoiding his eyes.
"Amber... you know you can talk to me! If there's something wrong, you have to tell me!" he said walking closer to her. "Did I do something wrong or that you didn't like?"
"No!! Of course not!" she shouted.
"Then talk to me because I can't stand seeing you avoiding my look like that and crying like you did yesterday... " he said remembering what happened the day before. He was wondering what was going on with her but he was touched by what she had said.
"It's not you... I swear... " she said plunging her eyes into his. She knew tears were going to flow soon.
"Then what is it?" he asked really softly. "What happened that could make you so upset?"
"I... I... I..." she sais as tears ran slowly on her cheeks.
"Ssshhh..don't cry.." he said as he hugged her.
"You don't deserve me..." she said as she ran to the living room and cried quietly in her hands. Brian stayed in the hallway a little confused about what was going on. He could feel something bad was gonna happen and his heart was beating a little faster. He walked to the living room and sat beside her and put his arm around her.
"Amber... " he started softly "Tell me what happened...please..."
"But I love you... " she said. She was crying so much that she couldn't see anything in front of her. "I don't wanna lose you!"
Those words made Brian felt really nervous suddently. He was really wondering what she was going to say and he was starting to freak out not knowing what was going on with her.
"Amby...you have to tell me!"
"I know! And you need to know... I can't live with this... I love you too much..." she said still crying. Brian looked at her, waiting for her to continue what she've started. He could feel tears coming to his eyes too because of seeing her like this and feeling what she was gonna tell him. "I've slept with ... Nick" she finally said as tears continue to fall even more. She turned to him to see his reaction. He was so pale. She had never seen him like this.
"Ww...What?!?" he said painfully after some minute of silence. A few tears fell on his cheeks as he looked at her strangely. "You did what?"
"I'm so sorry.... I didn't mean it to happen... we were both so drunk and.." she started.
"No please...tell me this is not true! With my bestfriend???" he asked with a frozen look.
"I'm sorry!" she sobbed.
"How could you do this to me!?!?" he said louder.
"I'm sorry!" she repeated crying even more.
"I hope you are!!!" he sais now screaming. He was so frustrated that his face was becoming red.
"It's your fault! You were driving me crazy!" she cried. "I never wanted this to happen!!!"
"Yeah right!! It's always my fault when others do something wrong!!" he yelled. His eyes were filled with tears. He couldn't believed what he had just heard. "I thought I could trust you!!!"
Brian got up and walked fastly to the bedroom. "Get out of here! I never want to see you again!!!!" he screamed before to shut the door and locked it. Then he layed on the bed and cried his heart out in the pillow.
Amber was still crying in the living room and blaming herself. She knew by the way Brian looked at her that he would never forgive her for this. She was hearing him crying and it was so much pain for her that she decided to call one of the girl to see if she could stay over for the night. The only one she could call was Carly so she dialed her number. She was shaking and still crying.
"Hello?!?" Carly answered.
"Carly?" Amber said with difficulty.
"Yeah? Amber???"
"Yes it's me..."
"Are you alright???" Carly asked worried.
"No...not really... " Amber replied starting to cry again.
"What's wrong girlie???"
"Can I sleep at your house tonight?"
"Yes sure! Wait...I'll go get ya!" Carly said knowing that Amber wouldn't be able to drive.
"Thanks!" Amber replied sadly.
"I'll be there in a few minutes!"
"Alright... see ya"
Amber hung up and got up. She walked in the house, taking everything that belongs to her so she wouldn't have to come back. But she couldn't take her clothes because Brian was in the bedroom and she didn't want to see him crying and she thought that he would probably not want to see her with what she told him. Then, she took a piece of paper and started writting.
Brian, I know what I did was wrong. I don't blame you for being mad at me... I understand. I know I've hurted you but you have to know that I never wanted this to happen because I love you more than anything. The last thing I wanted was to loose you. If you could forgive me...
Love always, Amber
When she heard Carly's car in front of the house, she looked a last time at the bedroom door. She left the note on the kitchen table and ran out of the house still crying.
"Why??" Brian moaned crying. "You could not do that to me!" he screamed. It was 4 o'clock in the morning and he had cried all night. He couldn't believe what Amber had told him. It was so much pain. With Nick?? His bestfriend?? His little brother?? "Why you did this to me?" he cried thinking about both Nick and Amber. He couldn't believe that Nick had done this to him. They weren't suppose to play on each other's back...they were like brothers! He punched his pillow with rage. He was angry, really angry. "I'll never forgive you for this!!!" he screamed still punching the pillow. Tears of sadness and rage were running on his cheeks. "Never!!!!!" he cried again. He cried for another hour and then fell asleep.
Brian walked in the house humming. He was smiling and couldn't wait to tell him the great new he had just heard. His heart was beating faster as he walked to the bedroom. He could hear noises coming from the room but everything was blurred. He opened the door slowly, and then saw Nick and Amber kissing widly on the bed.
Brian woke up at this saw. His heart was beating really fast and he was all wet. His head was hurting badly. He turned around to see what time it was. 8 am. He tried to remember the events of last night. The dinner at Leighanne..then... Was it a dream or not? He looked at the empty space beside him. He decided to get up even if it was really early. When he passed in front of the mirror, he looked at himself. His eyes were all puffy and red. He was pale and everyone could tell he hadn't sleep a lot. "It wasn't a dream.." he whispered sadly. He remembered what she had told him and he felt a huge pain. He sat on the bed and took a deep breath trying to fight with tears. After a few minutes he got up and walked out of the room. Tyke greeted him happily, jumping all around him.
"Hey.." Brian said taking his dog in his arms. He walked in the kitchen and opened the back door for Tyke who ran outside. Then he made some coffee and sat at the kitchen table. After a few minutes lost in his thought, he found a small piece of paper on the table. He hesitated to look at it, but he gave up and took it in his hand. He read it and then threw it away before to start sobbing quietly in his hand. "What is this life!?" he sobbed. "My bestfriend slept with my girlfriend...." he sighed angrily. He decided to go outside to take some fresh air. The sun was shinning brightly in the sky and the temperature was amazing. It was a beautiful day but Brian couldn't see how great it was. Sadness and madness were mixed up and he didn't know if he had to see what Nick had to say about this. He knew there was a chance for him to totally lose control of what he could do...but he had to see him. It was really early so he stayed in the backyard for a long time, only thinking about Nick and Amber.
*Meanwhile at Carly's*
When Amber woke up, she took a few minutes to remember where she was. When she realized that she was at Carly's, she remembered what happened the last night and sighed noisily. She remembered crying all night, Carly at her side rubbing her back. She hadn't talked a lot about what she did and she knew that Carly was probably wondering what was wrong with her. She looked at the bed next to hers and saw that Carly was already up. She got up and walked to the kitchen, knowing that her friend would be there. She was ready to really talk about it. She knew she'd have to fight with tears but her friend had to know everything. She had been so nice to comfort her all night. When she walked in the kitchen, Carly was sitting at the table talking on the phone. When she saw Amber entering in the room, she said she had to go and hung up. Amber sat at the table and smiled lightly at Carly.
"Hey girl! How are you?" Carly asked giving a cup of coffee to Amber.
"Hum... fine I guess..." Amber replied sadly.
"Oh poor girl! I hate to see you like this!" she said sitting next to her.
"It's alright..thanks a lot for letting me sleep here." she answered.
"There is no problem! You can stay how long you want ya know!"
"You're sure?"
"Of course! Anyway...we're leaving in a week so.. I don't think my mother will mind if you stay over... and we're in the basement so..." Carly said.
"Thanks a lot." Amber said with a little smile. "I could go back at my parent's in Miami but... "
"I swear! You can stay here!" Carly exclaimed.
"Alright...thanks a bunch! It really means a lot to me!"
"No problem! I can do this for my friend!" Carly smiled. "So tell me...what would you like to do today?"
"Don't you want me to tell you what happened?!?"
"Well...of course but only when you'll be ready! I think I understood a little yesterday but it was pretty mixed up..."
"I think I am ready.." she said already feeling tears.
"Go ahead then..." Carly said softly.
"Well...you remembered when I asked you to tell Brian that I was at your house that morning I called you?"
"Yeah I do... "
"I asked you this because that night..." she paused. "It was that night Brian was going to see Leighanne...and we had a fight that morning. And I was feeling lonely so I decided to go to a club and there I met.. Nick. We drank a lot and danced... and we were both really drunk and we came back at Nick's house..." she said as a few tears ran slowly on her cheeks. She took a deep breath."We both didn't think... he fell on top of me on the bed and... well..." she added starting to sob.
"Oh god..." Carly exclaimed looking at her friend sadly. She put her arm around Amber's shoulders. "I can't believe it..."
"I can't either..." Amber said wiping her eyes. "And it took me everything to finally tell Brian... Nick was telling to not say anything but I was feeling so guilty...I couldn't live with this any longer... I knew Brian wasn't going to take it really positively but... I wished.." she sobbed again.
"He took it that bad?" Carly asked.
"I had sex with his bestfriend! He had no choice but to take it badly!" Amber exclaimed. "I ruined everything... I love him so much!!! How could I did this to him?!?" she shouted sobbing loudly.
"Ssshhh... " Carly said strocking her hair. "Maybe he will understand..."
"No ... I know he'll never forgive me!" she sighed.
"Maybe if you try to talk to him... later.."
"I don't think so... the next tour will be horrible! Brian will be mad at me and Nick too! It'll be horrible!" she said crying.
"Maybe it won't be that bad ya know!" Carly said trying to comfort her. "I understand you to have told Brian about it... maybe he will understand too... I mean, you had a fight... and you were drunk..." Carly added not really thinking what she was saying.
"Yeah well... do you really think it's good reason for sleeping with your boyfriend's bestfriend?" Amber asked.
"Umm...Well..." Carly started.
"That's what I think too ..."
"What do you say you come with Howie and I to see a movie today?" Carly asked trying to change her thoughts.
"Umm...I don't know... I don't really feel like going out... go with Howie and have fun together!" Amber said wiping her eyes again.
"Like you want sweetie! Is there anything I can do for you?" she asked.
"Well... my clothes are still at Brian's..." Amber started.
"Alright, I'll go today and get everything that belongs to you okay?" Carly said.
"You're an angel!" she replied with a smile. "Thank you so much! I love you!" she added hugging her friend.
"I love you too! But are you sure that...I mean... are you sure that it's over? You're sure you want your stuff back? Or don't you want to go yourself?" Carly asked.
"Yes... and even if it's not over... everything will be different now... he's probably so angry at me...I'd prefer if you go and get everything... I wasn't able to look at him during the past week so...I can't imagine now..."
"Alright, I'll go today!" Carly smiled.
Carly drove to Brian's house thinking about what she had heard. She couldn't believe that Amber had slept with Brian's bestfriend. She didn't know what to think. Of course Amber was wrong to have done this but she probably had a good reason to do it... their fight that morning probably really shaked her. So, they were both wrong in their ways. She didn't want to judge any of them. She was getting a little nervous to go at Brian's now. She was scared of seeing him crying or really angry. She wasn't feeling like receiving shit. But she had to do it for Amber. Maybe she could talk to him and see what he was thinking of all this. She arrived in front of the house and walked to the front door. She rang the bell two times before a Brian looking really tired and with red eyes opened.
"hum..hey Brian...sorry did I wake you up?" she asked worried.
"No..I was in the backyard..." he said with no emotion.
"Alright...well.." she started nervously. "I'm coming to take back Amber's clothes...."
"Oh... " he said surprised. "Come in."
They walked to the bedroom, both quiet. Carly didn't know what to tell him and she was feeling so sorry of seeing him like this. Brian showed her where her things were and sat on the bed looking at Carly emptying the closet.
"Hum...I'm sorry for what happened.." she finally said sadly.
"It's not your fault.." he said.
"I know but... you both are my friends and I hate to see you guys like this... " she replied. Brian didn't answer and looked at the floor. His eyes were filled with water again.
"I...I just can't believe they did this to me.." he said painfully. Sad to see him so hurt, Carly sat next to him and put her arm around his shoulder.
"I can't understand either... I was so shocked when she told me.."
"I thought she was different... and I thought he was my friend...I thought I could trust them ..both!" he said with tears falling on his cheek.
"Sshhh..come here" Carly said taking him in her arms. "You have to know that there's a reason why it happened..."
"Yeah...to hurt me.." he cried.
"Oh I hate to see you like this!" she said almost crying herself. "Sssshhhh... you'll be able to work things out...don't worry. Something good will happen to you!"
Brian cried for a short while on her shoulder and then wipped his eyes. "Thanks!" he said with a little smile. Carly finished packing Amber's things and then left. She drove until Howie's house.
"Hey sweetie!" Howie said when he opened the front door.
"Hey baby!" she answered not really happily.
"What's wrong? you look sad.." he said while they both walked in the house.
"Oh well... I just passed the night and the last half hour comforting people... and I'm tired.." she said sitting on the couch. She explained to him everything that happened between Amber and Brian. "Don't tell everyone about it now..even if they will all know someday... but maybe there's a chance they can work things out..."
"Gosh.." Howie said sadly. He was really angry at Amber and Nick. He couldn't believe they had done this to Brian. It was unbelievable.
"Poor baby!" Howie said wrapping his arms around her waist. Carly smiled at him and he kissed her tenderly.
"I'm happy to finally be with you!" she said looking into his brown eyes.
"I'm happy too!" he replied with a huge smile. "Do you still want to go to the movies?"
"Umm... I don't know..maybe we could just stay here ...what do you think?"
"Ouuhh... I have no problem with this!" he grinned holding her tighter.
"Great!" she said kissing him passionately.
*In the afternoon, at Nick's*
"Thanks for everything BJ!" Nick said as he hugged her sister goodbye. She had been totally shocked when she had found her brother crying and surrounded by all those empty beer bottles so she had decided to stay for the night and comfort him. He had told her everything and passed out not a long time after. In the morning, when they both woke up, she told him what she thought about all this. She wasn't really proud of him for doing that but he was her brother and everyone can make mistakes.
"You're welcome!" she said as she started walking away. "Oh and if you feel like it, you can come for dinner tonight. Mom would like to see you.." she added.
"Well...I'll see... I'll call her during the day." he said still looking really tired.
"Alright! Bye!" BJ said as she turned around and left.
"Bye Sis!" Nick said as he closed the door. He wasn't feeling well and his head was hurting really badly. He walked to the living room and layed down on the couch. He had to think about what his sister had told him. Did he really have to tell Brian about it? Nick had always thought that if Brian didn't know anything about it, he wouldn't be hurt. He knew that if he would tell him, Brian would be really angry...and he would be right. "What would I do if in Brian's place? Would I prefer them to tell me or not?" he said to himself. "Would I prefer to loose my girlfriend and bestfriend by knowing the truth or to keep them both but living with them lying to me?" he thought. "But it was a big fucking mistake!!!! We didn't want to sleep together!!!! He can understand this!!!" he said outloud not really thinking what he was saying. "Awwwwww!!!" he moaned putting his hand on his face. "I don't know what to do!!!" he said when suddently the picture of Rachel came up in his mind. "Fuck!!!" he almost screamed almost in tears. He felt like he had to talk with someone, but he didn't know how things were going to turn when he would tell he had slept with Brian's girl. Suddently, the doorbell rang.
"What is it now!" he said having a hard time to get up because he was so tired. He walked to the door and freezed when he saw who was standing there.
"Hey Frack!" Brian said trying to put some happiness to now show how angry he was to see this traitor in front of him.
"Hey Rok....come in!" Nick said walking in the house.
"So...what's up? You look awfully tired!" Brian said sitting on the couch.
"Yeah..well...hum...I didn't sleep really well last night..." he answered sitting too.
"Ok! Would you like to shoot some hoops?" Brian asked.
"Um..yeah why not! Let's go!" Nick replied walking to the backyard. "We won't have to talk too much like this..." he thought.
They started playing and Nick realized that Brian was playing more agressively than usual. His heart was beating fast as he thought of what Amber could have said or done.
"So Rok... what's up with ya?" he asked trying to calm the tension that was in the air.
"Well..beside that my girlfriend slept with someone else... nothing much!" Brian said shooting the ball. Nick just stood there watching him, under the shock. So she had told him!!! He remembered what Brian just had said... with someone else... so she hadn't say it was with him. Maybe there was hope to save their friendship.
"Oh man!!! I'm sorry!!!!" Nick said walking up to him and patting him in the back. "You'll find someone else... you don't have to worry about this!"
"Well...I guess she wasn't for me.." he sais shooting the ball again.
"Yeah that's what I think too... " Nick said trying to look sympathetic with his friend. "But.. you don't look really affect by this am I wrong?"
"I think... I just don't believe it...or I am use to it..." he said chuckling a little.
Nick giggled a little, not believing what he was hearing. He thought that Brian would be devastated when he would learn this. After a few moment of silence, playing some basketball games, Brian couldn't take it anymore and explode.
"What the fuck did you think you were doing???!?!?!?" he shouted. "I thought you'd be at least a friend to tell me the truth!!! You thought you could just go on like nothing happened while you fucked my girlfriend????"
"I...I did..not.." Nick started scared of seeing Brian like this. His eyes were looking so cold and mad. He stepped back without knowing what to do.
"You did fucked with my girlfriend!!!" Brian continued walking toward Nick.
"Look man.. I didn't want this to happen...we both didn't want it to happen..."
"I don't care! You did it!!! If you would have been a real friend... you would not have done that!" Brian yelled, tears falling on his cheek. "Do you know how much you make me sick???"
"Brian... please..." Nick begged. "Can't you understand we both didn't have our mind straight..."
"So what??" Brian said. "You're big jurk and you don't deserve friends!!!" he added shooting the ball on Nick who started getting angry at Brian for not listening to him.
"Don't you think we're over reacting???" he asked raising his voice.
"How do you want me to react? Oh it's okay, I'll let you sleep with her...anytime man..just ask...?!?!?!?"
"Of course not!!!" Nick shouted . "But it was a mistake! Okay, a really big damn mistake of ours...and I can understand you to be angry... but get over it we don't like each other and we won't do it again!!!"
"I thought I could trust you... you know what...I never thought a second you could do something like this to me!!!!" Brian said wipping the tears.
"Rok! Come on!!! You know we won't do something like this again!!!! Do you know how hard it was for me to keep this secret! It's as painful for me than for you!!" Nick replied.
"How can it be painful for you? You had a good time didn't you???? You had fun? It was great?" Brian asked angrily.
"Ah shut up!!!! You just don't understand! And it would never had happened it you would not have over react again on Leighanne's call!!! You're always over reacting at anything and it makes everyone around you get so nervous that they hurt you then! But it's always your fucking fault!!!" Nick screamed.
"Yeah that's it...that's probably always my fault!!! Then if I'm stressing you so much, don't talk to me ever again and ...don't even look at me!!! You disgust me asshole!!!" Brian yelled just before to ran away to his car and left Nick's house.
Nick fell on his knees crying his heart out. He couldn't believe he had such a huge fight with Brian. They already had fights but never that big and he thought that he could never get this friendship back. He felt a huge pain on his chest, like if someone had taken a part of him. Brian was his bestfriend and he loved him like a brother. He couldn't stop crying because of all the emotions of loneliness and lost he was feeling. He stayed in the backyard, crying in his hand, not able to do anything else.
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