Naomie walked to the other private area trying to hold her cries and her anger. After what the doctor had said, she was on shock and couldn't believe it...She was looking completly devasted and about to pass out when Becky came in the room.
"Nam, babe you ok?!!"Becky asked walking toward her bestfriend. Naomie didn't talk. She was out of breath, trying to not cry her heart out. Becky took her in her arms as she let the tears flow "Shhh, his gonna be ok!" Becky wispered.
"I don't want to lose him..." Naomie said sobbing.
"I know sweetheart!"
"I can't belive it's happening... Once again... What am I doing wrong???" Naomie asked crying really hard.
"Nothing Naomie... don't say things like that... it's not your fault... He's gonna be ok! He has to be ok... you have to tell him you love him rememeber?? you promise you would do it... he has to be ok!" Becky said trying to not cry herself
"I can't get trought this one more time I'm not strong enough for that Beck... "
"You have to be strong for him... you have to.... for your love for him... remember the power of love Nam?? it can beat everything... Cuz of your love he'll be ok... you have to stay positive!"
"My love did not bring Jacob back... he died Becky.. Jacob died... and god knows how much I loved him... you met him... you know it...he died... my love has nothing to do with anything... Or Nick wouldn't had been in this accident..." Naomie explained.
"Honey, you were so young when Jacob died..." Becky started.
"but he died... I loved him... I don't want Nick to die!" she cried.
"He won't! Baby you should have told me!"Aj said walking in the room taking Naomie in his arms "He's gonna be ok! Don't worry!"
"You heard everything?!" Naomie asked.
"I didn't mean to ...but hey why do you hide yourself ?!?! You should scream you love ... it's the most beautiful thing left in life!"
"and it hurts!"
"So why don't you speak out?!"
"Cuz he don't love me Alex... it's obvious... but I don't care... all I care it's that he'll be ok... I just want him as a friend... this is all I'm asking for... I want him to be ok!" Naomie said crying softly.
"He'll be ok Nam!!He have to... a beautiful girl loves him and didn't tell him yet... he have to know that... he has to! He'll be ok and you're gonna tell him how you feel!" Aj said kissing her forehead.
Two hours passed by and no sign from a nurse or the doctor. They were all starting to be nervous and impatient. Brian was walking all around the room, with the thoughts of Nick learning how to walk, eat, talk... "It's all my fault!" was all he could think about.
"Brian...please...can you sit down?" Kevin asked tired to see him walked from a side to another.
"No... "
"M. and Mrs Carter?" a female voice asked from the door. Everyone looked up, finally hoping they would be able to see him.
"Yes!" Jane exclaimed.
"You can go see your son." the nurse said.
"Can we go too??" Brian asked.
"Yes but only a few of you at a time. We don't want to get things worst..." she answered. "Follow me please..." she guided them to Nick's room and allowed his parents to go inside. Brian stayed glued to the door, waiting for them to come back or to tell him he could go in. After some minutes, Bob came out.
"You can go Brian...I'll go call the kids... " he said looking upset.
"Wait Bob... how is he looking?" Brian asked with difficulty.
"Um...." Bob started. He looked like he was going to cry. "Not really good..." he finally said before to walk away.
"God.." Brian sighed. He took a deep breath and looked behind him. Everyone else was there, waiting for him to walk in. Leighanne, who was still there, decided to go in with him since she knew he wouldn't like to be alone. She followed him inside the small white room. Brian was walking really slowly, scared to see Nick. When he finally saw him, laying on the bed with all those tubes and machines beside him, he freezed. He stayed in the middle of the way between the bed and the door. He couldn't speak or move. Leighanne walked beside him and took his hand.
"Come on... go talk to him.." she whispered. Brian looked at her and then at Nick again. Jane smiled lightly to him. Tears were falling on her cheeks as she hold Nick's right hand. She decided to let Brian alone with Nick since he looked so upset. She left the room and joined the other outside. Brian took another breath and approached the bed. He sat on the chair next to Nick's uncouscious body. He took Nick's feeble hand. Leighanne left the room too, knowing he would prefer to be alone now.
"Nick... " he started with emotion. "Nick... it's me... Brian...your brother... I know you can hear me..." he continued, feeling tears coming to his eyes. He waited, like he was going to have a sign or to hear him talk. "I'm ... I'm sorry Frack... I'm sorry for everything you went through because of me... I don't now why I've been so stupid..." he paused again, looking at Nick's closed eyes. He broke down in tears, realizing that maybe those eyes would have to see everything like it was the first time. It couldn't happen to Nick. He couldn't forget his bestfriend, his family, his friends. "Nick... I'm sorry...please wake up... I need you little brother..." Brian cried. "Wake up... ". He rest his head on Nick's hand as he sob quietly. Suddently, he felt a hand on his shoulder. He looked up and saw Aj and Becky standing there with a sorry look on their faces.
"Come on Bri...let's go out for a while.." Aj said softly.
"I can't leave him!!!" Brian cried.
"Brian.. just a little while...so everyone can see him... " Becky told him rubbing his back.
"Ok..." he replied standing up. He glanced at Nick a last time and then get out of the room with Becky and Aj.
Everyone then got their turn to go see Nick and talked to him a little... even if they all knew he would not reply back. They were all coming out of the room with tears in their eyes. The nurse then came to talk to them.
"The doctor told me he had enough company for today..he needs to rest. You'll can come back a little later. Take this time to rest you too because we don't know how long this coma can last..." she said.
"Wait Mrs... can I go see him? I didn't have the time yet... please..." Naomie begged. She was the last one left and even if she was really scared to enter in this room, something pushed her to go. The nurse looked at her, not really knowing if she should let her go in.
"Please Mrs... " she begged again.
"Alright...but only 5 minutes!" the nurse replied.
"Thank you..." Naomie said. She then sighed noisily, not too sure if she'd be able to brave this.
"Do you want me to go with you?" Becky asked not too loud.
"No...I'll be alright..."
"Ok... " Becky replied not sure about that. She hugged Naomie and walked with her to the door. Naomie walked in the room and closed the door behind her. She turned around and walked to the bed where a body was laying. She walked closer, already feeling tears in her eyes. She approached the bed and reconized Nick's sweet face. But it wasn't looking that sweet now. There were scratches on his cheeks and he had a bandage over his eyes and going all around his head. All her body start shaking and she bursted into tears. "Nick...." she whispered but she couldn't talk, she was crying too much. Nothing was coming out of her mouth. She tried again to say something. "Nick... I...I need you... you can't leave me all alone..." she finally said but at the sight of his face, she started crying histerically and covered her face with her hands. "I...I love you Nick..." she cried but it was all blurred because of her sobs. She couldn't stay any longer in this room so she got up and walked outside crying. She had pain to breath and felt again like she was gonna pass out. Stacey and Becky ran to her and helped her walking to a chair. She then sat down and cried, cried, cried... Becky and Stacey were sitting beside her, rubbing her back and talking to her but she wasn't listening.
Most of them decided to go back at their house in the evening to take shower and rest a little. Only Brian, Naomie and Jane stayed. Nick's father had decided to go back at their house to reassured the other kids and maybe come back at the hospital with them in the morning. Becky tried to bring Naomie back home with her and Ashley but she wasn't listening. She wanted to stay. She didn't want to leave him alone even though Brian and Jane were there. She felt so responsable for this. Brian defenitly didn't want to leave Nick's side either. The nurse had brough them mattress so they could sleep a little. Becky told Naomie she would bring her back clean clothes...as Leighanne said to Brian even if he didn't care to be dirty or not. All he cared about was Nick.
It was now 9pm and there were still no sign of movement from Nick. But they were now available to go see Nick when they wanted to. They were only 3 so the doctor had told them it was alright. They were actually in the room all the time and they had brough the little bunks in the room too. They really didn't want to leave him, even for a minute.
"You know, I think he's really lucky to have you two as friends.." Jane told Brian and Naomie. Both of them just smiled slightly. They were both thinking it was their fault if he was laying on this bed. "I'll go get some coffee..." she added leaving them alone. Brian was sitting on a chair in a corner of the room and was staring at Naomie whom was on one of the two little bunks, her knees under her chin. She was looking down her feet, feeling Brian's eyes on her.
"Nam..." he started. She didn't look up. She feeling angry at him and she didn't know why. She knew it wasn't his fault but... he was the reason why Nick was so sad and so different during the last month. "Nam?"
"What?" she replied still not looking up.
"I want... " he paused, thinking about what he was going to say. She looked up at him, wondering why he had stopped. Brian saw the sadness she was feeling when he looked at her face. Her eyes were red and there were still tears into them. "I want to thank you for what you've done for Nick during the last month... " he finally said.
"Thank me?" she shouted. "Look at how he is! You should not thank me..."
"But this wasn't your fault Naomie... " Brian said softly. She didn't answer and just looked back down at her feet. "I think I have a big part of responsability into this... it's way much my fault then yours. Anything of this wouldn't have happened if I would have forgive him before... " Brian sighed with tears in his eyes. Naomie looked up again. "But the reason why I'm thanking you is that you've been really close to him during this time and you've help him going through it... "
"I'm not sure if I helped him that much..." she replied weakly.
"Oh I'm sure you did." he said. He walked to the bunk and sat beside her. "And I also want to apologize to you..."
"Why?" she looked at him surprised.
"Because I'm sure you would have prefer a better opportunity to get to know him... it was probably very hard for you to try to cheer him up all the time.. I know it's all my fault and I'm sorry..." he said sincerely. "And I'm happy he turned to you ... because I know you can only be good to him.."
Tears started rolling on Naomie's cheeks. Was she really so good to him? She glanced at Nick's uncouscious body and the tears rolled faster. Why was it always happening to people she loved? Her mother...Jacob...and now Nick. She really felt responsable. Brian put an arm around her shoulders and she rest her head on his.
"I'm sorry..." Brian repeated strocking her hair. They both cry in each other arms. "You love him don't you?" he asked after a moment of silence.
Naomie sighed as a response. She knew it was obvious she was in love with Nick now. Everyone one knew it. And she was feeling stupid because this love wasn't mutual...and maybe would never be.
"I don't know if I could live without him..." she finally said still crying.
"I know how you feel..." Brian sighed. At this moment, Jane came back.
"Look at you two... " she said sadly, handing Brian a coffee. "Why don't you go take a short walk.. you need to get out of this room for a while... "
"I'm not sure if we really want to..." Brian said looking at Naomie who didn't seem to want to get out.
"I know you don't want to leave him...and I'm sure he really appreciate it...well I appreciate it a lot...but it's not a 10 minutes walk that will change something... " Jane said. "He'll wake up when he'll be ready to... "
"Yeah you're right... " Brian replied. "I'll go take a short walk... you coming Nam?"
"Um... no I think I'll try to rest a little.." she said with a little smile as she wiped the tears from her face.
"Alright!" Brian said giving her a hug before to walk out the room.
Naomie woke up surronded by darkness. Was it a dream? Did Nick really had an accident or it was just one of those nightmares haunting her nights like a few years ago, after Jacob had his accident? Her eyes adjusted to the darkness and she saw the bed where the blond haired boy she liked so much was laying, still not awake. It wasn't a dream. She sighed and looked around the room. Brian was laying on the other bunk, probably sleeping or tryin to... and Jane was sleeping on the chair next to Nick's bed. She didn't know what time it was but she figured out it was night since there weren't a lot of sound coming from the hallway. She decided to get up and go for walk, even though it was probably still night. She just wanted to get away from this room for a while. She walked out the hospital and enjoyed the feeling of the cool air coming in her lung. She walked near the hospital for a few minutes, forgetting a little about what she was living right now but it was hard to get it out of her mind. She suddently had an idea. She came back to the hospital but went at the opposite of Nick's room. She entered in the little empty chapel and walked in the small aisle and sat in the first pew. Everything was silent and she could only hear the sound of her breath. She kneeled down, put her hands together and closed her eyes.
"Mom?" she whispered. "Mommie... I know I haven't talked to you for a while... but I thought everything was getting better..." she paused, already feeling tears in her eyes. "But again...it seems like I hurt someone I love..." she said as the tears flow softly on her cheeks. "First it was you....than Jacob...and now... Nick..." she added. "I know you probably say it's not my fault... but I don't care if it is or not right now... I'm just asking you one thing... one little thing... can you keep your eyes on Nick...please? Can you help him getting through this? I'm not asking you to watch me because I know you already are and I thank you so much for this. I never doubt of you being with me even with all I went through. It'd been hard..and it's still is...but one thing that help me going through it is that I knew you were in my heart....You told me you'd always be with me...and you're the one I trust the most mom. So...I'm just asking you to help Nick... please help him getting better... getting back like he used to. He deserves it... he's a great guy and ... " she paused again "I love him so much.... I don't wanna lose him.." she added as tears started rolling a little faster. "Thank you mom...I know you'll do the best that you can....I love you." she ended her little prayer, wiped the tears from her face and walked back to the room.
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