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:::note from the author,
Heather Vineall:::


Hey everyone, this poem is from my heart, if you don't get it, I'm going to explain it, anyway.
God is REALLY changing my heart this summer.
People are continuing to judge me and make me upset, and on one hand, (my fleshly-side) I get really angry and really depressed, and really want to just throw it back at everyone who does anything to me, while on the other hand, (my soul/spiritual side) is at peace with what people say and think about me. Like, if someone says something about me, I get kinda upset.

But then I remember what the bible says if they slap me on one cheek, give em the other.
I remember that God does not judge the way I look on the outside, but that I am fearfully and wonderfully made.
I remember that if I treat someone badly it is the same as disregarding God, or one of his creation.  And lately, this ALWAYS pops into my head when I feel any kind of hate or anger towards anyone, it's forgive and forget.

It's kind of weird because it's really been working. Like before, I had to coax myself...now, it just happens automatically.
And I feel like I'm not slave to anger..

I know it sounds really corny and spacey.

but-- it's true.

Thinking positively about someone who has no regard for my feelings??????????

Dude, I didn't know this could happen.
But PRAISE GOD, he has set me free from these things.
God is so incredible. I love you, Lord!

Thank you for giving me the yearning to read your word and to daily guard myself in your word, and die to myself, and cover myself in the armor of God. God bless everyone...OK...now you can read and hopefully enjoy the poem....




          Have you ever felt torn,
torn in the deepest place in your heart.
On one hand your so full of joy,
and on the other your falling a part.


  A part of me, is ready to achieve.
And the other side isn't really sure.
One side is full of pain,
and the other rejoices because in Jesus there's the cure.


  And I'm so proud, Lord,
of how your hands are molding me.
The flesh seems to fail more and more,
is this what you planned to see?


  Lord I didn't realize, that you could take my scars.
I didn't realize, you would really take me this far.
I knew that you would bless me,
I didn't know you'd bring me this joy
unspeakable......


  I see the way you're transforming my soul,
and I know that you only judge my heart.
But each time, I look in the mirror
I'm discouraged and I just fall a part.


  Lord, change me.
I'm tired of trying to be, who they want me to be.
All I want is to be a part of your body,
and I want to perform the way you want me to,
Lord, all I want is to do my best at serving you.


  To serve you with my heart,
to serve you with my mind.
To hand over all the hurt, and the shame,
and declare in your name,
That with the Lord, I will be just fine.





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