Show Me The Meaning Of Being Lonely

by:Shehrina

Chapter 12

Brian ran to her side. " Lieghanne, talk to me! Lieghanne! Please!"

Brian pulled out his cell phone and called the paramedics."My wife...my wife
was hit by a car.  Please come as quickly as you can!" Brian was in tears
now. No matter how hard he tried, he couldn't stop the tears. "Leighanne!
Don't leave me. Please don't leave me. I need you honey."

The paramedics came and took Lieghanne. "Low pulse. Hurry!" One of the
paramedics said.

"Is she going to be ok? How is she? How's the baby?" Brian kept on asking
questions, wanting to make sure that Lieghanne was fine.

The paramedics were getting annoyed. "Sir, we advise you to let us do our
work in order to save her life. At this time we cannot answer any of your
questions. We must take her to ER as soon as we get to the hospital."

When the ambulance arrived at the hospital, Lieghanne was rushed into the
emergency room. Brian was pushed back. No matter how hard he struggled, the
doctors wouldn't let him in. "She's my wife for God sake! Let me see her!"
Brian demanded.

A nurse came up to Brian, who was slouched in a chair, crying his heart out.
"Mr. Littrell, can you please fill out these papers? And while your at it,
you might want to call the rest of her family and friends to inform them
about the incident."

Brian nodded and began filling out the papers. As soon as he was done, he
whisked out his cell phone and called all the guys as well as Lieghanne's
parents. They rushed to the hospital upon hearing the news. Lieghanne's
parents couldn't make it.

"Is she ok?" Kevin asked as he hugged Brian.

"Have you heard any news?" Howie asked.

"What happened?" Nick asked, "How did she get into the accident? It's the
middle of the night."

"Frack's right. What the hell was she doing up this late?" AJ asked with
curiosity.

Brian sighed. "It's all my fault!" He began crying again.

Nick put a hand on Brian's shoulder. "Brian, don't say that! It is not your
fault."

"Yes it is. You wanna know what she was doing that late at night? She was
following me!" Brian screamed the last part.

"Following you?" AJ asked. "Where the hell were you going?"

"I was tracking someone." Brian stated, looking down. He knew that if AJ
found out who he was tracking, AJ would throw a fit. But Brian didn't care.
That was his wife and unborn child in there damn it!

"Tracking who?" AJ asked.

"Nicole!"

"Nicole?" AJ asked cluelessly. Then his confusion turned to anger. "Nicole!
What the hell were you doing following my girlfriend?"

"Easy AJ!" Howie said, putting a hand on AJ's shoulder.

"What the hell do you mean 'easy AJ?' He's following my girlfriend damn it!"
AJ screamed in frustration.

"She's not who you think she is." Brian stated calmly.

"And just what is she?" AJ asked, rage totally evident in his voice.

"She's a coniving manupulative bitch who should be put to jail for breaking
hearts and trying to fuck guys-" Brian didn't get to finish, because he was
slapped by a femine hand. He turned around to see Nicole.

"Brian, let's get one thing straight. You hate me for some totally unevident
reason, which I'm about to waste time finding out. You can hate me all you
want, but don't you dare talk about me that way!" Nicole said, putting on a
great act of rage. Truth was, she was glowing inside. Who knew she could
have this much affect on anyone. "AJ let's get out of this hellhole. I don't
go where I'm not wanted." Nicole stated, before pulling AJ out of the
waiting room.

"Well get the fuck out of the face of this Earth, cause you are definetly
not wanted here!" Brian screamed after her.

The other guys watched on in amazement. Brian usually wasn't that
aggressive. "Brian...." Kevin trailed off.

"WHAT?!?!" Brian screamed. "She is the cause of all this. She is the cause
of the love of my life, my wife, Lieghanne, being in the torture she is now.
She is also the cause of the chance that  I may never see my baby boy. I may
never see Brendon. She is stealing from me the chance of being a father with
the woman I love. She is also stealing a chance of making things right with
Lieghanne." Brian was in rage, anger, confusion, as well as in tears.

Howie patted his back. "There, there, calm down Brian. I'm sure she's ok."

Kevin kneeled down so that he was facing Brian. "Now how 'bout you tell us
what's going on?"

Brian nodded and began the story. He told them about his and Nicole's
relationship in high school and what had happened. He told them of
Lieghanne's suspicion and so on. After he was done, the guys were just
staring at him. "Whoa! That is deep." Nick said.

" I can't believe she would do that. Bri are you sure your not making this
up?" Howie asked.

Brian looked up at Howie and stared him deep in the eye. "Look at my face.
Does it look like I'm making this up?"

Howie turned away. "So what are we gonna do? We have no proof and AJ sure as
hell won't believe us."

They all thought. "I got it! We gotta get that tape." Nick said.

"For the first time, kaos thought of somethin'." Kevin smirked.

"I'm not as dumb as you think I am." Nick said, crossing his arms over his
chest.

Just then the doctor came out. "How is she?" Brian asked, jumping up from
his chair.

The doctor looked down, a face full of sorrow. Brian saw the expression.
"NO! She can't be gone. She can't!" Brian grabbed onto the doctor's
shoulders and shook him until both Nick and Kevin pulled him away.

The doctor cleared his throat. "Mr. Littrell, I have good news and bad news.
Which would you like to hear first?"

"The good news." Kevin spoke for Brian.

"Well the good news is that we were able to save Mrs. Littrell."

Brian smiled nervoulsy,"And the bad news is that she is in a state of coma."
Brian's smile immediatly turned into a frown. "What?"

"She is in a coma." the doctor repeated.

"How long will she be in a coma?" Nick asked with deep worry. Lieghanne was
everything to Brian.

"We don't know. It could take days, weeks, even months. I'm guessing she was
in deep stress before the accident. That may be one of the reason's she went
into a coma during surgery. She experienced a few broken bone, but nothing
serious."

"What...what about the baby?" Brian asked, almost scared to hear the answer.

The doctor sighed. "The baby is safe for now."

"What do you mean 'for now'?"

"Mrs. Littrell is three months along in her pregnancy. For right now we have
enough food to feed her that the baby can feed on also. But if she exceeds 2
months in her coma state, I'm afraid we'll either lose her or the baby. I'm
sorry Mr. Littrell." the doctor said.

Brian began crying again. "This can't be happening." he thought. "When can
we see her?" Brian asked.

"Um...it's ok if you see her right now. But please go one at a time." the
doctor stated before walking off.

"Brian, you go." Nick said, pushing Brian through the doorway to Lieghanne.
Brian entered the room and gasped at what he saw. Lieghanne was laying on
the hospital bed, with a white bandage around her head and more bandages on
her right arm. Her hair was matted to her face, her skin a pasty white.
Brian ran up to Lieghanne's bedside.

"Leighanne!" Brian began crying.

Chapter 13

Days went by, Lieghanne still hadn't gotten out of her coma state. While
Brian was mourning over Lieghanne, Nick went out in search of the proof that
Nicole was manipulating AJ. so far he had gotten zilch. Brian wasn't much
help either. He had become pale and the joy in his eyes was gone. His
southern gentlemen act had become hatred. He barely spoke to anyone. All he
did was sit next to Lieghanne and look at her face. He never touched her,
thinking that he was the 'cause of the stress she was going through.

The doctors said that she could hear what was going on around her and that
maybe, just maybe, if we show her enough love, she'll come back.

"Come on Bri! How 'bout you come and get some fresh air?" Kevin tried to
enlighten his cousin.

Brian just shook his head and continued looking at Lieghanne, thinking about
all the happy times  they had had together. Their first meeting, their first
date, the day he asked her to go steady, the first time they said 'I love
you,' the first time she came on tour with the guys, the time he proposed to
her, the first time they made love, the engagement party, their wedding, and
the day they found out that they were going to have a baby. Those were the
good times.
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"Where the hell is it?" Nick asked no one in particular. He had found a key
to Nicole's apartment at AJ's house. He then found out that AJ and Nicole
would be gone the whole day, so he decided to find the tape at her
apartment. After all, where else to find a creatures treasures, then its
lair.

Nick tried to be as neat as possible when he was looking through the
apartment. Nothing! About the only place he hadn't checked was the closet.
"It doesn't hurt to try." Nick shrugged as he made his way to the closet.
The walk-in closet held many clothes. Nick sighed. "Looks like she really
does have AJ wrapped around her little finger."

He dug through the clothes finding nothing. Just as he turned around and was
about to leave the closet, his eyes met a coat that he hadn't checked out.
He searched thorugh its pockets. "Nothing! Man I have bad lu-" Nick stopped.
His hands were clutching a rectangular object. He pulled his hand out and
sure enough, there was a cassette.

Nick walked out of the closet hoping it really was the proof he needed. He
saw a cassette player nearby so decided to check it out. As he inserted the
tape and pushed the play button, Joey's voice filled the air. "Yep! This is
it!" Nick jumped for glee and ran out of the apartment and into his car. He
couldn't wait to tell Brian. Surely this would make him feel better.

As Nick reached the Lieghanne's hospital room, he saw Kevin walking out with
a sad look on his face. "How's he doing?" Nick asked.

Kevin just shook his head and walked away. Nick sighed. "Damn! He's at it
again." Nick had noticed the change that Brian had gone through in the past
few days. He wouldn't talk, seldom eat, and spend all his time looking at
Leighanne's pasty face. "He doesn't deserve this." Nick wiped a tear as he
headed towards Lieghanne's hospital room.

"Hey Bri!" Nick called out as he entered the room.

No answer.

Nick sighed. He's at it again. Sometimes it seems that Brian's the one in a
coma. Nick walked up to the chair Brian was slumped in.

"Guess what?" Nick asked. "I found the tape with the proof. We can show it
to AJ and he'll drop her in a snap!" Nick waited for some kind of reaction
from Brian. Anything would be better than staring into the dead eyes of his
beloved friend. Nick got nothing. Brian lay there unblinking. His lifeless
eyes losing the glimmer they once held.

"What am I going to do?" Nick asked himself. He put his hands together and
closed his eyes, not wanting to take in the image that lay in front of him.
"Oh God, help us through this time of difficulty. Help us, please help us."
Nick silently prayed as silent tears escaped his eyes and he left the room.

As Nick walked out of the room, he bumped into Lieghanne's doctor.

"Sorry doc." Nick mumbled as he began to leave. He then stopped. "Um...how
good of a chance do you think Lieghanne has of comming out of the coma?"
Nick was afraid of the answer, but knew that he had to ask.

The doctor shook his head. "She would be much better off, if Brian would
talk to her. See the thing with people in a coma is that they have to want
to come back. When they are in a coma, it's like they are in another
dimension. There is no pain there. It's everything they ever dream. It's
paradise, but it's lonely. If they have a reason to return to us, they will.
And as far as I can see, Lieghanne's not getting much reason. I understand
that you are trying, but you really need to get Brian to say something." The
doctor explained.

Nick nodded his head and turned to head back into Leighanne's room. He knew
that what he was about to do wasn't the best way to deal with the problem,
but to hell with that. He walked into the room and to Brian. Nick raised his
hand high above Brian's head and smacked him hard. And hard meant HARD!

"OWW!" Brian screamed. Nick was so happy. Tears of joy began pouring out of
his eyes. Brian had finally said something. Before Brian knew it, he was
being enveloped in a big bear hug from Nick. Brian was bewildered. "What the
hell is wrong with you frack?" Brian asked, as if he hadn't known what had
been happening in the past few days.

Nick smiled. "Glad you're still part of the living." Nick joked.

"What are you talkin' bout Nick?" Brian said as he turned around. When his
face fell on Lieghanne, the brightness from his eyes was gone again as he
returned to his state of shock.


Chapter 14

"Oh no! Brian, you are not fading out on me again." Nick yelled. Too late.
Nick got ready to hit Brian again. "If it worked once, it can work again."

As he hit Brian, Brian glanced up. His eyes were still dead. "What's your
problem Nick?" Brian asked hoarsly.

Nick couldn't take it anymore. He let all his thoughts and feelings out.
"You wanna know what's my problem? You wanna know?" Nick gestured all his
opinions with his hands. "You! You're my problem. You say that it's your
fault that this happened to Lieghanne, well I got news for you, it's not!
But it is your fault that she's not getting better. You wanna know why?
Because she doesn't want to come back. Compared to our world, her world is
paradise. Why the hell would she ever want to leave? I mean, you're the only
reason she lives. Now you won't hold her, touch her, talk to her. Face it
man, you don't love her anymore! You don't love her!" Nick said angrily. He
knew that what he said last was definetly gonna get a reaction from Brian,
and sure enough he got one. A very painful one.

Brian's hand met Nick's cheek in a hard slap. Brian's eyes turned from rage
to deep pain. "I do love her. I love her very much. But I'm going to hurt
her. I can't do that again." Brian broke down on Nick's shoulder.

Nick patted Brian's back. "Don't you see? The only way you're hurting her is
from thinking that you are. You gotta show her that you love her. You gotta
give her a reason to come back!"

"What do you want me to do?" Brian asked, lifting his head up so he was
looking at Nick.

"Talk to her man. Let her know that you love her. Tell her how important she
is to you." Nick said. Nick placed his hand on Brian chest, motioning to his
heart. "Do what it tells you, not what you're mind says."

Brian smiled. "Thanks frack, I really needed that."

"Hey, what are friends for?"

"Speaking of friends, where are all the others?"

"Well, Kevin just left, Howie will be here shortly, and...."

"And....what about AJ?"

"Nicole won't let him come. She keeps telling him that if we have no respect
for her it probably means that we have no respect for J either. Talk about a
buncha bullshit!"

Brian's face saddened once again. Nick saw the change of expression. "What
happened?" Nick asked. "Oh...Nicole."

"Yeah. How are we gonna make AJ believe that Nicole isn't worth this?"

Nick smiled and tried to said in his super-hero voice, "Have no fear, Nick
is here!"

Brian chuckled. "Yeah and what exactly is Nick planning to do?"

"Well, I got into her house and-" Nick began but got cut off.

"What? You broke into her house? Nick that's a crime, if she finds out, she
can press charges and belive me, we don't want that."

"Well...I wouldn't call it breaking in. It was more like...visiting. I had
the key. I got it from AJ's house when he wasn't looking. And there is no
way she will find out, I was pretty neat if I do say so myself."

Brian laughed. "Whatever you say frack."

Suddenly a deep voice from behind said, "I really missed that laugh."

Nick and Brian turned around to see Howie and Kevin standing by the doorway.
They both came up to Brian and enveloped him in a hug. "It's been long."
Howie sighed against Brian's shoulder.

"Ya'll, I didn't go anywhere!" Brian chuckled at his friends.

"And he talks!" Kevin said, trying to ease the mood.

"Very funny. Now frack here was telling me something." Brian informed and
everyone turned their attention to Nick.

"Thank you. As I was saying before I was rudely interup-"

"Just get to the point!" Howie screamed.

"Fine! Some people are too impatient."

"Some people would rather listen to a friend they haven't talked to in
awhile then listen to a lunatic that they are trying to avoid." Howie
informed.

"Hey! I am no lunatic! And why the hell are you trying to avoid me?" Nick
rambled.

"Just get on with it!" Kevin said, wanting to stop the arguement.

"Ok, anyways, I found proof that Nicole is helping NSYNC's scheme against
us."

"What? That's great. What's the proof?" Kevin asked.

"Well, it's a cassette." Nick said as he pulled a cassette out of his
pocket.

"Well, how 'bout we go over to Kevin's and listen to the cassette? It'll
really help to get Brian out of this room and get freshened up." Nick said.

"Should I leave her?" Brian asked, looking at Lieghanne laying in bed.

"How 'bout you just come to my house and get freshened up, then come back
here?" Kevin asked.

Brian nodded his head. He went over to Lieghanne and kissed her forehead.
"I'll be back hon." Brian said as he walked out the door with Kevin, Howie,
and Nick in front of him. The guys all got into their cars and followed
Kevin to his house.

When they got there, Brian grabbed a towel and some clothes (Brian came to
Kevin often so alot of his clothes were there) and went to the bathroom
upstairs to take a quick refreshing shower. Brian entered the bathroom and
stripped himself of his clothes. He looked at his reflection in the mirror
and was taken aback by the change in his features. There were worry lines on
his forehead. His face was pale and his eyes stripped of laughter. The
corners of his mouth turned down "Damn! I've changed so much." A tear
escaped Brian's eyes. "Lieghanne, where are you when I need you?" Brian
thought as he set the water to his liking.

Brian, then, stepped into the shower. He let the lukewarm water run over his
face and mix with his tears. "I miss you so much Lieghanne. I love you."
Brian said out loud, hoping that someway, somehow, Lieghanne would hear.
~~~MEAHWHILE, DOWNSTAIRS...~~~

Nick inserted the tape into the cassette player. "Here it is..." Nick said,
as Joey's voice filled the room. The guys listened to the tape intently.
When it was finished, they were all shocked. Nick reached and turned off the
tape player.

"Hey can you rewind it some." Howie said.

Nick nodded as he rewinded and played the cassette again. The conversation
came back to life.
***The cassette***

"So are you gettin' the job done?" Joey asked Nicole.

" It's going pretty good.  They don't suspect a thing!" Nicole answered.

"Why would they?  They're so damn dumb.  You're right under their noses and
they don't understand a thing." Justin smirked.

"This is easy money!" Nicole responded.

Lance was a little unsure about the whole idea, "Ya'll are you sure this is
right?"

Chris yelled,"Shut up Lance.  Of course it is.  I mean, I don't understand
how they got there but those Backstreeters are number 1 globally.  With them
out of the way, we'll sweep the world!"

JC, just like Lance, didn't like the plot very much,"But wouldn't that be
wrong?  We wouldn't be earning it!"

"This is show biz. There's nothin but a buncha sharks here. You win some,
you lose some. Everyone's got their time" Chris assured JC.

Joey smile," And as far as I'm concerned, their time is up."

Justin decided to change the subject,"So Nicole, how's AJ?"
***End cassette***

Nick stopped the cassette. "We don't need to hear the re-" Nick was cut off.
The rest of the cassette began playing again.
***Cassette***

Nicole laughed,"I've got him wrapped around my little fingers!"

Joey replied,"Typical."
***End Cassette***

The tape stopped, rewound, and played again.
***Cassette***

Nicole laughed,"I've got him wrapped around my little fingers!"

Joey replied,"Typical."
***End cassette***

By this time, the rest of the guys turned around and saw AJ standing next to
the cassette player, his right index finger hovering over the play button
and silent tears escaping his eyes. "I loved her." he whispered.

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