Chapter 10 - Finally
I've never been single for more than
a couple of weeks. It's not that I'm needy-needy, I just like male companionship.
With Triple M out of the picture, I went out with a guy who owned a tea
house/restaurant in Marlow. It didn't last long. The two most memorable
things about that relationship were: one , we shagged on the table in his
restaurant; and two during the sumer he took Geri and me to the Henley
Regatta. We dressed up posh and play-acted all day.' I say, do look at
that punt over there!' It was hysterical.
One night while he was away on holiday
, Geri and me went to the cinema with her lawyer friend James and his brother
Richie. They both have terribly posh accents. After the film I said to
Richie, 'I quit fancy you,' and he said,' Yeah ,I fancy you too.' So when
Marlow Man (Double M!) got back from his holliday I told him I'd met someone
else.
When I started going out with Richie,James
asked 'How did you manage to get her then?'
'I don't know , she's just hounding
me,' Richie said.
As it turned out, Richie was very
grounding for me. A jewellery engraver , he came from a solid , loving
family, was a nine-to-fiver and liked cooking dinner.(Somewhere in the
back of my mind I'd set myself the goal of being woth someone who wore
suit to work.I was fascinated by the idea , because in Leeds I rarely saw
people in suits apart from the odd teacher.)
He was a fantastic boyfriend and
really helped to keep me centred when everything kicked off for the spice
girls a bit later fown the line. Most of all he gave me a loving , understanding
relationship. His parents were lovely and very welcoming . His father made
me kaugh because he was always going on about his teeth and how he was
convinced that one of them was going to fall out. His mum was Australian
and I used to have very interesting conversations with her. She was a brilliant
, powerful family woman.
Richie lived in St Albans and sometimes
came to stay at the house in Maidenhead. He got on well with the other
girls , especially Melanie , who cooked us some fantastic dinners. By this
point the group was seriously considering leaving Bob , Chris and Chic.
Our idea about which direction we should go in just didn't match theirs.
They wanted to dictate what we wore and the material we sang. We wanted
to write out own songs and wear what we liked. Incompatible isn't the word.
The showcase had been a turning
pint in more ways than one. It had made us realise how good we were
, but it also brought us together with several songwriter/producer. The
first writer we worked with was an American called Alan Glass, who had
a small studio in his house just outside london. It was our first taste
of co-writing together we came up with some good R&B numbers, pretty
much copying the style of Eternal, our favorite girl group of the moment,
although the vocal arrangements were different. From the start we shared
out the singing between is - one person sang the first verse, someone else
sang the bridge and we all came together for the chorus-which set the pattern
for the future. Our month with Alan also have us our first experience of
recording and we loved every minute of it, even though he didn't give us
much control over the musical side of things.
After Alan came a writer named Roger,
a tall black guy who had a studio in his flat on a little housing estate
in London. The studio equipment was in his front room and you sang on the
landing ,in an improvised 'vocal booth'. Things didn't work out with Roger.
When the demos came back they sounded terrible because he'd added his voice
to all harmonies!
The two mist significant people
we met at the showcase were Matt Rowe and Richard 'Biff' Stannard, a song
writing team that went on to have a massive influence on the spice girls
sound. We got on with Matt and Biff from the very start. Instinctively
they seemed to understand what we were about and soon the set about incorporating
the spirit of five loud girls into great pop music. They weren't in the
least bit patronising or superior, although they had every right to be.
They were experienced writers and producers who had done a lot of
work with east 17, whereas we were absolue beginners.
We may have been naive but we weren't
short on ideas and the great thing about Matt and Biff was that they
listened. How, I don't know, because quite often all five of us would be
shouting at once , but between the lot of us we created some fantastic
songs in The Strong Room , their studio in Curtain Road, EC2. Although
we didn't have much experience of writing , we were always listening
to music. We had music coming out of our cars and rooms constantly and
were into all the newest clubs, tunes and porate stations.
'Let's write a ballad today!'
'Yeah!'
'What about ?'
'Is there anyone you want to slag
off ?'
'I've got one! This boy really pissed
me off once...'
The one rule was that we would'nt
write a love song. Our mission was to tell men what we wanted from them
instead.
I thought Matt was a complete freak
when I first met him but I instantly gelled with him. We had a special
relationship. He's a highly intelligent guy-a;most yoo intelligent for
his own good , in each and every area- but with a nervous energy that takes
a while to get used to. He's got a bit of a stutter and sometimes seems
as though he's just been told that World War Three is about to break out
at any minute. We got into a lot of debates and I really enjoyed talking
to him. When he and Geri started making eyes at each other I knew what
was going on, even though they denied it. I knew them both too well for
it to be a secret from me.
Matt was the main music guy and
Biff worked on the lyrics, but they used to swap and change and mix it
all up. Biff ( please Biff, do not be offended) is exactly what you would
think a Biff would look like. His name is so perfect- and I mean that in
a good way. He's a big , cuddly man with that newborn baby look.There's
no one else like him. He's incredibly open and you can learn a lot from
him. You always felt liek you could say anything to Biff. Sometimes he
seemed just like one of the girls , other times he was quit fatherky, passing
on advice and warnings about the way the music industry works. There was
never a ruck between the five of us when Biff was around . He could spot
trouble a mile off and knew how to keep things smooth.
The fact that things were working
out so well with Matt and Biff made it harder to make decision about the
contract. Would they still work with us if we left Bob and Chris? It was
a risk we were going to have to take, although we delayed for as long as
we could. Inevitably, though, there came that point when we knew it all
had to end. Chris and Bob and Chic were hassling us to sign and we ran
out if excuses. it was time to leg it.
We did a midnight flit from the
house. Well it was more of a 9 p.m. flit but that doesn't sound as dramatic.
Vicky and Emma both went off home and Melanie beaded back to Sidcup. Geri
and me were the last to leave. We really played up the drama of the situation
and acted like B-movie criminals.
'Quick, get in the car! is anybody
looking ? Let's get out of here!'
Just them I half expected the Starsky
& Hutch theme tune to start playing out of a music system in the sky.
Off we went to stay at Rrichie's house in St Albans, where Geri had to
sleep on a bed framce that had no mattress. I didn't feel guilty about
leavnig Bob and Chris. We were just going in different directions.
We phoned Matt and Biff.' We've
left Bob and Chris. Will you still work with us ?'
'No problem.' said Biff.' Of corse
we will.'
Thanks Biff, we needed that. Now
we knew for sure that we'd done the right thing. It was a crucial confidence
booster.
A couple if days later we were
due to be working with a writer called Elliot Kenedy at his studio up in
Sheffield. Elliot had worked with Take That and obviously we didn't want
to miss the chance to write with him too, but the session had been organised
by Bob and Chris and none of is had a clue how to get gold of Elliot. Or
whether he would agree to work with us now.
So Geri and I decided to drive up
to Sheldffield and find him. After talking it over , Melanie , vicky and
emma agreed to catch the train up the next day. Melanie had just come into
some money- a family inheritance of about 300 or 400 (pound)- and she offered
to pay fo the petrol and fares to Sheffield as will as a wek's rent in
a cheap bedsit. It was typically generous of her- she's always been very
giving- but I think it's fair to say that any one of us would have done
the same if we'd had the money. We were in this together , all for one
and one for all. ( Sorry Mel , I think that to this day we've never paid
you back.)
Halfway to Sheffield we were bombing
down the motorway, werving all over the place, when we saw a phone box
on the slip road. Screeeech! We looked through the yellow pages and found
nine Kennedys in the area. The thirs number we called was Elliot's.
'Hi!it'sMelandGerifromSpiceandweneedtotalktotouwe'reonourwayuptoSheffieldcanyoumeetustongiht?'
This was urgent, man. The words
came out so fast that they almost had a heart attack. Elliot was 'the guy'.
Mr Big. For the whole journey up from London we had been consumed by one
thought: Will he or won't he work with us ?
'Hello MelandGeri,' said Elliot
warmly. 'Look , I've got to go and see a violinist about some recording
work. Meet me there.'
Geri wrote down the address and
at around misnight we found ourselves driving along a bumpy winding country
read in what seemed like the middle of nowhere. Uo ahead loomed the shadowy
silhouette of a huge country mansion, all leaded windows and turrets. Two
massive Alsatians met us at the gate, barking ferociously. We looked up
at the house. There weren't any lights oon and not a noise could be heard.
Was anybody in ? I cought Geri's eye. I could tell we were both thinking
the same thing. This is really fishy. We knew virtually nothing about Elliot,
after all. I think we both felt a bit frightened deep down..
The house was in almost complete
darkness. On the first floor we saw a light under a door, so we knocked
and went in. We walked into the room to find a tall chunky guy with dark
redish hair and glasses,sitting on a sofo with a girl with long hair. She
looked young and fresh and gooey-eyed.
'Uh, hi,Elliot?'
'Ah. You must be MelandGeri! Come
in.'
Elliot seemed pleased to see us
so we told him our story there and then.
'Look, we've split with Bob and
Chris. We've got the money together to pay for the studio. The otheres
are coming up tomorow. Will you still work with us this weekend ?'
'Yeah fine.' he said with
a friendly shrug.
'Oh my god!' we gasped, our knees
practically buckling beneath us. We were on a high for weeks after that.
The first sing we wrote with Elliot
was' Love Thing', which is one if the tracks on 'Spice', the first Spice
Girls Album. A far cry from that Bob and Chris wanted us to sing,
it set a precedent for the spice sound (and message) with its punchy melody
and assertive lyrics. Elliot had already set down a beat for the sinbg
and sketched a melody; the rest came together in a kind of jam.Geri and
I made up the rao ib our second day.
God help the mister,yeah gold help
the mister! That comes between me and my sisters. At that point in our
lives boys and love were second to what we had as girls together and most
of our early songs reflect that. Girl power was partly about getting what
you wanted out of a relationship pr a friendship with a boy,and not pandering
to the male ego.
There's no room for lovin' stop that
push and shovin' yeah,
Don't wanna know about that love
thing,
Give me what I'm needing you know
what I'm dreaming of
Being without a manager seemed to
energise us. It didn't matter that we were broke and pratically homeless,
we were on a fast track to...Somewhere! As we sat in Elliot's vocal booth
recording our first proper song, it was truly amazing to think that Take
That had been in the very same studio in the very same studio a couple
of months before us. We were so impressed.
Elliot very kindly let us stay at
his house, which was a little semi that used to belong to his mum and dad.
Most nights Ii dragged Emma back to Leeds with me and we'd go off to Charlotte's
house or Maya's. Maya was-and is- another very good Leeds friend . I drove
my mum's litle Polo between Sheffiels and Leeds, constantly paranoid that
I'd get caught because I wasn't unsured. The others stayed at Elliots's
, in his mum's old bed. In the evenings they'd change into their nighties
and pyjamas, go downstairs and watch TV with him. He was mad on Star Trek,
a proper anorak.
Whenever I stayed at my mum's she'd
moan,'What is this bloody group anyway ? You've got no money, no work,
no manager.'
I'd been 'borrowing' money off her
for months now and it infuriated her that I'd auditioned for a film about
a year previously and suddenly they wanted me to fly out to America for
the shoot. Then a German record company executive rang up and asked if
I would be interested in discussing a deal. A few offers came and went-
for all of us- but we stayed firm. We were in the group and that was that.
'We're going to make it no matetr
what,' I told my mum.
'But what's the next move? How long
is it going to be before you start earning some money?' she complained.
My mum's car would never have got
her to London, so while we were in Sheffiels I said, 'Right, I'm going
to bring the others down this weekend and show you.' So I took them all
home. We did a mini performance in the kitchen, told my mum and dad about
our plans and recited quotes from all the people at the showcase who'd
told us that we'd got what it takes. My mum and dad were amazed at our
performance 'Og my god!' Suddenly they understood. That night all my aunties
came round and we had a slap-up dinner, watched TV and got completely smashed.
Welcome to the mad brown family , girls!
Ithink we'd all have liked to continue
working with Elliot, but with 'Love Thing' finished it was time to go down
south again. Back in The Strong Room with Matt and Biff we wrote another
new song. It only took about twenty minuted to write in a sydden creative
frenzy, but we instantly had a feeling that it was something special. Matt
and Biff were incredibly excited. Matt stayed up all ngiht working on the
track abd Biff found him sniggled in a sleeping bad on the vocal booth
floor next morning. There was apost-it note stuck to the decks saying.
PRESS PLAY.
Biff cranket up the volume and Matt
woke up to the sound of the openin gbards of what was to become the first
ever Spice Girls single, 'Wannabe'.( Me and Geri shouting!)
Now we had two fantastic songs it
was tiem to find a new manager. We were in a strong positon to conquer
the world- we knew that. All we needed was someone to help us come uo with
the master plan.
We thought about the artists we
admired and why we admired them, then it was Geri's job to find out who
looked after them. She made loads of phone calls and soon had a long list
of potential managers. She also enlisted the help of Mark Fox, a music
publisher at BMG Publishing who'd been at the showcase. We became very
friendly with Mark, who'd been the drummer in eighties band Haircut 100
and looked a bit like Morten Harket from Aha (Another eighties band).He
took us to dinner at places like Julie's in Holland Park and was very well
conencted,helping us with names and numbers and arranging interviews with
record companies and managers. Sometimes he'd be our spokesperson when
we went to meetinfs ,other times we went alone.
Geri's car was our think tank and
her Filofax our computer. We bombed our way around london, exploding into
the offices of agents,managers and record companies- well, the ones that
let us in, anyway. A tape of 'Wannabe' would be shoved hurriedly into the
music system , then I'd shout' C'mon!' and jump up on the table while
Mel dod a back flip, Victoria flashed her legs and Emma jumped up and down.
We all bounced around like maniacs for a couple of minutes, singing and
dancing, then Geri would introduce us and explain why we were there. It
was great. They didn't know what had hit them. I think it's safe to say
that no one we have ever 'Spiced' has forgotten the experience.
The others became used to seeing
me write my diary. Wherever we went, one of my little notebooks always
came too. 'The group as a whole is a magical joining of forces' ,I wrote
at the time. 'It's so poweful that on a good day it blows your mind away.'
One of the managers on Geri's list
asked us round for dinenr. We were so skint that we decided not to eat
all day and then stuff ourselves when we got to his house. In the car on
the way we started fantasising about the meal to come.
'I hope it's a chicken!'
'Or a stir fry!'
'Lots of salad!'
'Chocolate cake!'
The first thing he did when we arrived
was pull out a big plate of doughnuts, which he handed to me first. 'Oh
no thanks.' I said. 'I don't want to ruin my appetite. I'll wait till dinner.'
'This is dinner!' he said.
Oh no.
We might have considered him
after some chicken friedrice, but a lardy plate if doughbuts just wasn't
doing it.
We met up with another potential
manager in his basement office in central london. 'Hi! We're the spice
girls,' we annouced as we piled in and introduced ourselves in our typical
all-singing, all-dancing, over-the-top way. Well , you could tell he was
impressed. If he'd been a cartoon character we'd have seen the pund signs
ring up in his eyes as his mouth dropped open and gold coins came pouring
out. He was frothing with glee and rubbing his hands together like Scrooge
in front of a teasure chest.
It was his turn to talk and he turned
it on big time. Ug-oh. As I sat there listening to him doing this old 'I
can take you girls to the top of the charts, bosh-bosh' spiel,
I thought, Oh My God. Please no.
We came back out onto the street
looked at one another. 'Actually he was talking a load of bullshit. wasn't
he ?' I ventured.
'Total crap,' said Vicky.
Phew! All together now in a Dalek
voice:'Eliminate!'
It was Geri's job to tell people
when we weren't intrested. To our amusement, some of them went ballistic
adn really took it to heart. The rest of us would listen in as she broke
the news. 'Sorry,we're going to look elsewhere. You don't quit fit what
we're looking for in a manager at the moment.'
One guy took it so personally that
she had to hold the receiver away from her ear as he ranted on at her.
It was hilarious; we laughed our heads iff. These were grown men who'd
been in the business for years and years and they were behaving like two-years-olds.
It felt good to be telling them where to get off. It made us feel like
proper power chicks. But as the weeks passed and we still didn't have a
manager, we started to get a bit anxious. All our potential candidates
had been crossed off the list.
At least we knew what we didn't
want- no controlling , please-with-himself, greedy, tightwad manager was
coming anywhere near us. We needed someone with brilliance and integrity.
Now who was it to be ?
Meanwhile Mark Fox had introduced
us to Paul Wilson and Andy Watkins -Known as Absolute - another team of
writers/producers. Paul was thin, tall , quite young-looking and alsmost
Harry Potter-ish with his round glasses.Andy was cooler, a bit more London,
with a street edge and very short hair-baggy jeans vibe. They made a good
match- sensible and kind of not sensible- and we started working with them
around April 1995. Their studios were miles away in Twickenham. We'd have
to park the car, cross the river by bridge and walk for ages until we came
to a massive cul-de-sac containing a scrap yard, some lawyers offices,
the Absolute studios and a cafe. The cafe did fantastic toasted egg-mayo-bacon-ketshup
sarnies.
Paul and Andy were more old-school
soul than Matt and Biff. They were into the funk vibe- more Angie Stone
than Bananarama. We wrote 'Something Kinda Funny' with them and they also
went in to produce the two songs we did with Elliot, 'Love Thing' and Say
you'll be there'.
When Paul and Andy mentioned that
their manager was in partnership with Simon Fuller, Annie Lennox's manager,
Geri wrote his name down in her filofax. Before she had a chance to call
him he phoned and asked to meet us. He'd listened to 'Something kinda funny'
and he was curious.
Well, so were we.
Simon Fuller had been a publishing
scout for Chrysalis Records in the mid-eighties, then left to set up a
company of his own. He called it 19 management because 19 was most definitely
his lucky number. His first big breal came when a young produver he was
managing- Paul Hardcastle- put out a best selling single in 1985. An anti-Vietnam
War sing called, you've guessed it , '19', it sold bucket loads and was
number one for weeks.
Next he discovered Cathy Dennis.
I particularly remembered Cathy because of the red catsuit she'd worn in
one of her videos. She was a pretty singer/songwriter who we all admired.
As well as having had a successful career as a solo artist, Cathy is a
respected writer, responsible for tracks like Kylie's 2001 hit, 'Can't
Get You Out Of My Head'. Simon also managed Annie Lennox. Well, I had a
special connection with Annie Lennox because my dad used to play her music
all the time when I was living at home.
The offices of 19 Management were
in Ransome's Dock, Battersea. We were quit giddy as we went up in the lift-
as we always were- wondering what this guy was going to be like. Stepping
out into a large,light0filled open-plan office, we instantly clocked that
it wasn't a stressed working environment.Everyone seemed chilled. I don't
remember seeing any men working there, it was all women, and quite classy
women too.
I'd become accustomed to seeing
into this kind of environment and I did regilarly notice that black and
mixed race people and people of colour were nowhere to be seen. This didn't
bother me outwardly but became more and more of an issue deep inside,even
though I didn't express it at the time.
Simon Fuller's office was in the
cornevr of the room. It had smoked-glass walls so that you could see out
but not in, and blinds. In my fantasy world I'd dreamed of a beach house
with those kinds of smoked-glass walls.
We waited for what seemed like ages,
although it was probably only a few minutes, our gazes flicking over the
many gold discs hanging on the inner walls of the office. Could Simon Fuller
be the one ? We'd interviewed so many managers and been disappointed so
many times. We generally made up our minds about people on impluse, within
the first ten or fifteen minutes of meeting them, so we'd soon know if
Simon was right. I had my fingers crossed, desperately hoping he would
be.
When Simon finally walked in we
collectivelt held our breath and waited. It wouldn't be long now.
It only took a few sentences.
'What do you girls want ?' he asked.
'I'm here to listen to your story .I know your music already, so tell me
what you envisage for the future.'
If you're stuck for conversation,
always ask a question! It breaks the ice every time, because who doesn't
like to talk about themselves and their experience?
My first impression of Simon was
of a small bit stocky man with black hair and a tan, who had the presence
of a knowledgeable teacher. He seemed very in tune with our vision as we
played him our songs and told him all the things we wanted to do.
'We want to be an international
band. We want to take over the world. We want to make a film!'
'We want to be a household name,
bigger than Persil Automatic!' saod Vicky.
'Most importantly we want to be
ourselves,' we said.'Kids can see through bullshit.'
Simon seemed to take every word
we said seriously. Instead of immediately imposing his own ideas he said,'
Well yes, we could do that in this way or in that way.' or 'What I suggest
is this...' He was very understanding and very calm- not too clam to appear
blase, but interested, relaxed and gentle. He used his hands in an incredibly
expressive way and spoke in the softest of voices. He instantly inspired
our confidence.
This was the manager we'd been looking
for.
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