If You Only Knew

Author: Angel
Rated: VEEERY NC-17
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copyright 2001

As they all sat in the entertainment area of the bus, Kevin shot Nick a glance only to be responded by Nick with a cold stare and avoidance of any further communication, even non verbal.

Kevin couldn't take anymore of this and walked out without any previous statement or warning. He just left to sleep on his bunk. Well... not actually sleep because he knew that was a luxury he hadn't experienced since the "glorious weekend."

Meanwhile back in the entertainment room, someone with a bit of a perceptive eye noticed what had just happened and decided to do something about it.

"What's going on between you and Kevin, Nick?" AJ asked.

"Nothing, what do you mean?"

"Actually, now that you mention it AJ, there have been these weird looks between them and they don't speak. I mean, we've been on tour for about three weeks now and I can honestly say that I haven't heard them direct a word to each other." Brian added.

"Yeah." Howie agreed.

"Look, I don't know what you guys are talking about." Nick shot back at all three men. He felt he was being cornered and it wasn't fair.

They just ignored his statement and kept on talking amongst themselves as if Nick couldn't hear, but he could. They weren't even making an attempt to whisper... they were talking completely normal.

"You know what else I've noticed Brian?"

"What Bone?"

"This all started happening after that weekend Kevin, Nick and Julie spent together. And remember, Nick came back early. He came back that same Friday. Kevin and Julie stayed until Monday morning." AJ stated.

Nick silently cursed him for his friends not minding their own god damn business.

"Oh my god! You're right." Brian gasped at the realization that AJ was right.

"You guys can keep speculating over this all you want. I'm tired and I am going to bed. I'll see y'all tomorrow." Howie announced and walked away and into his bunk.

"See ya D."

"Yeah... nighty night." Brian giggled.

Nick was still in the entertainment room with Brian and AJ and they still ignored him.

"So, what do you think it means AJ?"

"I don't know Rok, but my imagination is sure speculating."

"What do you think it might be?"

"Well, it could be that Nick confessed his love for Kevin and Kevin told him that there would be no way in hell that he could ever get with him."

"No!" Nick yelled but it seemed to go unnoticed by both men.

"Or it could be that he confessed that he wanted Julie and Kevin kicked him out." AJ continued.

"Ooh." Brian smiled.

Nick was getting more frustrated by the second. He could not believe his two brothers were speculating about his life right in front of him.

"Or it could be that Kevin and Nick had sex and Nick liked it a little too much so from that point he wanted Kevin for himself but Kevin still liked Julie and for Kevin, Nick was only a good lay." Brian suggested.

"You have a twisted mind Rok!" AJ laughed.

"I know."

By this time, Nick had began letting his tears flow but again, they didn't seem to notice. He was crying because the words Brian had said hit a little too close to the truth. He did want Kevin. But what if Kevin only thought of him as a "good lay" or a one time thing. Oh god. This hurt him.

Nick got up and ran towards his bunk and jumped in.

"Well, well, well... I think you hit a nerve Brian." AJ chuckled.

"I think so." Brian said feeling the pain of guilt build up in his chest.

When Nick got into his bunk he didn't notice he wasn't alone until a pair of strong arms wrapped around him, holding him in place.

"Now your going to tell me what the hell is wrong with you or I am never letting you go." Kevin whispered close to Nick's ear.

Nick felt like telling him "is that a promise?" but instead just uttered it in his mind and held back from verbally producing it.

"Kevin, let me go. I don't want you to touch me or talk to me or anything. Leave me alone. I want nothing to do with you."

"That's fine Nicky but I am not letting you go until you tell me why."

"I am not telling you shit, old man."

"Old man? Hmm, I seem to recall someone wanting to suck this old man's dick. I recall someone screaming like a little whore when this old man fucked him. I wonder who that was... oh yes... I remember... it was you."

As uncomfortable as this situation was for Nick, he still couldn't help but get aroused.

"Shut up Kevin!"

"What's the matter? Does the truth hurt my little bitch? Aw." Kevin said in a mock sarcastic tone.

And as offended as Nick should have been, he got even more aroused by Kevin calling him his "bitch."

"Now Nicky... are you going to tell me or am I going to have to fuck it out of you."

Ooh, that actually sounded tempting to Nick. And it wasn't like Kevin couldn't do it. Nick knew Kevin was naked and he himself was only wearing boxers so it would be totally possible for Kevin.

"Kevin... get away from me!" Somehow Nick's voice had lost some of it's power and was now a little more submissive. Sort of like a bitch's voice.

"I don't think you really want me to leave Nicky..." Kevin said as he pulled Nicks boxers off his ass, exposing it to Kevin's bare flesh, "See, I think you want this huge, thick, throbbing cock..." Kevin said as he rubbed his manhood against Nick's crack, "Inside you, deeper inside you than anything that came before because you know that nothing can fill you like this huge 10 in. cock inside your tight little bitch ass."

All this dirty talk had Nick harder than ever and he felt he could just come from Kevin's words and the fact that Kevin was spooning him and teasing him with that oh so fucking damn perfect instrument of pleasure that is Kevin's cock.

"Tell me that you want it Nicky and it's done. I will be in there." Kevin kept teasing.

"No." Nick managed to say though it cost him every single ounce of self control he had and he knew he wouldn't be able to do that again. He would be putty in Kevin's arms if he should decide to ask again.

Kevin reached around and cupped Nick's balls. "You know Nicky... you are not so bad yourself." Kevin then moved his hand and wrapped around Nick's painfully erect cock. "Your pretty big. You're a big boy, aren't you?"

Nick only moaned his response.

"What was that Nicky? Was that an invitation for me to enter you? Well, why didn't you just say so?" And as the sound of the last letter in his last word, Kevin entered Nick with no lube, no condom, and no previous probing.

Nick held on to Kevin's arms still around him as the wave of pure pain and blissfully delightful pleasure hit him. He brought one of Kevin's hands up to his mouth and took Kevin's middle finger in. He knew if he didn't have something in there, he would scream.

"You like that huh?" Kevin asked slowly building a rhythm with his cock now slowly and carefully sliding in and out of Nick's tight and only used once before ass. And that one time, it was Kevin as well, so it was all good for Kevin. He was satisfied knowing that Nick's body belonged to him.

Nick removed Kevin's finger from his mouth only and instant to utter some words, "Kevin... I want it hard and fast..." He put Kevin's finger back in his mouth and continued to greedily suck it like he wanted to suck Kevin's cock.

"Whatever you wish, my love." Kevin said before speeding up his thrusts and making sure that with each thrust he dove all the way in and all the way back out. He also wanted to make sure he stroked Nick's prostate with each thrust.

If Nick wasn't in love with him then, he sure would be after this fuck. If there was one thing Kevin knew how to do was fuck and he was putting everything he knew to good use right now. He wanted Nick to beg to be his bitch. He wanted Nick to feel empty without his cock inside him. He wanted Nick to feel that without him, he would be nothing.

Nick couldn't help but keep sucking to control his moans... he was going crazy. Kevin was so perfect.

"How are you liking this so far baby?" Kevin asked.

Nick sucked even harder on his finger and Kevin took that as his answer. His plan was working.

Kevin began pumping Nick's ass wildly. Sliding in and out at a pace almost not humanly possible but then again Nick knew Kevin wasn't human. Kevin was a god.

Kevin's cock moved in and out of Nick expertly. It was a beautiful site to see. Such a huge masculine cock moving in and out of such a tight space but it was a space that wanted him there. Kevin looked down at his own cock invading Nick's ass and got only hornier (if possible). He started fucking Nick so hard that Nick had accidentally bit down on his finger but Kevin didn't care. All he cared about was fucking the living breath out of Nicholas Gene Carter.

And he sure was accomplishing that goal. His cock had a mind of it's own and began thrusting even deeper faster and harder than ever. Kevin looked down and saw blood escape Nick's ass and kept thrusting like a wild man. This only meant he was doing his job and was doing it well.

Kevin's free hand played with Nick's nipples and Nick had his hands all over Kevin's arms. Running his up and down those muscular arms... feeling every inch of skin and sweat and hair.

Kevin looked down again and saw more blood escaping Nick. He thrust in a pace he had designed to bring him to his climax and a few thrusts later... he did.

He bit Nick's ear and whispered, "Here comes the good stuff." and with those words he gave Nick's ass every drop of cum he had.

Kevin didn't withdraw his cock from Nick's ass. He left it in and let it go limp in there. He removed his finger from Nick's to hear what Nick had to say.

"Kevin... can I suck your cock now?"

"Baby... let's go into the shower. You can suck me in there all night if you want."

Sure enough, a few minutes later both men found themselves in the bathroom. In the shower. Nick had taken a sponge and lathered Kevin's body from head to toe, including his cock.

Once Kevin was all nice and clean and wet... hehe... Nick did what he wanted to do for so long. He dropped to his knees in front of his own personal god.

When his head was at the level of the tip of Kevin's cock, he looked into Kevin's eyes.

"Go ahead Nicky. It's what you wanted." Kevin whispered to Nick.

Kevin's cock was swollen, and precum was oozing out of the now purple head. Never in his life had Nick been more aroused and hard.

"Definitely. This is what I want." Nick whispered back. "I'm sure."

They unlocked eyes and Nick looked back down at Kevin's crotch. He ran his hands a few times up and down Kevin's thighs, then lowered his head for good. He flicked his tongue against the tip once, licking away the precum. It felt so good. Kevin sighed with pleasure. He then laid a small kiss on the tip, before licking the spot between the base of Kevin's cock and balls. His tongue went up Kevin's length, never leaving his skin. Back at the tip, he swirled his tongue around it a couple of times, then he finally opened his mouth completely and took Kevin in. What Nick had wanted was finally happening. Kevin's cock was in his mouth.

There's no word to describe how Kevin felt at that exact moment. A blissful feeling swept over him.

Nick started by taking just the tip in, slightly biting. Not hard enough to hurt Kev, just hard enough to make Kevin feel like he was in heaven. Kevin lowered his hands to Nick's head and ran them through his hair while pushing him down on his cock, to make him take him deeper.

He did so, and deep-throated Kevin. Kevin could tell he was trying not to gag at first, and Kev almost felt like pulling out, but Nick managed to take control of himself. Kevin was about to cum. He didn't want to, but the feeling of Nick's wet and warm mouth around his large cock was too much.

Nick felt Kevin tense, he took his mouth off of the shaft and spoke, "Not yet, it's too soon."

He stopped a while, giving Kev time to calm down. He looked in at Kevin's eyes once again. It was dark in the shower, but Nick could easily see his eyes. So green, they almost flashed in the dark. Nick had never noticed he had such green eyes. After a minute or two he broke their eye contact and went back down between Kevin's legs. He took him in his mouth again and Kevin locked his fingers in Nick's hair.

He started to do back and forth movements with his lips on Kevin's cock, sucking on it as much as he could. Once in a while he'd use his teeth, raking them all over Kevin's length, and damn that drove Kev wild.

Kevin's hips thrusted upwards to meet with his mouth, while his hands at the back his head pushed him down, forcefully, making him take all of it in.

He reached around and caressed Kev's balls, still sucking his cock. Kev tensed up again and knew it was it, he was going over the edge.

"Oh, Nicky, baby, I'm gonna cum!" Kevin screamed.

Nick's hand squeezed Kevin's balls a little, and that did it. An incredible wave of pleasure washed over Kevin's entire body. He climaxed in Nick's mouth, hot salty cum, and he swallowed as much as he could. Some of it trickled down his chin but he ran his finger along his chin and took those drops into his mouth as well. Nicky was a little hungry.

He stood up and hugged Kevin.

"Was it what you expected Nicky?"

"Even better Kevin... um... Kevy?"

"Yeah baby?"

"Was I just another mindless fuck?"

"How could you even say that baby? You know what... I'm not even going to answer... time will tell you the answer."

"What do you mean?"

"If we last, then you'll know that you weren't a mindless fuck... if we don't..."

"We will." Nick stopped Kevin.