Relationship Issues
Relationship Issues.
Pairing: AJ/Kevin
Author : Suzi
"Well that had to be just about one of the worst rehearsals we've ever had… What was with you today AJ?" Brian asked, concerned about his friend."I don't know…"
"Are you guys having problems again?"
"Yeah… he just never wants to listen to me anymore Bri… I try to talk to him but he just gives me that 'I-am-not-speaking-with-you-right-now-leave-me-the-hell-alone' look. You know the one… You're his cousin… what did I do wrong?"
"I don't know… did you cheat on him?"
"No."
"Want me to ask him for you?"
"Would you?"
"Sure… I'll go ask him now… corner him in his dressing room."
"I used to corner him in his dressing room… oh sorry… you didn't want to know that." AJ walked towards the cappuccino machine, all that was on his mind other than his problems with Kevin was how much he needed a French Vanilla Cappuccino. He pushed the button; the machine made a kind of whirring noise and then nothing came out of the spout. He growled at it and pushed the button again. The same thing happened again. He slammed his head against the machine and then slid to the floor.
"Bone? You okay?"
"No Nick… I'm not."
"Tell me what's wrong."
"No."
"Please?" Nick asked, giving AJ his best puppy dog eyes.
"No. Leave me alone Kaos." AJ stood and walked out of the room. Only to run right into Leighanne… or Barbie as the guys and he "lovingly" refer to her when neither she nor Brian was around.
"Hi AJ… Bri-bear is looking for you."
"Thanks Leigh." He grumbled and walked away. On walking farther down the hall, he found Brian, walking towards him.
"Hey Bone, I talked to him for you. He said he wasn't going to talk to fucking messengers, that's a direct quote, and if you want to talk to him you can talk to him face to face."
"That's kinda hard seeing as though every time I try to get anywhere near him he pulls away."
"Just go talk to him, he's waiting in his dressing room."
"Thanks 'Rok."
"Anytime." AJ trudged on towards his love's dressing room, still not sure why they weren't speaking to each other, having no clue what he had done wrong. He knocked softly on Kevin's door.
"Come in Alex." Came the reply from within. AJ walked in. Kevin was sitting on a chair, shirtless, wearing dark blue jeans and lifting a 25-pound dumbbell with his left hand. AJ watched the muscles rippling with each movement. He had always been intimidated by how muscular Kevin was. He may look somewhat scrawny, but that man was ripped. After staring in awe at the work of art that was his love, AJ coughed to get Kevin's attention. "I know you're there Alex, you don't have to announce yourself. Just hold on, I have 10 reps left. Be quiet." AJ, who didn't like being told to be quiet, glared down at the floor and tapped his foot angrily. "Don't pout 'J."
"Stop telling me what to do Kevin." Angry brown eyes met green and they locked. Neither moved for 2 minutes, then Kevin put down his dumbbell and dragged his chair over to the mirror. He watched AJ, who stood their shifting back and forth from one foot to the other until finally plopping down on the couch. "So… What did I do wrong this time?"
"You know."
"Well, obviously I don't… if I have to ask."
"Cleo…"
"What about her?"
"What about her? You slept with her."
"I what?"
"You spent the night at her house… she's your ex-girlfriend AJ, what am I supposed to think?"
"Well… first you're supposed to trust me and second, you're supposed to bring things like that up with me within a few days of the occurrence."
"You left me at 11 at night to go over to your ex-girlfriend's house, for a reason unknown to me, and you don't come back until 8 in the fucking morning!" Kevin stood and walked over to where AJ was seated and stood towering over him. Kev is the kind of person that you want to keep on their good side, want to keep them happy, and not piss them off. In his docile state, Kevin was agreeable, fun to be around and don't tell anyone, but when him and AJ were alone, he love to snuggle. No one saw him as a snuggler, except AJ. On the other hand when he is angered, you don't want to get in his way, his Train nickname may have come from football, but when Kevin is angry, it's worse than a freight train coming at you at 75 miles an hour, right now… Kevin is angry.
"Kev… breathe baby… relax." Kevin visibly untensed, but then tensed up again.
"AJ… why?"
"If you must know… she had a pregnancy scare. Her current boyfriend, 'forgets' to use things he should when he should… and she had to take a pregnancy test, she needed me there for moral support. We were best friends before we went out, we were best friends while we were dating, we're still best friends now, I've told you that many times… you were always okay with it before. What's wrong now?" Kevin collapsed onto the couch next to his lover, and rested his head on AJ's shoulder. He then tucked his legs under him and leaned up against the shorter man. AJ slid his arm around Kev's shoulder and they just sat like that.
"It's just that… well… you are so special… and I don't want anyone to take you from me… so I get paranoid about every little thing you do… I worry I'm not good enough for you… and that when you leave, you'll find someone better and I'll just be some ex-fling you had…" AJ cupped Kevin's face in his hands.
"Look at me Kev… Look at me, dammit." Green slowly rose to brown and saw the love held there. "Kevin Scott Richardson… you are stupid to think I'd ever leave you for anyone. Why would I give up perfection for a second rate being? Also, as for our connection… I love you more than anyone I have ever loved… I love you as my lover, my love, a fellow performer, singer and Backstreet Boy, my best friend, my family… nothing is closer than what we have, we are meant to be, nothing can fuck with that." Tears filled the green eyes, and they were soon matched in the brown. The two men embraced and let the tears silently fall onto each other's shoulders. They were not tears of pain, sorrow or even joy. They were tears of understanding, knowledge and love. Understanding of the true nature of their relationship, knowledge of how close they really are, and of course, love for each other.
The End.