*Through my eyes...in my Words*
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My Words...
when the sun slips behind the horizon--i miss you
when the stars give light into the black night sky--i miss you
when i hear your voice and feel its unbearable distance--i miss you
when i strip my body of the ending day's clothes--i miss you
when i slip into bed, letting my cold blanket wrap itself around my naked skin--i miss you
when i close my eyes and give myself into utter darkness--i miss you
when im woken by the suns morning rays creeping into my bedroom, instead of the feeling of your body next to mine--i miss you
when i love, i miss you
i love you every moment of every day...
so my question is, will i ever stop missing you?
What a horrible taste.
my mouth is almost numb...
numb..
my body becomes numb whenever you look at me.
look..
look at all the pretty people, prancing around like whores.
around..
my mind spins around because my world is in chaos.
chaos..
chaos has almost become a trend, looking for any weak person to latch onto.
latch..
the latch on her door is broken. she sleep with a knife.
sleep..
sleep through the anguish and late night fights.
fight..
fight for what's yours. it belongs to you.
I want to slip away.
Un-noticed.
No witnesses.
With out hesitation.
Leave you behind.
No longer a part of my life.
Forget.
No guilt, no regret.
No you.
No us.
Just me for once.
Start over.
Me.
its like a weight. There's no will to do anything.
Effort seems non-existent.
My mind is cluttered----with nothing
Can't focus on anything, yet everything seems magnified to its greatest possible annoyance.
Nerves are sketched by everything.
I feel smothered and all alone at the same time.
I have no desire to be in the presence of anyone,
but i dont want to be by myself.
Silence has its calming effect and terrifying reality.
Everything seems to contradict itself-both feelings and actions.
Confussion is more than apparent.
Simplicity is visibly beyond my reach.
Everything means something, and something amazingly becomes everything.
My world feels like its slowly disappearing, but was it every visible in the first place?
My strength seems to have been drained from my body.
Crashed on the floor is where i find myself.
You've seen the cripple dance
Pay me your money, baby, now's your chance
Your lies/eyes like cyanide
I am so dumb
Just beam me up
I've had it all forever
I've had enough
Remember, you promised me
I'm dying, I'm dying please
I want to, I need to be
Under your skin
Our love is quicksand
So easy to drown
They steal the gravity, yeah
From moving ground
Remember, you promised me
I'm dying, I'm dying please
I want to, I need to be
Under your skin
And now I understand
You leave with everything
You leave with everything I am
In the rain
And I know that love is dead
You come to bury me
There's nothing left here to pretend
Then it fades
Remember, you promised me
I'm dying, I'm dying please
I want to, I need to be
Under your skin
I'm dying, I'm dying please
I'm dying, I'm dying please
I'm dying, I'm dying please
Under your skin
Under your skin
-hole
I thought you were mine
that you belonged to me.
but time seems to portray a different picture,
your actions even give a different answer.
you said you needed space, so you stopped all communication with me
i moved on
re-adjusted my priorities, my life.
denile is what got me through
denile about how much i cared, how much it mattered,
how much i hurt.
then you reappeared.
popped back into my life as if i was waiting for you.
maybe i was.
it was just for a day, to tell me you loved me still.
what had you done wrong?
Excite me
tell me promises, ones you still cant keep.
nothings changed.
you disappear once again
keeping your distance another month
this time is more painful
i know ive been lied to
denile is no excuse
denile is no longer an option
Out of sight, out of mind..right?
only at times
with somethings its not that simple.
What next?
Who would have guessed?
you melt my heart....
....again
have you no mercy?
is it all just a game to you? does it only exist at your convenience?
it must. i know of no other explanation
"I'll talk to you again, promise"