ramblings of an ingenue

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alright, i can't believe i am actually joining the hordes of people who have their own little web pages. i mean, it isn't as if i dont' talk all the time anyways, ya know? but the fact that i can continue talking even when no one else is around to listen...well, the opportunity could not be passed up, now could it? but all this is just rationalization for the fact that i feel like such a nerd (isn't that a great word? i just love it. speaking of cool words...my coolwordslist has reached 119...keep thinking of them, ok?). so,i feel that i should warn you all now of several things before i really start this in full. (should i be all pro and make a bulleted list? i think i will..ooooooo. but i get big points for all this since i am actually making this on my own, i am not using one of those wimpy fill in the blank style autopage planners. although i really know shit about html programming junk. whatever, on with the list...)

• i am going to say what i want, when i want so no one is allowed to get offended. i'm not saying i'm gonna be a bitch and yell at the world, but i'm not gonna censor anything i have to say. well, to a reasonable degree...
• i don't really know what the hell i am doing so don't expect some incredible work of technological art.
• you are not allowed to decide i'm a total psycho based on anything i say.

aight, i'm sick of the bullets. anyways...i'm clearly becoming a real technology junkie, i mean, i was raving away last night to someone about how cooool i thought digital cameras were. mind you, i spent about an hour last night just playing (literally) on photo editor on my computer. its sad but true, so shhhh, don't tell. in fact, the picture of me at the top is digital camera/computer creation. cool, no? at least i think so, so be quiet if you don't.

Cool People

if you aren't on this list it doesn't necessarily mean you aren't "cool" (and please don't start acting as if i am being all literal with that. i beg you) it could just mean i couldn't think of a blurb...whatever, i hate disclaimers. i'm tempted to delete this but....no

• emma~ wrangler mixes, initial boys, and spider monkey imitations. xanthe is definately yours, not ellen's....hell, you spend enough time in her to have your own mirror. creme brulee, pyromaniac tendencies, our shared wardrobe.... the bahams rocked. Ramone. "Spring break drinking team" t-shirt boy and the Gray Hound. "oh sweet jesus, another U-turn....?" unruly parents and idle threats -eh, we always make it through, cause after all, we are officially sisters now, at least everyone on the islands thought so. you rock, MLP.
  
• morgan~ AP stats: "ok....ok...ok" god, now its all i ever hear. somehow you manage to keep me more or less in line and at least out of too much trouble. AQUATIC ADVENTURES: #1--no gas, #2--hot guy's at...shit, what was the gas station called? #3.... i still think you should move in next door. cheese fries and malt shakes at 430 a.m. "am i offending you girls? good, i'm not, then i'm just gonna keep on going...." can you tell my WHY that many people were awake and eating at that time? "will you still marry me?!" i'm stealing your coats, but you definately can't take mine. i know i owe you a million CDs/tapes, i'm workin on it. argh. don't worry, i don't think you are a "corruptive influence" on your sister...and we ARE sisters! white-board marker problems. eggos! "i guess we ran out, i guess you ate all of them..." can you please tell me how that squirrel managed to be doing the splits upside down between a tree and a chain? your voice is amazing,i really mean that (perhaps the one serious comment i've made to you so far in this...). you're going great places, girl, one day you'll be sitting with Denise Graves (or was it richards....?).getting lost on the way to amadou's surprise party : "we're at Gerogia avenue now..." "WHY are you THERE?!?" i love you morgana (queen of the nile), somehow you make it all make sense.
  
• emily bean ~cruising down Reno in bikinis--we're just too hot. i still can't belive your mom called the restaurant boy. haha, i got the biggest kick out of that. thanks for listening to me when i thought i'd explode. we have to "play" soon!.... when we gonna play crash some more? you are by far one of my most favorite people on this planet. your graduation was indeed insane, but i'm glad i could be there. do you realize we've been friends for what? six years? more perhaps. i'm going ot miss you sososos much next year, it makes me want to weep. however, we'll easily find our way back to my playstation to make up for time apart, i'm sure. i love you sosos much. and by the way, you're famous. i swear to god everyone knows you.
  
• jessie~so..seniors now? this is nuts, and i KNOW you're with me on that opinion. kicking those little kids off the swings for senior pictures couldn't be right, but hey, we NEEDED it, right?? brothers, starbucks, sullivan's. and don't forget the american flag. and we're still "Agent Aloha" and "agent athena", fighting cime and US History! you're such a doll, i don't know what i'd do without our emergeny trips to "mailboxes" and "just-been-robbed frozen yogurt". think how bad it woulda been if the cops had showed up. thank you for being so amazing after i had surgery...daily presants rocked my world (even if it was only centered around my bed...). you amaze me with your mental stability, kindness and generosity, as sappy as that sounds. you have always been there for me, and it has never gone unnoticed.
  
• juls~ hey suga suga, i'm so happy that this year seems to have found us back on top. you are so amazingly fun-- and the best story teller ever. bitch-bashing against that awful band and the entire King family will never get old. one day i'm gonna bust in and rob you of your betsy/shoe collection, no joke, so consider yourself forewarned..i'm always here baby if you need to get away. slumber parties are always fun :). for real though, stay strong. but, you always do. beleive me, we all appreciate your strength, humor, and well, vibrancy is about the best word i can find to describe it all, as cheesey cheesey as this all sounds. you are by far one of the most fun people i'm friends with. you are an amazing friend, and i will miss you soososo much next year when you go north and i go south. but i KNOW that we'll just make up for lost time when we're in this fuckin city together. rock on.
  
• linds (TOEmas)~. you are an incredible friend. thank you for all that you did for me while i was bedridden post-op. you have no idea how much better you made me feel, especially during our "sleepover." you get how it is with me, we're on the same wavelength. i expect to see you on your own cooking show one of these days making, what? was it 2 million? partyign with you is always a joy, my dear, and you keep me in check and mentally stable at times. i'm glad i got to be with you at your first show (Eminem no less). and thank for being my chauffeur. ;-)
  
• christina~ i wonder what happened to that boy from the lake...he's probably still cruising around trying to find us. breaking down with no gas in the middle of the water, flagging those dudes down...wow, and that was only "aquatic adventure #1" ?! pool, hot tubs, movies....next time i'll carry you over the gravel. since we don't have to freeze our asses off and get hypothermia like the crew chicks, we have the time to get lost everywhere we go. oh but wait, it was just a "tour of the many traffic circles of DC" right? the milkshakes rock my world. how many times have we wandered the streets of dc with ed looking for something to do? oh but wait, that's cause we permanently lack monetary funds. cookies and pies--i'm becoming quite the expert, aren't i? mermaids and miniature people pictures are just about THE only things keeping me going each day through RINAP. lordy lord, that class....i lack words that would follow within the boundaries of "right speech." i love you suga! rock.
  
• bay~ one word: GENETICS. oh my god, could the room be any colder? no. no i dont think so. and i have my doubts about this sub. he looked a little...bland? yes, i'd say so. please god let us haev legitmate seats, i'm telling you, we neeed the back support. i'll be calling on you to help me through ap bio...you can be my private tutor.
  
• caitlin~we are soooooo coooool! i'm sad to quit soccer for the sole reason of not seeing you every day and make fun of youknowwho. we rocked precals. we rose above! but i hae a feeling that the demons are not being fought quite as hard as they have to be...i think they are invading our success.....oh dear.
  
• lu~now you are the ultimate pro snowboarder! SSOS rocks. and THIS year i can actually come on the trips! yay!
  
• jennah~so what happened with that guy? i secretly miss our diving woes at 630 a.m. well, it'll be winter again soon enough, right? JOSH! i shoulda stalked him, huh?
• jarryd~you are so one of my favorite people on this earth, and that isn't just some platitude. thank you for listening to my obsessions and crushes and talking me out of poor choices (and encouraging good ones...). watch yourself with that picture. if it ends up in any bad hands or bad places you can bet all your stolen software that i'll get you. and i'll always be here with food for your poor starved dorm soul....how am i gonna manage without you around the corner? its just all so weird without you here to remind about the tuesday bells, or sta dorm gossip. for real, how many times have you saved my sanity? besides you're my brother and i'm your sister, you just can't leave like this! i miss you loads and loads, and love you madly. i had so much fuckin fun up at lehigh with you, despite your p******* priorities (dont worry, i'd had my fun in Tuck's room by the time you found me). i'll still kill you fighting and you know i rule the beirut table. i know this quote (by the decendents) is directed towards another band, but it reminds me of you: i won't say your name, but you know who you are, i'll never be the same again now, no way, i just want to say: thank you for playing the way you play". keep an eye on Shady...he ain't to be trusted, what with his fights and explosions and "stems"....
  
• david~so i have this new crush....nah, just kidding. you rock, thank you for understaning shit, and taking a stance. annual trips to the zoo to see the pandas (now that there actually ARE pandas in that habitat). i really miss you, now that you're down at NC, but just think, in 1 month i'll be a southerner like you, and i'm pretty sure that nashville is closer to davidson than dc, although i wouldn't trust my geographical senses. twizzler runs, critiquing our peers, parties, and your terrible and corruptive influence over my pure soul. HA! this summer you helped to figure out what i wanted in one of the most difficult scenarios i could ever have concocted in my drama-oriented mind. but it worked out, see? even though i know you think i didn't absorb what you said to me over pizza in a corner, i DID. i trust your opinion-- you know me well enough to know whats best for me, sometimes more than even i. (PS where is my invitation??)
  
• amadou~"that white guy tried to sick his DOG on me! where the FUCK is my car??" your car is beautiful...the new stereo is heaven on earth. i swear i could watch the little lights forever: "yeah, sometimes i forget to drive when i stop at alight cause i'm starin at it...". the "creature." car washes turned water fights ("i think you're fucking up traffic"). GU slumber parties...with your roommate. while technically i lost our bet, i only did it to let you save face, i SWEAR...i coulda held out forever. i swear your entire family (you know your brother and i could dominate you any day), and i plan on robbing your mother of at least two Kate Spades soon. the countdown till the 27th continues. "to me you are the light from a light bulb that breaks sometimes and the tender warmth inside is released into my life..."
  
• del piero ~ you are my confidante and entertainer and artist. you are always there to make me smile (or laugh hysterically). we've reached the point where we dont' even need to speak to know what the other is thinking...probably because most of the time it revolves around narnia, magic, genius, or something closely related. never get dragged down by stupid people or stupid shit--those are only the concerns of mortals. and you know that we are above them. you give me endless joy with our epic conversations and priceless quotes. naptime (for four hours) is always a pleasure, with the powerpuff girls as the soundtrack to our sleep. Papa Bijan regards you as a son, by this point, especially after the painting you gave to him. you are always welcome in my house, be it announced or unannounced (usually the latter since yoru cell phone has been MIA for over four months now. curses). rock on, my del piero, rock on.
  
• andrew~thanks for listening to my qualms with life. you're a seriously cool person. i'm into your new music creations. oh, and i still say you shoulda have kept the cat named athena...she was way cooler that way. thank you for the calming chat at brothers when i got all junior year stressed about shit
  
• max~we need another digital camera photo shoot. and you still owe me that skirt, i haven't forgotten.
  
• graham~ maybe i'll forgive you for abandoning me for an icecream social...where you didn't even get to have ice cream! but no, i understand that you had to see for yourself the snobbiness of harvard. haha, you'll be happy wherever you go though. thank you for the smoothie runs. just please please don't get my in an accident, i'm far too young to die! i think thee must have been something in that cigar...it just didn't smell right...one day we'll get the hand-slap down, i promise.
  
• peter~WPGC 95.5...thanks for waking me up at 5 in the a.m. for hell practices. i promise i will actually come over sometime..just not at 2 am when i'm half dressed and dying of fatigue....one day maybe you'll live it all out in real life, but till then there's always IMs, right?

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