*crucify*
Every finger in the room is pointing at me
I wanna spit in their faces
Then I get affraid what that could bring
I got a bowling ball in my stomach
I got a desert in my mouth
Figures that my COURAGE would choose to sell out now.
I've been looking for a savior in these dirty streets
Looking for a savior beneath these dirty sheets
I've been raising up my hands
Drive another nail in
Just what GOD needs
One more victim
Why do we crucify ourselves
Every day I crucify myself
Nothing I do is good enough for you
Crucify myself
Every day I crucify myself
And my HEART is sick of being in chains
Got a kick for a dog beggin' for LOVE
I gotta have my suffering
So that I can have my cross
I know a cat named Easter
He says will you ever learn
You're just an empty cage girl if you kill the bird
I've been looking for a savior in these dirty streets
Looking for a savior beneath these dirty sheets
I've been raising up my hands
Drive another nail in
Got enough GUILT to start
My own religion
Why do we crucify ourselves
Every day I crucify myself
Nothing I do is good enough for you
Crucify myself
Every day I crucify myself
And my HEART is sick of being in chains
Please be
Save me
I CRY
Looking for a savior in these dirty streets
Looking for a savior beneath these dirty sheets
I've been raising up my hands
Drive another nail in
Where are those angels
When you need them
Why do we crucify ourselves
Every day I crucify myself
Nothing I do is good enough for you
Crucify myself
Every day I crucify myself
And my HEART is sick of being in chains
Why do we change (chains?)
Crucify ourselves
Everyday
Never going back again
Crucify myself again
You know
Never going back again to
Crucify myself
Everyday
*girl*
From in the shadow she calls
And in the shadow she finds a way finds a way
And in the shadow she CRAWLS
Clutching her faded photograph my image UNDER her thumb
Yes with a message for my heart
Yes with a message for my heart
She's been everybody else's girl maybe one day she'll be her own
Everybody else's girl maybe one day she'll be her own
And in the doorway they stay
And laugh as violins fill with water
Screams from the BLUEBELLS can't make them go away
We'll I'm not seventeen but I've cuts on my knees
Falling down as the winter takes one more CHERRY TREE
She's been everybody else's girl maybe one day she'll be her own
Everybody else's girl maybe one day she'll be her own
Everyone else's girl maybe one day she'll be her own
rushin' rivers thread so thin limitation
Everyone else's girl maybe one day she'll be her own
dreams with the flying pigs turbid blue and the drugstores too safe in their
coats anda in their do's yeah
Everyone else's girl maybe one day maybe one day one
day one day she'll be
her own
smother in our hearts a pillow to my dots
And in the mist there she rides
And castles are burning in my heart
And as I twist I hold tight
And I ride to work every morning wondering why
"Sit in the chair and be good now"
and become all that they told you
the white coats enter her room
and I'm callin' my baby callin' my baby callin' my
baby callin'
Everybody else's girl maybe one day she'll be her own
Everybody else's girl maybe one day she'll be her own
Everybody else's girl maybe one day she'll be her own
*silent all these years*
excuse me but can I be you for a while
my dog won't bite if you sit real still
I got the anti-Christ in the kitchen yellin' at me again
yeah I can hear that
been saved again by the garbage truck
I got something to say you know but nothing comes
yes I know what you think of me you never shut-up
yeah I can hear that
but what if I'm a mermaid in these jeans of his with her name still on it
hey but I don't care
cause sometimes I said sometimes
I hear my voice and it's been here
silent all these years
so you found a girl who thinks really deep thoughts
what's so amazing about really deep thoughts
boy you best pray that I bleed real soon
how's that thought for you
my scream got lost in a paper cup
you think there's a heaven where some screams have gone
I got 25 bucks and a cracker do you think it's enough
to get us there years go by will I still be waiting for somebody else to understand
years go by if I'm stripped of my beauty and the orange clouds raining in my head
years go by will I choke on my tears till finally there is nothing left
one more casualty you know we're too easy easy easy
well I love the way we communicate your eyes focus on my funny lip shape
let's hear what you think of me now
but baby don't look up the sky is falling
your mother shows up in a nasty dress it's your turn now to stand where I stand everybody lookin' at you here take hold of my hand
yeah I can hear them...
*winter*
Snow can wait
I forgot my mittens
Wipe my nose
Get my new boots on
I get a little warm in my heart
When I think of winter
I put my hand in my father's glove
I run off where the DRIFTS GET DEEPER
Sleeping beauty trips me with a frown
I hear a voice
"You must learn to stand up for yourself
Cause I can't alyways be around"
He says when you gonna make up your mind
When you gonna love you as much as I do
When you gonna make up your mind
Cause things are gonna CHANGE so fast
All the white horses are still in bed
I tell you that I'll always want you near
You say that things change my dear
Boys get discovered as winter MELTS
Flowers competing for the sun
Years go by and I'm here still waiting
Withering where some snowman was
Mirror mirror where's the crystal palace
But I only can see myself
SKATING around the truth who I am
But I know dad the ice is getting thin
When you gonna make up your mind
When you gonna love you as much as I do
When you gonna make up your mind
Cause things are gonna CHANGE so fast
All the white horses are still in bed
I tell you that I'll always want you near
You say that things change my dear
Hair is grey and the fires are burning
So many dreams on the shelf
You say I wanted you to be PROUD of me
I always wanted that myself
When you gonna make up your mind
When you gonna love you as much as I do
When you gonna make up your mind
Cause things are gonna change so fast
All the WHITE HORSES have gone ahead
I tell you that I'll always want you near
You say that things change my dear
Never change
All the white horses
*happy phantom*
And if I die today I'll be the HAPPY Phantom
And I'll go chasin' the nuns out in the yard
And I'll run naked through the streets without my mask on
And I will never need umbrellas in the rain
I'll wake up in strawberry fields every day
And the atrocities of school I can forgive
The HAPPY phantom has no right to bitch
Oo who the time is getting close
Oo who time to be a ghost
Oo who every day we're getting closer
The sun is getting dim
Will we pay for who we been
So if I die today I'll be the HAPPY phantom
And I'll go wearin' my NAUGHTIES like a jewel
They'll be my ticket to the universal opera
There's Judy Garland taking Buddha by the hand
And then these seven little men get up to dance
they say Confucius does his crossword with a pen
I'm still the angel to a girl who hates to SIN
Oo who the time is getting close
Oo who time to be a ghost
Oo who every day we're getting closer
The sun is getting dim
Will I pay for who I been
Or will I see you dear and wish I could come back
You found a girl that you could TRULY love again
Will you still call for me when she falls asleep
Or do we soon forget the things we cannot see
Oo who the time is getting close
Oo who time to be a ghost
Oo who every day we're getting closer
The sun is getting dim
Will I pay for who I been
And if I die today
And if I die today
And if I die today
Chasin' the nuns out in the yard
*china*
China all the way to New York
I can feel the distance getting close
You're right next to me
But I need an airplane
I can feel the DISTANCE as you breathe
Sometimes I think you want me to touch you
How can I when you build a great WALL around you
In your eyes I saw a future together
You just look away in the distance
China decorates our table
Funny how the CRACKS don't seem to show
Pour the wine dear
You say we'll take a holiday
But we never can agree on where to go
Sometimes I think you want me to touch you
How can I when you build a great WALL around you
In your eyes I saw a future together
You just look away in the distance
China all the way to New York
Maybe you got lost in MEXICO
You're right next to me
I think that you can hear me
Funny how the distance learns to grow
Sometimes I think you want me to touch you
How can I when you build a great WALL around you
I can feel the distance
I can feel the distance
I can feel the distance getting close
*leather*
Look I'm standing naked before you
Don't you want more than my sex
I can scream as loud as your last one
But I can't claim innocence
Oh god could it be the weather
Oh god why am I here
If love isn't forever
And its NOT THE WEATHER
Hand me my leather
I could just pretend that you love me
The night would lose all sense of fear
But why do I need you to love me
When you can't hold what I hold dear
Oh god could it be the weather
Oh god why am I here
If love isn't forever
And its NOT THE WEATHER
Hand me my leather
I almost ran over an angel
He had a nice big fat cigar
"IN A SENSE" he said "you're alone here
So if you jump you best jump far"
Oh god could it be the weather
Oh god why am I here
If love isn't forever
And its NOT THE WEATHER
Oh god could it be the weather
Oh god its all very clear
If love isn't forever
And its NOT THE WEATHER
Hand me my leather
*mother*
Go go go go now Out of the nest it's time Go go go now Circus girl without a safety net Here here here now don't cry You raised your hand for the assignment Tuck those ribbons under your helmet Be a good soldier First my left foot then my right behind the OTHER Pantyhose running in the cold Mother the car is here Somebody leave the light on Green limousine for the redhead DANCING dancing girl And when I dance for him Somebody leave the light on Just in just in case I like the dancing I can remember where I come from I walked into your dream And now I've forgotten how to dream my own dream You are the CLEVER one aren't you Brides in veils for you We told you all of our secrets All but one And don't you even try The phone has been disconnected Dripping with blood and with time and with your advice Poison me against the MOON Mother the car is here Somebody leave the light on Black chariot for the redhead DANCING dancing girl He's gonna change my name Maybe you'll leave the light on Just in just in case I like the dancing I can remember where I come from I escape into your escape into our very favorite fearscape It's across the sky and across my heart and I cross my legs oh my god First my left foot then my right behind the other Breadcrumbs lost under the snow Oo who mother Oo mother the car is here Maybe maybe you'll leave the light on for the for the for the dancing girl He's gonna change my name Maybe you'll leave the light Just in case I like the dancing I can remember where I come come from Mother mother mother