If I coULd TeLL yOu JuSt oNe ThIng...
The Weak End
I know your there
sitting where we use to lie
Not thinking of me
Surrounded by your comforts
Your friends, your thirst
Not a picture in your mind
I know your there
watching what we use to watch
Not thinking of me at all
Saturday morning cartoons
and that warm blanket
Not comforting at all
I know your there
sleeping where we use to sleep
Not dreaming of me at all
nobody to steal your covers
or to toss and turn
Not a thing to keep you warm
I know your there
Can you hear me
Not thinking of me at all
All I can do is be lonely
thinking of you
Not thinking of me at all
Super Action Dude's Girlfriend
And I'm so lonely I don't want to be with myself
Listening to me complicate the emptiness and space
that separated me from your door
I'd say I'm sorry if that would change how you feel
Life seems to short to not have time
For such a lonely girl
You have time for everything else
Your possessions, addictions and friends
Your anger, fears and television
I feel so stupid, I just can't comprehend
Forgive me, 5 minutes a day is to much to extend
For such a lonely girl
I pick up the phone to call you for whatever reason I can find
I feel so sad but still pretend
this smile won't ever fade
Cuz artificial things look real even though they're cheaply made
For such a lonely girl
I'm in love with you
And you can't even be my friend
You say you need a break from the time we never spend
Stay on top of your world and look down
For such a lonely girl
When caused a wound, is it possible that the healing is more painful then the wound itself?
August
I know I don't matter to you right now
and you never think of me
Maybe some day you can show
an understanding face to me
I hope you understand I can never be
nothing less then a friend to you
Maybe some day you'll search and see
I was everything I could be to you
I'm not asking for the world
jus' a second chance of sorts
to make amends, make a friend,
to break the trend of unforgiveness in this world
Maybe change of mind is far away
being the way you feel
I could be wrong, either way
If it's in your heart it's real
What you see is what you get now
I've ended every game
I've managed to be ok somehow
I'm different, but still the same
I'm not asking for the world
jus' a second chance of sorts
to make amends, make a friend,
to break the trend of unforgiveness in this world
There are certain things ment to be left alone
Things best untouched and out of veiw
Even when they mean the world to you
Stop and think what they're going through
Before you chase them down
If you were in they're shoes
You might run too
When they disappear from your searching veiw
Try to understand the pictures in their eyes
Sometimes loneliness is their best disguise
Forgive them and all their lies, don't over anylize
They're not giving in on you
If you were in they're mind
You'd disappear too
Do you care enough to leave them be
Can you stand to let them fade
Please care enough to forget me
When I'm all I've got inside
What makes me feel this way inside
This hate this pain this pride
I feel so terrible so horrible
Make this ache subside
I lie awake at night
To sick to dream to tired to fight
Beating without a cause
A dark craving light
Everything broken falls apart
Theres no ending for this fucked up start
Please do something
Anything to fix this twisted heart
I want something better, something clean
These shadows are taking me down, deep into the cold ground
It's not my time to go
I'd do anything for you
Can you hear what I'm saying?
Am I screaming too loud?
Hold me up please, I can't breath in this crowd
Are you gonna be ok?
Should I fade away?
Your in my mind now, I won't let you leave
I need you here
Don't leave me alone
Does forever scare you?
Should I run and hide?
I couldn't if I tried, we're tied together in this
I'm about to break
It's all for you
All for you
For you
You
Woke again today
rolled over in my head
Guess I survived another night
Can't say I'm thrilled to be alone, alive in my bed
Don't expect much
But another endless race
Against confusion and frustration
24 hour stretch of self-corrupting waste
The remains of a man still stand in the frozen ground
Temptaion tortured his mind as he looked around
He failed to see his shallow world had tied him down
He flew like a free bird, but sang without a sound
The creature insearch of himself had lost his shining way
He knelt in the night and screamed when he could not pray
Little did he know the dark was the endless day
He owed the world, with his sould he'd pay
Behind him was a woman with frozen tears
Trapped in a bottle, she smoked her frears
She stood in the shadows like a spot-lit dear
Wasting away as the end crept near
Three months, Two weeks and few days passed by
The sun did shine as in his shadow she'd cry
In one lonely moment she smiled, wiped her eye
He turned around so in the light she could watch him die
His remains still stand solid in the frozen ground
With indecision, confusion and anger his soul is bound
The girl you ask? Yes, she's still around
She flys like a free bird and sings with the loudest sound
If I step back from this ledge
I might just lose my head
There’s no chance to fall
No chance to lose it all
I don’t think I can handle things working out my way
& I guess, I guess I’m just confused
& I think it works out best
When I’m lost in my own views
& the world is one big mess
& I can hardly pass
The test I’ve given to myself
To prove that I could fail
So, life is still messed up
I can smile and walk away
I hope for twisted days.
When the wind starts to blow
Rain turns to snow
I think of the ones I’ve loved and adored
The way that they loved me
The days are no more
They maybe untouchable
But not out of reach
They maybe invisible
But their voices still teach
Pain, I don’t need
Memories I do
Still the sadness inside
Unforgiving and true
So here we sit
With thoughts so still
Silence so deadly
Any whisper could kill
The wind starts to blow
It carries a storm
The memories of ones
I’ve loved and adored
There is a place I call my own
A twisted place where I live alone
A spot so hidden from ignorant eyes
A place to go to sort out lies
Full of wonder, dreams and life
Still it holds pain and strife
A world so dark yet filled with light
Magic plays show through the night
Search forever, you’ll never find
The entrance to my twisted mind
I took a walk today
Never thought I’d say
I miss this place
with all it’s twisted ways
I looked for hidden souls
lost among the stones
bargaining to God
with all their screams and moans
I’ve never been one to follow or one to believe
Then again, I’ve always looked for
someone to trust and lead
Hate us cuz we’re not like you
We only stand for what is true
We are the windows of reality
Through our eyes you care not to see
United we stand Divided you fall
Your twisted views will break you all
We are the truth that you deny
We’re here to live You’re here to die
You think your views are always right
To stand for them isn’t worth the fight
To stay above you must spill blood
Prepare to drown in the crimson flood