I pulled away from Will before the kiss could go any further, before I; myself went too far. After all, I knew Will was still unsure about how he felt and we were in a crowded place. Many eyes were on us. I could just imagine the thoughts others were thinking and I was thankful they weren't being voiced out loud. I wasn't sure Will could handle that.
Looking at Will's face, I tried to decipher what was running through his mind. Did he like the kiss?
Will looked down at the table, then looked back up at me.
"You know," Will whispered, his voice high pitched, "that was my first kiss ever."
Is that a good or bad thing, I wondered?
"Umm, it was . . . ?" Will bit his lower lip.
Oh God, if he kept doing that, I'm not going to be able to help myself if I start to ravish him here.
"It was what?" I asked, when Will couldn't seem to find the right words.
"Angel, I really... liked it!" Will smiled, flushing.
I grinned, thanking whoever liked me upstairs. "Really, you did?" Reaching out, I took hold of Will's hand.
"Yea," Will nodded, "it felt nice and made me feel all tingly. I've never felt like that before."
"I'm glad. I of course, liked it too."
It was later in the day and we were back at my place. I looked at the clock, then looked at Will, who had been quiet for some time. The teen was still really flustered, I could see. Most likely he was still confused, even though he had said he liked the kiss.
It does take more then one kiss for you to know for sure if you like someone and are gay. I mean it took me years before I accepted I was gay. How long would it take Will, if he really was gay?
Well, he let me kiss him, so he can't be totally straight, right?
"Uh, Will, what time do you need to be home?" I asked, pointing to the clock. "It's getting late."
"Oh," Will looked at me, his cheeks flushed. "I don't really have a curfew since nobody’s home. And even when the rents are home, they don't really care when I come and go."
I frowned. It really sounded like Will's family didn't care for him much, nor have enough time for him. That was just sad. But what would happen after they learn he might be gay? Will his parents do as mine did?
I don't want to put him through that, but I can't change the way I feel about him. If Will accepts my feelings, I want us to be a couple.
"Oh, then." I walked over to my couch, sitting down, "what time do you want to go home?"
Will walked over to me, sitting next to me. I smiled at him, reaching out taking one of his hands in mine. Will flushed, but didn't pull away.
"I don't want to be out when it's dark," Will said. "I don't like the dark much."
"All right, then I'll make sure I get you home before dark."
Will smiled, "thanks," he said, squeezing my hand.
"Sure, no problemo." Licking my lips, I could feel myself being drawn closer to Will, "Will, would it be okay... Can I kiss you again?"
"I-I... umm, okay, but Angel..." Will flushed, "Don't go too fast... " Will bit his lip, "I'm still trying to figure out things... and I'm not ready to do more then.. well, more then k-kissing."
"Will," I reached out, touching his cheek. "I really like you; I'm not.. I would never force you to do something you didn't want to, and if things ever got to be too intense, all you have to do is push me away. I won't be mad, honestly."
"Y-you won't?" Will asked me with wide eyes.
"Of course not. I've only know you for less then a day, but Will... I've never had a feeling like this." I put a hand over my heart.
"Thank you!" Will leaned closer to me, "you can kiss me now, if you still want to."
I nearly laughed. If! He had to say, "If I still wanted to." Of course I still wanted to.
Smiling softly, I leaned forward, closing the gap between me and Will.
I felt myself grow hot with desire, but I pushed away any thoughts of going further with Will. I couldn't think about stuff like that or I'd go crazy. No, I mustn't think about stuff like that, until Will and I are in a real relationship and he's ready to go further
It was nearing eight o' clock and it would soon begin to get dark. Currently I was standing with Will on his doorstep and like Will had said, nobody was home. I looked over at Will and saw he had a strange expression I couldn't really read.
"What is it?" I asked, reaching out, placing a hand on his shoulder.
Will jumped, coming out of his thoughts, I figured. "Oh, umm," Will looked at me, "I was just wondering if my rents would be home soon."
I tilted my head to the side, "oh. Are you left alone often?" I asked.
Will gave me a small smile, "yeah, but I'm used to it. It's just it would be nice if they came home before dark." Will said, not being able to hide the look of fear in his eyes. How scared of the dark was Will, I wondered?
"Angel... could you maybe come in with me...? Umm, you don't have to stay until my rents get home, but..."
"Of course," I said. I would stay with him for as long as he wanted me to.
Will grinned and I couldn't help but notice the look of relief on his face.
"Thank you! It's childish I know, but... bad things happen in the dark... and I've always been scared of it. The doctors said it sounded like I had a phobia of the dark."
Okay, so that explained why Will was so scared. But if that was the case, why wouldn't at least one of Will's parents come home? I mean, if I have children and I know one has a phobia of the dark, I wouldn't leave them at home alone.
"It's not childish. If you have a phobia, then you can't help it." I told Will.
Will took some keys out of his pocket and unlocked his door. We walked in and even I have to say his house felt spooky. It was a big house, and it was very dark inside. I looked at Will, noticing how he moved closer to me. I reached out, putting an arm around his waist.
"Where's the light switch?" I asked.
"On your side of the door." Will said, his voice small and scared.
"Okay," I reached out, feeling around. "Ah ha." I exclaimed, turning the lights on. I looked at Will who was holding onto me, tightly.
"You okay?" I asked.
"Y-yeah, never better..." Will looked up at me, his eyes big, "thanks for coming in."
"Sure, and you don't have to keep saying thank you. I was happy to come in and I'll stay for as long as you like."
"Th... umm, okay." Will grinned.
I chuckled. I thought it was impossible for Will to get any cuter, but I was wrong.
"What?" Will raised an eyebrow.
"Heh... nothing," I said.
"Nuh uh, that was a something laugh..."
"Will, do you know, you keep getting cuter?"
Will flushed, "yea right..." he said.
"No, I mean it. Every time I look at you, you seem to be cuter."
Will let go of me, closing the door behind us. He then walked a little ways in front of me, pausing. Turning around, he flashed me a smile.
"Well then, good! You won't get tired of me then." Will giggled, flushing even more.
"As if I could ever get tired of you." I said, walking with Will as he walked through the big empty house.
Will stopped walking when we got to a door. I figured this was his bedroom. Oh great! Would I be able to control myself in his bedroom? So many things could happen. No, Angel, you have to have control over yourself! I keep telling that to myself as I followed Will into...
Yep, I was right, it is his bedroom. Oh and great, Will has to go straight to his bed and sit down.
Will looked over at me, seeing I was still standing in his doorway.
"Uh, Angel, you can come in," Will said.
I found myself flushing, "oh, right." I said, walking in the room. Instead of going to the bed I walked over to Will's computer desk and set down on the chair.
Will gave me a funny look and I was glad he didn't question my choice of seating.
"Nice screen saver," I commented, looking at his computer. It was a picture of Will and two others that looked a lot like Will. A girl and a guy.
Will smiled, standing up. He walked over to me, standing behind me. Leaning forward, he put his head near my neck. I shivered when I felt his breath hit my neck.
"Yeah, that's me and my brother and sister. My sister, who’s the oldest, took us to the park. We had a picnic. Tara was fifteen there, I'm ten and Alexander... Xander was twelve."
"You all look a lot alike." I said, moving my head a little to look at Will.
"Mm, yeah, everyone says that. We all take after mom, and look nothing like dad." Will moved a little until his chin was resting against the crook of my neck.
I smiled, looking back at the picture. "You guys are close?"
Will nodded his head, tickling my neck, "yeah, but now, Tara's married and Xander is at camp, so I don't see them much. I really miss them." Will sounded sad when he said that. But what I didn't want to say out loud was at least he still had both his siblings. I really wish I could see Juno again... and Connor, but that I know will never happen.
Will pulled away from me; I looked at him, seeing that he looked upset.
"Oh, gosh, listen to me. Angel, I'm sorry, I wasn't even thinking. I sound so selfish, talking about... boohooing about missing my siblings when you..."
Will went to his bed, sitting down, "I'm sorry, I wasn't thinking..."
I stood up, walking toward Will and sitting down next to him. I reached out, touching Will's shoulder, lightly gasping when Will threw himself in my arms.
Rubbing his back, I looked up at the ceiling, "listen Will, it's okay. I know you didn't mean anything by it, and besides, you do miss your siblings. It's okay talking about missing someone."
"You're not selfish!" I insisted.
Will sniffed, looking up at me, "you're not mad at me?"
I sighed, "Will, look... I'm not like most people. I don't get mad easily and I find it hard to believe that I could ever be mad at you."
"And when I am mad, whether at you or at all, you'll know." I smiled, "I am a redhead after all."
Will smiled, "yeah, redheads have tempers..."
"We do, but we hide them well, at least I do. Or I try."
"Angel if you ever get mad at me... No, listen," Will put a finger on my lips when I tried to speak. "If you ever get mad at me, please tell me. I don't want you to ever get mad at me, but if you do, I want to know, so I can make things better."
I smiled, "all right, but... I don't think that will happen."
"But if it does..."
"Yes, if it does, I will be open with you and tell you."
"Good!" Will said, burying his head against my chest.
Flushing, I started to rub his back again.
I wondered if Will had any idea what him being this close to me did to me? I doubted it, he was so innocent.
And we stayed like that; for how long, I'm not sure. But sometime later, Will looked up at me and I noticed he was biting his lip in a nervous way.
Huh, I haven't even done anything; just set here. Why would he be biting his lip? What's he got to be nervous about?
"Angel?" Will's face flushed.
Okay, now he's confusing me more.
"Yeah?" I whispered.
"I-I... want you to..."
A/N Evil laugh Look what I did. A cliffhanger. So what do you think Will's going to ask Angel? Do you even want to read more? Let me know with a review! Thanks for reading!
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