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Love Lies Bleeding
Dreaming while confined
And my heaven is my mind
I'm searching there to find
any trace you've left behind
I thought you'd be the one
When all was said and done
that to you I could run
And I'd be your number one
But now we sing a different tune
Sleep under a different moon
We cry in separate rooms
And wonder why we're doomed...
....so it goes.
(8 May 2003)
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Untitled (to AW)
Last night for the first time
I caught the slightest glimpse
of a sadness peeking out
from behind such big brown eyes
(imagined strong, pale thighs)
Well-hidden by bright smiles
it would remain to untrained eyes
But I've been there - I am there
We're alike; I never knew
(I want to get to know you)
What a beautiful face
and I wonder if you see me
If our two worlds collided
I wonder what could be...
(something I would like to see)
Hmmm...
(8 May 2003)
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Spring
A song to be sung
of beauty and lust
to sing while we're young
so blinded we trust
in paths lain before
or in wandering eyes
and free we'll explore
while we know we're alive
(23 April 2003)
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The Dharma Bums...(to MIW)
And so I go into this
thing knowing --
Because it's not about you
But it IS you
And I can feel you in
the pages
I can almost smell your skin
Oh -- to taste you once again...
So the road goes on
You know we still go on with it
And together while apart
And you know you're in my heart
So there's this peace
behind your eyes
I see it when I sleep
When you weep
I'm still dreaming of you
Oh -- to hold you for a lifetime
But you know there's always...
The end.
(23 April 2003)
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Where are you Now?
It's these longings past reality
dreams so impossible
and i cling to them as my survival
it's wanting what i can't have
that drives me from inside
reaching out in my sleep
for a sun that just won't rise
i won't wake up
until your kiss revives me
But you don't even know
No, you don't even know me
Where are you now?
Are you feeling this way too?
Don't you know my touch
Could soothe your pain
And we could both feel alive again
But maybe i've gone crazy
And maybe I don't know
No, I don't even know you
Where are you now?
Are you searching for me too?
Because I'm searching for you.
(23 March 2003)
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Untitled (to MIW)
Your silence pervades my veins
speeding bloodflow to my broken heart
Suffocated beats send weak rivers on their way
searching, still searching for my ocean
Nothing in my body will satisfy these streams
Artery walls expand, contract
Regulating bloodflow to my tired brain
But too much pressure, no room left
For starving plasma, inside wants out
My blood can't breathe, remaining blue
Every ounce is strangled, gasping
Maybe something sharp...
(25 February 2003)
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Asleep(also, to MIW)
I can't sleep, afraid my eyes may drown
Blurry and maladjusted, won't stay open either
Can't make sense of the world I see
Until my dreams take over reality
Asleep you only bring me life
And take nothing more of me
Your lyrics enchant my wounded soul
But you'll never put me down
Asleep you only have one side
The one I loved when I was conscious
Your alter-ego dissipates
Eaten away by my saline tears
And again you are my prince
With flowers and letters and kisses you come
to sweep me off my feet
You adore me as your princess
And I know we'd get along
I know you're meant for me, I know I'm always yours
But only while I sleep.
(14 January 2003)
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untitled(again, to MIW)
Why must we run from
That which completes us?
Bitter fear instilled in the
Purest lonely hearts
Does the sun burn your eyes
Or melt your frozen soul?
Indulge in the rain on your face
Don't worry that you're alone.
(16 December 2002)
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Untitled (to BSN)
It's like starting over when you're lying by my side
your skin, so smooth, your beauty can't hide
Our innocense lost long ago to another
But now feels like brand new, you & me, lovers
Candlelight dances, chasing shadows 'cross your face
Feeling you breathe, my heart begins to race
A new passion released, our bodies explore
Discovering phenomena unnoticed before
Every inch of your body, a beautiful art
Your dark restless eyes scream the lust of your heart
Free from each other, our bodies are one
Hands grasped together, both ready to run
(2 June 2002)
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Untitled (to BSN)
I dream you're here beside me
As I clench my pillow tight
These lonely nights still strangle me
And leave me begging for the light
Your body's replaced by a blanket
Spread lifelessly over my skin
And your breath, once so warm and soothing
is taken over by harsh winter winds
When you're not in my life i have peace
With no questions to wander my mind
But without you I can't feel at ease
And I can't leave your memory behind
I wish that you would disappear
Because I need you here so bad
ANd I don't know why I want you near
When you'll make me feel so sad.
(23 June 2002)
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My Favorite Summer Love Poem (to CAR)
Peace rings out in silent summer air
Your fingers run rhythmically through my hair
six strings cry out love in the space between us
move closer my dear, let us touch
your hands on my face, the sun is so high
the life of this moment, unafraid to die
kissing the salt of the earth from your lips
feeling the palm of your hand on my hip
a cloud far above us with passion explodes
while here on the grass a new beauty unfolds
lying together, bathed in hot rain
emblazoned by pleasure and knowing no pain
loving each motion, learning to feel
loving the notion that this love is real...
(May 2002)
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Untitled (to BSN)
How could I be beginning
A love that's not worth winning
When I know the way it seems
Is just a product of my dreams
Restless imagination
Confined emancipation
To love a beautiful smile
and want to hold you for awhile
Is nto my heart's true cry for love
And what we have will never be enough
To get me through the nights alone
The waiting up late by the phone
Redemption from this selfish lust
In my heart now is a must
Deeper than blood is the love i crave
But colder than frost, the feeling you gave
So let me be alone now
Until I'm sure I know how
To peer past the outside and see a heart
For the love it contains in its softest parts
Let us peacefully leave each other
With lessons learned to share with another
I wish you direction in all your trails
And cool winds of peace til fill your sails
So until the day we meet again
I can look back and smile when I think of you, Ben.
(10 June 2002)
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for Jenna
Be free Sweet Princess
Never hide your wandering eyes
Explore the world around you
Stretch your fingers through the skies
Embrace your youth forever
Each carefree passing day
And never worry what's to be
Just love life, come what may
Ignore the chides of elders
If they bring your spirit down
Don't ever let anybody
Step on your toes or steal your crown
Be the queen of your life
And the judge of what is right
And when the world grows dark around you
Let your heart be your guiding light
Throughout your life you'll be faced with strife
It won't always be peaches and cream
But no matter how hard the rains falls
Hold fast to your passions and dreams
Love the Lord with all your sould
and He'll grant you your desires
Walk the path he lays for you
And your feet willl never tire
And whereever your road may lead you
I'm here with you all the way
To help you, to love you, to share with you
All your joys, all your pain, every day
The light in your eyes overjoys me
And your smile strengthens my soul
My dear princess, I love you so much
When I'm empty, your love makes me whole.
(20 May 2002)
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to CAG
My frustration has the tendencies
to lead to hyperventilation
and the beating of my heart
leaves bruises on my scars
the rage that I've thus far contained
defies attempts to stay restrained
and sometimes i just emancipate
my feelings of anger toward all this hate
and it urges me to kick and shout
I need control over my own chaos
that cashes in but doesn't pay off
my ears ring insanity and my teeth grind
from all this calamity bouncing through my mind
my tears are of blood that you can taste
my sores drown in pools of saline you waste
so don't cry for me, for this pain is my own
fate joined us together so we could each be alone
(27 November 2000)
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Contact me
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