Undeterminable. Undetermined. Those words in essence sum up the one they call The D. Unable to decide what I want to be. Unable to decide what I want to strive for. No knowledge of a skill or talent within me. I am undeterminable and undetermined. I strive for nothing and you have no idea what I am striving for. In a sense, a broad sense, you could say I strive for happiness, but yet again, I have no concept of what happiness is.
I will never have any true friends. I have lots of people i hang out with but no true friends. No one I can count on to be by my side at anytime I need it. Is there a way to get friends, or is there not. If friendships are made early in life, I lost that simplicity, that innocence I had back in Royal Oak. I lost it to a place which I consider the closest thing to hell. I had friends, I had a life, I was in shape. Sure I had to wear a uniform, but I was happy. Who knows what life held for me. Something tells me that I sure wouldn't be feeling like an ass right now. Why has time stolen my life?
Song: "Typical Situation"-The Dave Matthews Band