Mood:
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I've just been so dead inside since Monday. I didn't sleep Tuesday night at all, so I fell asleep at 6:30PM Wednesday. I woke up again at 6:40AM Thursday but I just felt too damned depressed to even drag myself out of bed to do anything more than grab a 7Up and go to the bathroom. I woke up again at 10:49AM and finally dragged myself out of bed at 11:30AM, I think.
I took my measurements today. Monday my waist was 28", today it's 26 1/2". I wanted to eat this morning but I just couldn't. I just felt so dead inside, I couldn't even get up the energy to chew and swallow. I tried eating dinner before I went to sleep yesterday but I could only get two spoon fulls in. Eating just feels like torture. So I made myself some green tea and I'll probably keep drinking green tea until I can eat again. I'm going to force myself to eat a soft cookie or something like that later today so I can take my vitamin and my birth control . . .
It's really amazing how quick the body starts to die after your soul does . . .
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Posted by punk4/punky_kittenx
at 12:52 PM EDT
Updated: Sunday, May 15, 2005 2:43 PM EDT
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Updated: Sunday, May 15, 2005 2:43 PM EDT
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