Air Conditioning
I love air conditioning, which is really sad since I'm an environmentalist but still.

I just got my air conditioner installed and not a moment too late indeed. I was getting a bit worried that my hamster would die from all the humidity in my room ( I'm on the top floor). Also I can finally concentrate on my homework and not drip sweat all over it :-)

My cat is weird . . .
I don't know what's wrong with Shrooms lately. He's just been dying for attention 24/7. He always has to be sitting on my computer desk and if there's no room for him on my desk because I'm doing some work or something he'll sit right next to my chair and stare at me like he's the most neglected cat in the world.

At night he likes to sleep in my bed with me and that's fine by me except for the fact that he has to sleep ontop of my hair to make sure I won't go anywhere and then he starts to groom me as soon as I fall asleep. I love my cat but his breath is horrid and he makes my hair smell like that when he cleans me. It is awful cute though. Oh and let's not forget what happens in the morning when he's decided that I've slept enough. He bites my nose till I wake up and if that doesn't work he'll start biting my ears and chewing on my hair. He's the strangest little beast ever.

I Think I'm Gonna Scream!
Stupid freaking Easter Sunday and my mothers stupid Easter turkey. Grrr. Everyone that I've told I don't want to eat an animals has just had to add their two cents about how dumb they think I am ( except for Paul) and how I "don't know what I'm missing" did they ever stop to think that I DO know what I get to miss out on by not eating meat and that's EXACTLY why I don't want to eat it.

It's not like this is an easy thing for me either. I used to be a burger junkie. I can't say that I don't miss the taste of meat but oh well. I love animals and I don't want to be at all responsible for hurting one. This is the 21st century and humans can get along just fine and be perfectly healthy without eating animals, so why don't we? Any animal suffering in this day and age is completely unnecessary.

So get off my freaking back about it! I don't bother other people for choosing to eat meat so why do they have to bother me about choosing not to eat meat? Do they feel the need to "save" me or something? Save me how? By giving me cancer, heart disease, a stroke maybe? Thanks, I'll do without.

Bored
This has been a pretty fruitless week. I haven't done much lately actually so I've had nothing to write about.

My fiance finally got around to checking out my site and reading this blog and he said I was being "showy". He said that I'm like putting on a happy front or something. Dumbass. Does he really think I'm going to sob and cry and drivvel over everything bad that's happened in my life? Sorry, I'm writing most of this down because I want to remember GOOD things. The bad things are already embedded deep within my being, I don't need to write them down. Even if I did write all my depressing crap on here he'd get mad at me for it anyway. Like there's actually alot of people who read this. Ha! I'm sure my 3 readers will be revitted (sp?) by my self-mutilation and my life as an unwanted child. It's so orignal (NOT!). Everyone and their mom is screwed up these days. I wouldn't be shocking anyone.

Soooo late . . .must find . . .comfy pillow . . .nappy time now . . .me no sleep work well without . . .

A Prayer
The prayer request is for a little boy in Tifton......

The Prayer is for Joe William Sheffield (he is 9-years old)?his mother is a teacher in the school system in Tifton, Georgia. They attend First Baptist Church in Tifton. He has been diagnosed with cancer and began his Chemo on Christmas Eve.

First Baptist has a program called the Prayer Beeper. When you pray for this child, call this toll free number 1-877-546-0248. Listen to the recording and input number 733#.

What happens is this child wears the beeper and every time it vibrates he knows somewhere someone is lifting him up in prayer! What a wonderful ministry. I just did this myself?what an awesome blessing for this little boy every time he gets a buzz...and what a blessing for us to know that we are showing him God's love in such a quick way.

Please take a minute out of your day to say a prayer for Joe William...I am sure it means a lot to him and helps keep his spirits up every time he gets a "beep".

Please pass this along to all of your friends so Joe will know that even people that don't know him still care enough to say a prayer for him.

Free Me
I didn't ask you to take me from here
I didn't ask to be broken
I didn't ask you to stroke my hair
or treat me like a worthless token

but my skin is thick
and my mind is strong
I am build like my father was
I've done nothing wrong

so free me
I just wanna feel what life should be
I just want enough space
to turn around
and face the truth
so free me

when are you gonna realize
you're just wrong
you can't even think for yourself
you can't even make up your minds
so my mind's a jail
I hate the whole goddamn human race
what the hell do you want from me
kill me if you just don't know
or free me

I just wanna feel what life should be
I just want enough space to turn around
'cause you're all fucked
some day maybe you'll treat me like you
Goldfinger

Riding The Bus
Grrr. My step dad refuses to drop off my school work ( even though it IS on his way to work) anymore because my mother is being a childish little brat and told him not to. Now I have to take the bus. This bites.

I hate taking buses to the far east outskirts of this city, it's so confusing and I've never really been there. Plus I have to make sure I pick an apopriate time between between school hours otherwise I'll have to deal with tyhose freaking whiney teenagers that hate me for no reason. It's not that what they say hurts my feelings or anything or that I'm too chicken to fight ( I've kicked their asses before) it's just that I'd rather not have to listen to them and even though I have gotten into alot of fight I actually hate fighting. I walk away most of the time because I couldn't be bothered but there's just that many homophobic people in my old highschool who like to pick fights with me that it just acumulates quite the number of fights for me. Hopefully one day they will grow up. It's not likely though.

It's strange that that many people in one place can be so ignorant. I wonder what happened. Did their parents drop them on their heads or something? Is all the asbetos in the run down place getting into their brains and causing defects? One will never know . . .

Well, I'm going to catch the bus at about 12:15pm. Hopefully I don't get lost. I lost my glasses so it's going to be near impossible to read the signs. *sigh* Oh well, gotta give it a shot, don't want to turn into a failure like my mother which is exactly where I'll be headed if I don't finish high school.

Open Your Mind, Not The Bible
Before any Christians or what not get mad at me because of the title of this entry, hear me out.

I am a follower of the Roman Catholic faith. I believe in God and the Christ. The one thing I don't believe in though is using The Bible to dictate how everyone else should live their life.

I am really irritated right now at the Christians and the Catholics whose only excuse for believing that something is wrong is "Well,uh, like, The Bible says it's bad so there!". Who the heck gave them the right to go around saying that God's Way is the only way? What the heck makes them think that they are so smart that they know what's best for everyone or how everyone should live their life?

If you think something is wrong and you disagree with someone about it, fine, that's what makes life interesting but if you don't have at least one original thought in your head to back up your opinion then you are ignorant. God gave you and brain and He wants you to use it!The Bible is a great book that teaches alot of good values and alot of good things but it was not meant to think for you. If you can't think for yourself then you need to seek help because something is wrong with you. Humans are supposed to think for themselves. Our minds are such amazing gifts and they go to waste because people just refuse to use them.

Basically I'm saying is the all the pushy people who like to push their religion on everyone else need to know these things: You do not know what is best for everyone, you do not which religion is right and which one is wrong, you do not know if The Bible is the Truth and you most certainly do not have *any* right whatsoever to tell someone that they are going to hell because they don't see things the way you do.

This goes for Christians, Jews, Buddhists or anyone else. I don't care how right you think your faith is you have no possible way of knowing for sure so don't go around pretending you do because you don't and you're being rude and hurtful and ignorant.

*steps off her soap box* There, I feel alot less annoyed now that I said that . . .

Binbrooke
I went down to a farm about 45mins away today. Chad's horse Jaws was there along with my mom-in-laws new mare that she had over there to be trained. The new mare is really beautiful and she is very big (She's taller than me at her shoulders). She a very sweet horse considering she was wild a month ago. She's affectionate and she loves having her face petted and scratched. She was ottally sweet with me except for when she tried to make a meal out of my jacket. LoL.

I got to play with Jaws aswell and he is just the sweetest horse in the world. I think if Jaws had one wish he'd wish that he could be small enough to fit in your pocket and take home. He loves it when he gets his ears rubbed (you should see the face he makes when he gets his ears rubbed, his eyes roll back into his head). He was making big smiles for me and mom.

I saw the cutest piglets when I was taking a pee (it's just kinda the way it works on the farm, you pick an empty horse stall and pee the nearest bathroom was a 5 minute walk) they scared me. I was just trying to make sure no one walked in on me doing my business and all of a sudden a two pigglets run up behind me and squealed. They were just so cute and curious. It was sweet :-)

It was a fun day and I got to talk with my mom-in-law which was fun. We got lost on the way there which was an adventure in itself. I hate that I have to go back to my house tommorrow. I don't know if my mother has flushed my hamster Boo down the toilet or destroyed my computer or some other weird things that she would probably do. I hate her. She's insane.