Dilema~
Arrgh!! As it getting closer and closer to end of sch term.. felt tis heaviness within me.. kinda like at e crossroad whereby i gotta make a choice between Diploma in Theology or my O level.. it hard! Without an Os i can't hardly do anything in the private sector.. going on to Yr 2 will only get me a dip in theology and it not recognise.. but it reali sacrificing my own desire and seek God's.. BUT Why i jus can't get tat revelation whereby my Future is in God's hands??..Believing and trustin in Him tat it will shine eva brighter?? Itz easy to say then to actually believe.. When God called me to go for SOt I dun think He's gonna leave me now hanging in e midst of nowhere.. i noe God wans me to continue for e 2nd yr but.. there's jus so many buts! It requires my entire yr, finance, and the understandin of my family members.. It requires at least $500 to sustain me for a month.. my mom and sis doesn't understand y am i going for tis course..It not easy for me to actually fight for wad i want.. it very tiring~ I'm very tired...very tired..

After praying.. now i felt much much much better.. I'm still gonna go for God in persuing yr 2.. i noe God is gonna work miracles for me.. specially next wk! BEcuz He said so! It will be a yr where my dreams will be fulfilled..God reminds me what He did for me in my 1st yr..deeper relationship with Him, greater understanding of Him and becoming Youth CGL which i always tot it impossible but God prove the impossible possible in my life & what good things will e Father withold from His children??

2004 is gonna be great! God will make a way! Faith and Trust always work hand in hand.. I'm gonna excerise my faith and trust in God!!