No Breath
I cannot breathe
The darkness envelopes my heart
Gasping for breath
I'm blinded by the hate
The fear that creeps beneath my feet
Stirring within like a wild beast
Tangled between the branches
Numbness attacking my senses
The time trickles away like tears
Draining the energy from my veins
The wind sifts through my wet hair
As puddles of rain surround my ankles
A ray of sunlight breaks through the blackness
And I breathe once again
Beauty's on the Outside My skin is soft My fingers
are long My pride is shallow My instincts are
wrong My lips are full My hair is thick My
heart is heavy My mind is sick My eyes are
hypnotic My legs go on for miles My soul is
torn My face forgets how to smile My neck is like
a swan's My back is a perfect arch My memories are
cold My subconcious is in the dark My eyelashes
are long My face is flawless My anger is
forever My feelings are defenseless
My Prayer
As I lay me down to sleep I pray that I am not too
cheap I close my eyes and touch my scars And
wonder how I've gone this far I think about my last
few loves And realize there was no love My heart
is lost, worn and gray As I face another day I
don't know where I lost myself It's nearly impossible
to even tell I cannot ignore what I
crave Therefore my soul cannot be saved The tears
stream slowly out my eyes Full of empty guilty
lies I cannot be who I really am Without the
memories of where I've been I don't believe I ever
lived Until the moment I finally sinned God
forgive me for the things I do I just fell in love
way too
Unaffected
I could care less About the world, about the
problems, about the nothingness I'm sorry to
disappoint you But it doesn't affect anything I
do I live in my own little universe Where
everything that brings joy is a curse God knows what
I've done to deserve it But I do know that there's no
escaping it Someone didn't want my life to be
easy Someone never wanted me to find a soul who could
please me I'm in the dark Nursing my broken
heart How many tricks can they play on me?? How
many times can I be deceived? Of course I don't want
to stick around I've already lost everything I've
found I wasn't born with any faith So how am I
supposed to feel safe?! It's just so cold on the
outside And I'll never find a place to hide
Hallucination
As the walls begin to fall all around me
I see a little kitten in a tree
She stares at me with wise eyes
And I know she can see through all the lies
My legs begin to give way
And the world around me starts to change
I feel you within my bones
And realize I'm not alone
I look up at the purple sky
Wondering how long it would take to climb
Safety is an illusion
Reality is a delusion
My feet can't touch the ground
My heart begins to pound
I awake with a start at work
Laugh, then drink more coffee for a little
perk
A Year Lost The pain is finally
gone I have finally moved on Past a year of
tears And lonely fears Now I feel lost without
it Vulnerable and naked With no more misery to
wallow in I don't feel like I fit in I'm not who I
used to be Who I am is a stranger to me Where do I
go from here? I don't even recognize who looks back
at me in the mirror I've learned new things I've
lost old dreams Now I'm somewhere in the middle My
knowledge of the future so little I don't know how to
get back home to me I'm not sure if I have a choice
who I wanted to be Perhaps I've already
changed Maybe it's too late I lost a year of my
life Locked up in all that strife What if that
time Was the most important of my life? Then I'm
doomed to always be lost And paying the neverending
cost What if?
Underworld Hiding below the surface Is a face I don't know Crying out from the
dark abyss That I've known as my home Love in an
ordinary life Where flaws do not exist And the
water is so cool and inviting That your mind cannot
resist I wish to cut through it's depth And let it
wash away my sins Then remain on the bottom Until
I develop fins I'd become completely immersed Safe
as the comfort of a mother's womb I'd live in my
underworld And avoid the outside doom I wish it
were that simple To follow that stranger
underwater Imagine the love that lies
beneath Perhaps a sister, a lover, a daughter I'm
waiting for your soul To meet my reflection Take
me down to your hiding place Let the waves become my
protection Bring me into a filtered
reality Especially for me I wouldn't need to
breathe anymore All you have to do is show me the
key
Dylan How many roads must a
girl walk on? Before you can call her a woman? I
hate janitors when they roll their trash cans down
halls It's too noisy for my sensitive ears Why
can't I be talkative, bubbly, and open like her? Neat
yet delightfully jaded? It's a quarter after and I
want my car And the radio Yes, a radio would be
nice And Ryan Hawke on the side My first love at
first sight How can high schoolers'
conversations Sound no different from grade
schoolers? As they echo through the halls? Why
even wear lipstick when it smudges, Whenever you put
anything to your lips? Should I drive by his house
today? He won't be home No one is anymore
Cynical Jaded Genius
The reality she recognizes is inevitable
Creative people focusing on the pain
Absent of her dramatic future
Is everything which is sane
A solace for a worried artist
Ripped clean from her expression
The distinct seasons of her heart
Shatter an important lesson
Badly achieved with tears in her eyes
Looking across her landscape
Cravings fleetingly tickling her senses
Like frost-covered branches she longs to escape
She expects to achieve the world's deadlines
But never stoop to the level of ingenious
Cruelty equals creativity
When she's your cynical jaded genius
Whatever I want a pair of
shiny leather pants
But everyone tells me I can't
I want one of those neat feather boas
And maybe even a rainbow mohawk
I want a nose, navel, tongue, and eyebrow ring
I want everything
Whatever catches the eye
Whatever makes people ask why
I want a Picasso tattoo
I'd like my body painted too
I wish my eyes were the deepest shade of violet
I want to shine as the most unique starlet
I want to walk barefoot in the snow
And be the scene stealer in the big show
I want to hide under an umbrella when it's not
raining
I want to soak in the sea instead of showering or
bathing
Whatever catches the eye
Whatever makes people ask why
Mirror The mirror reflects an image
Of a woman I don't know.
She's fair and pretty,
With eyes like a doe.
Finally no longer gawky,
Nor awkward and shy.
The flower pod has grown into a blossom,
But I feel a tangled knot of ugly weeds inside.
I don't feel beautiful,
But they've told me I am.
People say what you feel is what you are,
And beauty is not what I am.
I dress to impress,
Not to seduce.
I try to be and show myself,
But I always seem to lose.
I don't want to be naughty.
I don't want to be nice.
Isn't there some middle ground?
A solution that doesn't involve my knife?
Reputations can be born just by looks alone-
My apperance seems to be a downright sin.
I don't want to be ogled at or ignored.
I'm not comfortable in my own skin.
I'm unique,
I've always been.
How else can I show it?
I just don't want to be eye candy for men!
What a strange preoccupation-
People don't care anymore that beauty may only be skin
deep.
We've become a material world-
Impatient and cheap.
I enjoy attention,
But it still feels dirty.
I'm afraid what they say about me,
But I'm the one who's flirting.
So what if my clothes are tight?
Isn't that what I like to wear?
Don't I have the right?
I'm a bitch,
And I'm a liar...
So just get used to it-
I'm more intense than fire.
Star Song
Wishing on a star I've always been weak Wishing for you I played hide-and-seek Don't tell me you know Because you don't see me I can't be who you'd like You're not what I need Just make me a promise Kiss me long and hard Then leave me alone So I can sing my song
Feathers Feeling subdued Like a pillow beneath my head Everything is bright and lively Eyes are bloodshot and red Just don't want to leave Peace surrounds our senses Looking up at the moon I want to jump the fenses Now normal is abnormal The best I ever had Just leave me to myself I may be bad
Puzzle Chick
Wasted and youthful
Full of shattered thoughts
Just a little broken
Afraid of being caught
Fears enclose around her fist
Imprisoning her faults
Spinning her web of foolishness
The rest of the world halts
Frozen in the space between
Ambition goes on strong
Yet her mind falls apart
Realizing she doesn't belong
