Introduction
I've always wondered why I acually spoke what I am speaking. It's like the concept with someone who speaks spanish is foriegn...we sound foriegn to them. Everything I have noticed, is in someway a big giant circle... I dont quite get it... But it does...if you want to reach me at it's not so hard just Click Here ok now that I have that out of the way...I guess I should begin on why I have decided to put this into my world of wonder.
The theories and misconceptions have overwhelmed me when I sit and think about how many diffrent ways people try to explain something. Say for instance, the young woman, who is dying of an incurable disease, the doctors say there is no hope for her, yet, on her next visit to the doctor, she finds that the disease, isn't there, like it never existed in the first place. Stroke of luck? perhaps? Miracle? you never know. So many ways to explain things that happen, even when they dont need explaining. Shouldn't we just be happy that we are alive. We are put into this world for a reason. Even if we are not sure of what that reason is. You need to look inside. Only then, will you find the answer to all of your questions.
The Meaning of words
Things arnt always easy to say, wether it's "I Love You" or something as simple as "I lied, I'm sorry" Those words seem impossible to say at times, that is if you really mean them. There are so many diffrent things I have trouble saying. But I never worry about saying them, because sometimes I hope the other person knows what I am trying to say. But when they dont, and I still want them to know what I am trying to say without having to say those words, I show them, any way I can. Because one day they may be gone, then I will not get to tell them how I truly felt. So I either tell them, or I show them. Either way, They always find out. You just have to let them know....
anyone care?
It's Funny, How when you Think that nobody cares, and you acually try to do something stupid...Everyone comes out of the woodwork, and decides to say "OH! I care!" Why didnt they tell me BEFORE I did anything stupid But noooooo. I guess my Theory for today is: When someone says They dont Care, Dont belive them. TRUST ME! My mind is going so crazy right now with the fact that I cant even sort things out in my head, damn, isnt this sounding like a diary? lol.... I love my boyfriend and all...But I still feel empty....I dont know why I am writing this if I know he is going to see this. I am ------- stupid. I am done on the theorys page.
Men are from mars, Women are from Venus
I swear it, guys are from a diffrent planet....UGH they drive me up the wall...always jealous, and stubborn...Sure, women get that way...but not like guys do, I mean, seriously...they get all jealous and ---- when you want to go to a guy friends house....I mean...Not pointing any fingers or anything...But I think men and women are from diffrent planets for the fact that men cannot understand women, but yet other women can understand both men and Women...doesnt that make more sense?
ya know, if men dont straighten up soon...I may end up going single and staying single....lol...I hate it when guys get too damn possesive over me! I cant stand feeling like I am a piece of property that someone has bought! I mean, what am I supposed to do? Bow to him...Hell no. I'm not that easy...You cant please me like that...and then another thing that pisses me off, is when guys sit there and ask for one thing after another, and then never buy you anything in return. I hate that, even when they have money they never buy you anything.I just dont get it.... I can dig as deep as my pocket goes and I still dont think they truely love me....Why? I dont know.... But my conclusion is still that men are from mars and women are from Venus....And that my friends, is the truth, that obviously no one can see but me....
Growing Old
Sometimes I wonder what it's like to grow old, you know? I mean...Look at your parents...How did they go through life??? I know none of us want to ask this for fear of our parents starting this long talk beginning with "When I was a boy..." yatta yatta yatta...a 3 hour long story follows...and I know none of us want to listen to that. So what was it like? what did they feel? I guess we will never know...But on the upside of things, we can always tell our kids that 3 hour long story...or maybe we wont bore our kids that much. Now, I am going to start a new poll on my page....If/ When you have kids, How are you going to raise them? THe same way your parents raised you, or diffrently??? I would love to know peoples view on this... So Please click HERE and tell me how you feel about this topic...Thanks!
Manners?
I recently started working at a cookie store...I have noticed that no matter how polite you are...The customers dont pay attention to you. They either dont listen, or dont see you. I mean, Sure, they talk to you, but the dont use manners, like when I say "3.25 is your change and have a nice day!" they sit there and either walk away or say "whatever" I think it is just sooo rude...I mean, I make the damn cookies, then give them to the customers, being very polite. For the lil kids I even give them a small free cookie... I mean, How nice do I have to be for these people??? I mean I stand for 7 to 8 hours a day just to give them their damn cookies! grrrr People can just be so rude? Why didnt their parents teach them manners? and if they did, WHy dont they USE them? Oh well, I give up...Ya know, someone brought up a very interesting poll the other day, About the movie The Matrix What if everything we know is computerized, and learning about computers is really just...well, A step to figuring them out??? I mean, WHy is it that Everytime we get close to something, it falls apart? Is there anything we can do? Any paralel universe that we can turn too? or is it just this? This place, this earth, this Matrix??? What exactly is life all about...are we even what we call human? Will anyone ever know?
Have you ever loved somebody so much it made you cry? I have... But there is one thing I dont understand. Why does everyone say that love is a wonderful feeling..if at the end it makes you hurt so bad? i have been thinking alot tonight about that subject. I am not saying that I am hurting right now....Just thinking about life in general here. I mean, How am I to know when I am going to start hurting...how is anyone to know for that matter? Now dont get me wrong...I dont always think about myself...you can ask anyone...I normally put friends and family before myself... I mean... I would bend over backwards for someone. Because I think that they do the same for me...and most of the time..... they dont...But even after people let me down.... I still help them when they need it. I guess I am a fool huh? oh well thats the way life is :)
I am wondering about the meaning of life right now... what is the point? Why are we here? I sometimes wonder If there is any point to the hustle and bustle of our daily lives. The anger and turnoil that people go through now.... I cant seem to find any reasons for it. Is there a reason? I mean seriously. Oh well Maybe I'm the only one that thinks about these things..maybe not. But hwo knows?