Last Breath

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Once I knew
At least I thought
All there was to know and more
That is until I met you

And now as I try to recall
What drew me to you
All the memories are blurry
I guess all genius’ take their fall

Even your faced is roughly etched
In deep and steady hues of gray
I could not try to capture its lost beauty
No matter how I tried and sketched

Loving you had become a habit
Though secretly I knew I had no chance
I had but one breath
And I’m still holding on to it

How could I compete?
With years of faithful service
With old laughter and inside jokes
I was so innocent so huggabley sweet

But I’m sick of playing this game
Of feeling alone
Of feeling scared
I only wish you also felt the same

I’m bouncing of the walls
I’m bleeding eternally
I’ve doubted, rethought, regretted every word
And lost my way in your turbulent halls

I’ve given all that I could
More than I wanted
Sacrificed everything
More than I would

I’m numb
And I’m reckless
I’m lovesick
And emotionally dumb

I’ve gotten to the point I don’t care
If it’s right or wrong
All I know is your arms are warm
And all my dreams take me there

Off the edge here I go with my heart right in toe
And I finally rasp these fatal words
“I Love You”
This time please don’t let me go