Author's Note: Basically this poem is expressing what seems to be the reoccuring theme in my life. It's about thinking you are in love and then realizing you are more in love with the fact that you are in love then with the person. It's basically a theme for most freshman girls. *sigh*
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Lazy fingers dip into the water
Bored eyes scan the horizon
Weary heart and worn spirit
Guide me as I drift
Nothing to hold on to
So I keep going
Endlessly spinning
With nothing to grasp on to
What a lovely mirage I had once
Of comfort with a smile
True love I could relate to
Keeping me warm for just a while
But when I opened my eyes
And reached out to touch the faceless beauty
My fingers met perfect ripples
It was but my reflection in the water
Hopes crushed and feelings hurt
It was only me that let me down
I thought this one was different
But it was just the same
The realization hit me
As I tumbled from the false supports
How could I have been so foolish?
To have been carried away
But I continue
Hoping I have learned
And the deep loneliness still fills me
As I drift in this sea of people
