And now some old moments of Zen from December 2002...
12/1/02
Well, it's December. I can't believe it. And for 4 months now I have been living in FL not PA. Gosh, its scary and I never thought I would actually be saying that though I have been in the perpetual state of moving for the past 7 years. But this strangely enough is my home now. I won't be packing up to leave anytime soon. The holidays are gonna be some weird times for me. And what makes it feel weirder is having Natalie down here visitng. It's like old times within a new setting. She really came at the perfect time cuz I needed her support... Tomorrow night she leaves. And since I probably won't be visiting at Christmas now that means I won't see her for a long long time... I for see depression. Hard times are coming for my emotions, better go fortify. *hunkers down with frozen waffles*
12/3/02
CD OF THE MOMENT:nada
12/4/02
Well, I slept through the alarm again today... other than that it was an uneventful day back to school. Wore a tie... sat in gum... Nothing to tell other than I have a feeling that once the "first day" buffer wears off and I can't say "Oh I missed the past few days so I don't have the work." I'm gonna have a crud load of work... And that's a lot. Or not... seeing that my classes are a waste of my time.
12/5/02
Today is Mega's birthday! Oh... and Strom Thermund's. Mega is 16 and Strom is 100. Let's play the game, "Which One is a Racist Conservative Senator Who can Barely Stand Let Alone Vote for Himself!?!" The prize... *drum roll* a nod and a wink! And here's some advice for North Carolina: Just becuase he's been voted in term after term doesn't mean you have to keep the tradition. You aren't going to get in the Guiness Book of World Records. Thank god he's retiring... too bad he's going home to his wife that is 44 years younger than him... Don't get rowdy folks! That only means she's 56.
12/6/02
I suddenly had the urge, so of course little self indulgent me turned to a fellow student and said, "I for some reason like the word 'trifectum." All of a sudden a random student chimes in,"I like the word... CRAP!"
*giggles*
12/7/02
"There's an old saying in Tennessee - I know it's in Texas, probably in Tennessee - that says, fool me once, shame on... shame on you. Fool me... you can't get fooled again." - G.W Nashville, Tenn., Sept. 17, 2002
12/8/02
I have tons of homework and of course it's already 5:40 and I haven't done it... I've been severely slack. Life is a whirlwind... better go study...
12/11/02
I think I could survive as a guy.... I mean, if I was walking down the street and just... BAM! I'm a guy. Sure there'd be the high jinks and hilarity that ensues when one is unexplicabley turned into the opposite sex, which is by the way unbeknownst to the sex-changee. But within 5 days max I'd be cool. Though of course there is the hitch of having to fight the taboo of being a gay male. And sure I like to dress curvey at times and attractive. But even if this is sexist of me to say... men can be more funny honestly. Because I even find myself restrained by female expectations which leads to physical akwardness. So basically a female good slapstick person is hard to find though possible. I would devote my life to finding a cure for "being a man" and there'd be a lot of changes socially... but I wouldn't die within a week...
So take that Rob Schneider...
12/13/02
OoooOOoo It's Friday the 13th... Well... boo... Excuse me for being dispassionate but I'm sick of my emotions messing with me and making everything so difficult. I'm sick of being so weak and then being pushed around. I hate the world right now and I'm just gonna try to forget for a little while. Everything I know. Everything imbred. Everything I love. Cuz it just ends up pissing me off... Easier typed than done.
In other news my feet are orange and I don't know why...
12/14/02
A few weeks ago I hit the climax of my popularity! Not only was I picked first for a team game but I was accidentally picked twice! Booo.... YAH. It's only downwards from here.
12/15/02
The storm has passed.... I am so content and at peace with the world right now... :) It got pretty scary for a second there. Booo... Boooo....
12/17/02
Today my partner and I pulled off our final project for Acting. She started crying during the scene (acting) and we got an A. I should of cried... d'arrr... Take that Mr. Madden. Valuable equity lost!
12/18/02
Blarg... I'm in a crap mood. Woke up with a bad feeling and it's only faded... hasn't died. And for no appearant reason. I'm too stressed to deal with ESP if that's what it is. Leave me alone you mental emotional games! I also spent a long time at the doctors with my Baba (who painfully reminds me of Golem from LoTR.) Then the battery died in my car and add to that trying to learn how to drive with my mama and dido in the car... Ohwell I'm gonna try to just clean up my room and relax tonight. I really should go to school the rest of the week cuz I might be able to save my grades if I do... But really I'm weighing it and right now a soft bed looks pretty good to me. I know it's the wrong choice in the long run (rest versus good grades effecting my future, though I'm probably gonna go to sollege for art) but ohwell... go apathy... umm... yay?
12/19/02
Yeah... I should be working but appearantly by the text being added to this page.. I'm not... I just can't work.. It's horrible. I know I should... I know my mom wouldn't be mad anymore and things would be easier and I'd be able to go out more BUT I just can't... I start but get distracted and... attention span is not my friend. *tires* *waunders off*
12/20/02
18 days... 18 days... 18 days without school... I'm so happy... *slow eat-shit grin* So happy... 18 days... If I hadn't gone to school today to beg my teachers for mercy I would of been out of school for 3 weeks. But today was a half day and there was at most 3 people in each class... so I don't count it... 18 days! *stretches out
"And if I were to go hug my ailing mother and console her the dog head growths would bite me... I swear the one especially hates me"
12/21/02
Happy Yule! To celebrate it I slept in till 4:15 today! It's the longest night so I slept the longest I could.... Okay... maybe it wasn't "quite" on purpose...
12/23/02
I'm feeling all "web journally" today so here's a quick recap of this weekend in list form:
12/25/02
12/26/02
Well I must say Christmas of 2002 was the best ever! Or at least the best in a long time... It was just warm... and lacking stress (well mostly.) My whole neighborhood came out and partied and I saw a lot of people I had not seen in a while. It was just a nice soft warm thing.... mmm... *hugs self*
12/27/02
I got new fishies... And they need a naming! I watched them for about 3 hours last night... I like fish. I have 10 now. I just feel pride in them. Cuz they are ALLL mine... all my responsibility. I get to name them and feed them. MINE *big ass grin* Anyway I got one red swordfin (Metallus Cimber), a orange sunset fire (Sette), and yet to be named; a black molly and 3 black phantom tetra. The threee tetra are supposed to school but right now they are at the opposite side of the tank... stupid fish! I luv ya! Names are Pending, feel free to contribute! *goes back to watching the fish and procastinating like usual*
12/30/02
I don't feel like updating this... oops... with blarg me... *eats a small animal*
12/31/02
Happy Fucking New Year... in spite of him
