Everything you are about to read is original poetry written by me K.L.T. and I must say that some of the poems ("Sonnet" and "No Apolegies") were written at the hardest time in my life, I was angry, sad, and I even had thoughts of suicide-but I'm still alive and I am very happy now. They were written for a class assignment, about thirty poems were written before I could find one suitable enough to read in my grade 12 English class, it was hard to write from the heart and not use the piece so I wouldn't give myself away. The poem entitled "The Morning After" was written for a girl I fell in love with and thought about all the time, I'm still in love with her but she is taken at the moment. "Amy and Eve" is the Adam and Eve story as I have always wanted to hear it, written from my world's perspective. Some of the poems ("Honestly 1 2 3") are rough cuts of an unfinished poem. I'm not really sure what "Open Up" is, I just wrote it one day thinking about how you can tell people who you are over and over again and they don't/won't believe you."Untitled" and "Alone Far In The Wilds" were written for my English 11 class when I was really into solitude and being left alone. My newest poem, The Phoenix, is for a girl I know, a girl I am in love with in a way and I just realized it. She is a Phoenix, when I think of her I think of the words of none other than Ani Difranco: "And God help you if you are a phoenix and you dare to rise up from the ash, a thousand eyes will smolder with jealousy while you are just flying past." This girl is amazing and she is treated so poorly by her peers because she is better than them (she doesn't say she is or even express that she is, but she excells) The part about the dice is about "changing" a person which is not possible. Heroine is a poem about a lesbian athlete who keeps her life a secret so she will fit in with her fellow athletes and ultimately so she can continue playing...Today I add a new poem titled A Lover's Prayer, it was inspired a love who was supposed to meet me and never did...
So without any further ado, here goes:
Sonnet
NO APOLEGIES
I’M NOT SORRY THAT I WOULDN’T HIDE
WE ARGUED ONCE, WE ARGUED TWICE
FROM MY MOUTH CAME A SIGH I HEAVE
NOW I WONDER WHAT IS TO BE MY FATE
BEFORE THE MOVE MY SKIES WERE GRAY
The Morning After
As I awaken the morning after
Amy and Eve
come live in the sacred Eden
Honestly 1
Honestly 2
Honestly 3
She left without leaving a note
She went where she would not be found
For her parents would love her no more
Seeing is believing: Open Up
Untitled I came upon a tree-one day-
Alone Far In The Wilds Alone far in the wilds and mountains I hunt, I search for a place that is not populated, Bringing nothing technological or modern, Alone far in the wilds and mountains I hunt.
The Phoenix
The Phoenix' flame was burning bright
But a Phoenix is too hot to hold
But she is Fire and I am Ice...
Fire and Ice are like a Fish and a Bird
There were other things too that came to mind
But she is Fire and I am Ice...
I wish just this once that it could be nice
How do I love you? Let me count the ways.
I love you with a passion that weakens my knees,
My heart beats wild, and I sway like the trees.
I love you forever like seconds in days,
Ignore all the liars that call this a phase.
I love you more than there is water in the seas,
And all the stars in the sky, that shoot through
the breeze.
I love your smile, it puts me in a daze,
And your striking eyes hold captive my breath.
I long to be your gallant defender in the night,
Following you down the deepest of depth,
And back again, climbing the highest height,
Walking the fires of hell, to my death.
Only then shall our love be affirmed right?
NOT SORRY FOR THE GREAT DIVIDE
OVER FEELINGS THAT I HAD INSIDE
I HAVE MORE PEOPLE ON MY SIDE
TO NO AVAIL MY DEFENSES COULD NOT SUFFICE
I KNEW THAT I WOULD SOMEDAY PAY THE PRICE
SO I TOOK A CHANCE AND ROLLED THE DICE
AS FROM MY HOME I FOREVER DID LEAVE
WITH BETTER THINGS LEFT TO BE ACHIEVED
USING NO ACTIONS THAT WOULD BE GRIEVED
AS I MEET MY RIDE WAITING AT THE GATE
LEAVING HOME TO BE HAPPY WITH MY MATE
HOPING THEY’LL UNDERSTAND BEFORE IT’S LATE
THEN I LEFT AND SHE SAVED THE DAY
I AM HERE, AND I AM HERE TO STAY
IT’S MY LIFE AND I PLAY MY WAY
before I open my eyes to see if this has all
been a dream
I breathe her in and I feel the heat of her body
next to mine
I open my eyes assured that she’ll be there
and she is
She lays, still sleeping, her bare chest slowly rising
and falling, she is alive, she is real
The sunlight bounces off her body and she glows
in her nakedness
Her hair, a wild, beautiful mess that says
"I know what you did the night before"
I move closer to her, holding her body in my arms
eyes closed, she smiles and turns to face me
"good morning" she says in the voice of a only a lover
still tired from the night before
I kiss her soft lips, still not completely believing
this is real-but it is
For this is the morning after and she’s still here
with me
relax and breathe in the sanctuary
listen to the quiet wind
whispering secrets only we know
you and me are only her and she
let your worries wither
in the peace of the morning frost
the brown earth beneath us
the blue sky above
we sat under nature’s exotic tree
and made love until night emerged
the darkness a heavy fog
that rained the rain of sinner’s tears
we were sinners with no fears
loving as we would and did
for I am Amy and you are Eve
we took the apples from the tree
and ate them, gained the knowledge
to be free with each bite taken
into our mouths
banished for what we were
for being the lovers of she and her
to hell we may happily go
and are free to be
we were lovers you and me
for I was Amy and you were Eve
An honest truth
now I am alienated and alone
and I think about running away from home
just hold on a little longer
I can win, I know I’m stronger
stronger then they’ll ever see
they don’t pay attention, they don’t know me
that’s Ok I don’t want them to anyway
an honest truth she spoke one day
years it took to tell, it was hard to start
when she found the words she spoke from her heart
she told her parents she was gay
they said that that was not the way
this struck her hard, like a dart
after this ways they did part
one day she decided to run away
away from the place she once called home
to live as she is, to be real
off to the world, to be alone
wondering where she would get her next meal
she rang her parents on the phone
but no love for her did they feel
An honest truth she spoke one day
She told her parents she was gay
They said that this is not the way
So one day she ran away
Taking only words that she had wrote
Only her words, and a coat
She went to live in the underground
I can see, can you?
Your eyes are covered and mine are not,
you say you can see but you still have to remove your hands from your eyes.
I am open, are you?
My (closet) doors have been torn down and you remain locked.
You are not open until you believe what is said and don't deny it,
be truthful and you are truth. Try it.
that looked like no ordinary tree
it looked like an old person-wrinkled and small-
with hands like whips-that grab at your clothes
this tree was dead-yet so much alive-
it danced in the wind-and cackled like a witch
it reached out to me-it tried to keep me there-but I ran away-
I left and haven't seen that tree since-
it is gone now-it is no more
but it once was a beautiful young tree-then it aged-then it died-
it stood for years-but stands no more-
I hunt for a life not yet lived.
A life with meaning and adventure,
educated by experiences, not a school.
A self taught education, each day a new lesson,
learning more with every sunrise.
and undisturbed by man.
A place with tall birch trees and wild animals,
a place to build a small cabin.
I would live there like Thoreau, observing all,
while all observed me.
Living off the land, gathering my own food,
using only my hands.
only my books and an implement of writing.
I would use the stream as a sink,
and a fire for a furnace, that's all I need.
I would live in the cabin until satisfied that all was learned,
only then would I return to civilization.
Her beauty made a lovely light
Oh, to take her into the night
Her fire glowed so big and bright
It's very hard to touch her heart of gold
I never once believed what I was told
Together I wanted she and I to grow old
They told me a thousand times, I never heard
I never wanted to heed their word
But would it work, A Jock and a Nerd?
Things of a very different kind
Phoenix liked opposites, I was blind
I loved her although my words were hard to find
But when you turn another you pay the price
Is it worth it to roll the dice?
But she is Fire and I am Ice...
Heroine
Just a girl, a role model
whether she wants to be or not.
The little kids all look up to her
she's their hero, they want to be just like her.
If they really knew,
would they still want to be like her too?
Life is so much more than a label,
but what does a life in hiding mount to?
If they knew,
would she be any different to them?
If they didn't,
what difference would it make anyway?
Could she then speak openly about her girlfriend,
without worrying?
Would she still be just one of the girls,
or would she be the freak to be avoided?
She asks herself,
"does any of this really matter?"
Why does she want to tell them anyway...
Just a girl...
Just a secret...
If they knew would they still let her play?
A Lover's Prayer
Don't tell me you're sorry
and don't apologize.
I know you don't mean it
I can see it in your eyes.
You've become a vision
that only I can see.
But I haven't seen you for so long
that you're not even real to me.
I know you'll never show up
at first I didn't mind.
But I got sucked in this time
I looked but didn't find.
The phone rings a thousand times
but you never get the call.
I wonder if you miss me
do you, do you miss me at all.
I promised you the world
and I would keep it too.
You just have to pick up
show up, that's all you have to do.
I will be there for you
time and time again.
I'll be the one to break your fall
now and forever amen.
