i have been swallowed
but you can't help it
you heal the hurting
to breathe the blood in
when - did - this
there can be no answer found in...
this bloody token
it made the difference
i feel you shudder
and yet there's nothing
and i shudder to think of it
that sweet circle of pleasure & pain...
my only weakness
but i will lie down
you can try to find some relief in this
i will strain under the weight of this
and i will try and carry your weary pain
sin & debt
by your incessant lies
my lessened feelings
have now become your prize
you are your own disguise
only this cruelty
could ever get a rise.
and cleanse the hate inside
i find relief by
knowing a part of me has died.
from fuel of uterine
and find redemption
if only for the briefest span of time.
become so dear to me?
why - did - i
go there so willingly?
of lost virginity
your pried me open
took my naivity.
when you believed in me
but you raped the pleasure
borne of this sodomy.
your weight, it pulls me down
half-gentle fingers
wipe the sweat from off my brow.
left here to fix us now
we belong together
dead in love and hatred-bound.
as i know
i'm a part of it
is now exposed to you
i know exactly
what it is you plan to do.
and let the sins accrue
you know i love you
so make the burden live anew.
you can try and take me
to cleanse my soul.
i will break for you
to make you whole.
if only for the debt
and only for today.