I have tried…..
Oh, God, my love,
I have tried to go on,
To live, to go on,
To find meaning in life
Beyond you.

I have failed,
God knows, my life,
I have failed in that
Search for something,
For anything to make
Life important for me
Without you.

But in those still
Quiet moments,
Alone with myself
In this prison once filled
With the essence of you
I am alone.

And there is nothing,
Oh, God, nothing,
My love, to give hope
That life is worth living
Alone, in the quiet,
Without you.

10/23/98