SLAVE_JOURNAL_(PART_3)

• Waiting patiently for Mistress Control's e-mail to see if there were any more instructions to follow, which to my great surprise Mistress as given another stroking task. I have to get a dice and each morning throw the dice once and whatever number appears, that is the number of stroking sessions I have that day and that I must use the KY.Jelly every time, and I am not allowed to touch my cock any other time. Mistress does that mean when I go for a piss, do I have to sit down like a women, or also what about getting washed. Also whatever number appears, that is the number of clothes pins I have to use, one on each nipple and the rest on my balls while I am stroking. My Mistress also told me to go to the adult chat rooms in Yahoo Chat rooms and spend a little time in the dungeon, watching and noting the etiquette between doms and subs. Mistress I have thrown the dice and I do not know if I am lucky or unlucky but it came out as two, so here goes. It is now 9-30 am stripped naked got down on my knees applied the jelly, and then I applied the clothes pins, Mistress said on my nipples I had to apply the clothes pins on just the bud of my nipple, and not any of the flesh, and then I started stroking, my cock was already standing so it did not take much time to get into the swing of things. Now no what Mistress means by just putting them on the nipple end, the pain is so severe. While I am stroking I am thinking of you all the time Mistress, you putting these clothes pins on me and giving them a squeeze every now and then, making me yell with the pain, but thanking you in the same breath. It only took me a couple of minutes before I stopped stroking, or else cum and displease you, but the thought of my punishment if I did soon quelled that. A small amount of precum to lick off my fingers. Nipples hurting badly while taking the clothespins off, definitely a lucky throw this two, only one more to go, hope I do not throw a six tomorrow. Went up to my computer room at 2-30pm, stripped off got down on my knees and applied the jelly, put the clothespins on my nipples, not sore at this moment but soon will be. Started stroking with nipples in pain, but not enough to still think of you Mistress, my how I would love you to stand in front of me making me twist those clothespins on my aching nipples, then allow me to take them off only to make me put them back on again. Mistress I am going to have to stop or I will shoot my load and there is only one minute gone. Mistress how you excite me, could you please not give me a little description of what you look like, so I can fantasise more about you. My nipples are very painful, but they hurt even more when I remove the clothespins. No precum to lick off my fingers this time, please Mistress forgive me for this.
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• Opened my e-mail today to see what Mistress had to say, always excited when I see that there is a letter. Mistress said that I am not allowed to touch my cock at any time only when the dice allows me to. Mistress said that I have to sit down and pee and hold my cock down with one finger on a sheet of paper, also when I wash my cock, to wash it with a flannel, and make sure that I do not get aroused. Also my Mistress says that I have to stop rubbing myself against the bedclothes or other objects. The only stimulation that I am allowed is with the K.Y.Jelly on the occasions indicated on the dice. Thrown the dice this morning and have come up with number one, wish it had been number three or four, but one, how am I going to get through the day only touching my cock one stroking session and no more. Kept my stroking session back until the middle of the day, did not want to do it straight away, or that would be that. Walking around most of the day with a hard on, especially when I was at the swimming pool, spent most of my time in the cold plunge pool trying to cool off. It is so hard not to touch your cock at all, with only been allowed on your stroking session. I know what the women feel like now when they go for a pee, I have to take my trousers and pants down, and I look so stupid sitting there holding a piece of paper down on top of my cock with one finger, pleased nobody can see me. Mistress I do not think that I will be able to hold out this week, my cock is aching so much and it is only Tuesday. Decided to start my stroking session at 3-30pm, which is roughly the middle of the day, and so desperate to touch my cock that I thought this is the ideal time to do it. Stripped off, got down on my knees, applied the jelly, and I had only one clothespin to use so put it on my right nipple. The clothespin was causing me some real discomfort, and making my nipple painful, so I started to stroke very fast to try and get myself on the edge, and thinking Mistress where do you get all these tasks from, you must be a very professional Mistress to know how to cause excitement and pain at the same time, and then disappointment at the end. After two minutes I had to stop stroking with just a little precum, so I licked it all up.Mistress Control, this is a very hard task, you must know that it is force of habit for a man to play, squeeze or play with his cock and it takes a while to kick any habit, and you have made me kick this habit in one day, my hand has gone down automatically to touch it, but I have had to pull my hand away at the last minute, when I realised what was happening, it is so frustrating. Would like to throw a four tomorrow, I know it is painful on my nipples, but will have to sacrifice that, for the thrill of stroking my cock while thinking of you Mistress.
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• Went to open Mistress Control's e-mail Wednesday 30th May, and there was not one there. Mistress what have I done wrong, my heart is so heavy, for the need of your reply. Could not believe that there was no letter, I hope I have not done anything wrong to my Mistress for her to just drop me. I know Mistresses have to take days off just the same as other people; so I hope this is what you have done Mistress. I am so devastated I just will not know what to do, if you do not answer me. Maybe she has not received Tuesday's journal, but I definitely sent it so it can not be that, I will send my journal in for Wednesday and see if Mistress answers it in the morning, Please, please, Mistress answer it for me.Threw my dice this morning and got a three, which I think will be ok for me. Also woke up with an erection and just had to lie there not being able to touch it by hand or press it against the bedclothes, went down to do my toilet duties and again was not allowed to touch, With my cock having an erection it took some shoving down with one finger on a piece of paper, and then I had to wait for the erection to subside before I could pee.Started my stroking session at 9-00am, stripped off got down on my knees begging Mistress to e-mail me, and then I put my jelly on my cock and with having to do it three times, put a clothespin on each nipple and one on my balls, first at my balls were hurting just as bad as my nipples, I do not know what will happen if I throw a five or six. My heart is so sad that, when I am stroking all I can feel is the pain on my nipples and balls, every stroke I do I am making the clothespin bob around on my balls which is not helping any. Mistress you are the only one that has given me happiness, please do not take it away from me. After four minutes which is a long time with clothespins on your nipples and balls, the pain is the last thing on my mind at the moment, I would leave them on a lot longer if Mistress asked just to get back into her favour if I have done some thing wrong. I had to stop stroking, and no precum appeared, writing this journal so miserably, all I can think of is begging Mistress to write to me. Took off my clothespins from my nipples and balls. My second stroking session I again started at 11-30am, by stripping naked getting down on my knees to beg Mistress to send me more instructions for me to carry out, applied my jelly and applied my clothespins to my nipples and balls, nipples still sore from the last session, balls not so bad, but clothes pin still bobbing around as I hit my balls with each stroke. This time Mistress I was thinking of you through all my pain, and wondering if you had not e-mailed me on purpose so I would feel heavy hearted, and you could sit there laughing at me, knowing that this would get me closer to you. After three minutes my nipples were starting to numb up a bit, and I was pleased that I had to stop myself from cumming. A little precum very watery but still I licked it clean off my fingers. Getting very used to the taste now. Removed clothespins from my nipples and balls, nipples hurting more now with the clothespins removed, balls o-k.Waited till 2-30 pm before I started my third stroking, again stripped off and got down on my knees begging Mistress Control to write to me, applied the jelly to my cock applied the clothespins to my nipples and balls, nipples still sore from the last session, and in very severe pain now, balls ok. Mistress knows what she is doing, and this is really hurting, but still I must go ahead and do what I must do, if I want to please Mistress, I can not think about anything at the moment and the pain is so severe, that just by stroking my cock for one minute, I had to make myself stop or I would have cum. No precum to lick up this time.Mistress Control please e-mail me, in the last three weeks I have humiliated myself, punished myself and teased myself through your instructions and tasks and I am going to be lost without them. For two days now I have not touched my cock, I could just look at it sadly, wondering when you are going to give me permission to touch it. Please keep these tasks going. Mistress I have not wrote this journal with the enthusiasm I normally have, through been worried about you, maybe you will detect this, but I am sorry I can do nothing about it.
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• Mistress Control first of all I a am sorry that I did not ask about your health, it was very foolish of me and I will not let it happen again, I deserve to be punished. When I opened my e-mail account this morning Thursday 31st May and saw an e-mail from Mistress, I was very relieved and very happy. Mistress said she was pleased that I had missed her but that I should of shown some concern for her, instead of whining about myself, again Mistress I am sorry. My cock is standing on end a lot of my time do not know how to get it down, not allowed to touch my cock unless I am doing my stroking task. Mistress this is causing me a lot of distress and embarrassment, and my cock is so excited, that sometimes I have to go into the bathroom and pour a jug of cold water over it to take the sting out of it. Please Mistress let me touch my cock and rub it up against objects, it is causing me so much frustration. I told Mistress that I had four hours free time on Friday and could she please give me a task for that time so I could worship her. Mistress told me that I had to strip naked and stay naked all through the task. Lie in the bath facing up, and stroke myself to the edge without any lubricant, then take one shoelace and wrap it round my scrotum tightly trapping my balls and tie it off, wrap the other lace around the base of my cock and tie it off. Stroke right to the edge, takes the ruler and administers 10 hard smacks on my cock and 2 on my balls-and after each stroke say
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• And there the journal ceases. This slave was not prepared to accept My decision that his nipple torment should continue so is no longer undergoing training from Me. The contrast between his frequent promises to obey and his actual performance is, of course, regrettably common. However, he kept an exemplary journal until his weakness cost him the honour of serving Me. Slaves take note
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