And there’s hardly any air
And there’s hardly any room
And there’s no more yearning
And that’s all I have left
I must get you
I have to go
And yet – I am only looking for you
The life I never found
Life – my refuge in despair
All I did was to curse you
In order later and much deeper still
To attempt just to kiss
You – the light of my soul
And now to you –
My sick brain
Preserved in the liquid of time
I gave you blood from my heart
Fed you with the power of senses
I let you have authority over much
Even gave you authority over my actions
I gave you love – my trust
My friend – you hurt me
And yet – it is not over
I still can hear your breathing
And I can still see the trembling of your hands
Memories begin to come alive
Begin once again to torture me
And quietly win my heart
My heart – you trustful pain
You kept me alive
And beat me with more torture
And I still don’t understand
No – it’s not over yet
I still can see the brightness in your eyes
The twitching of your body
Killing you was hard though
Yes – the killing was hard
Your name today sounds like an empty book
Like a promise never fulfilled
Killing you was hard
Yes – the killing was hard
For a short time you were the light
And you were my gateway to the world
Thus there you lie now in your liquid
Slowly dying from within me
