My Writings

These are the poems I wrote. I haven't put all of them in here, i don't really want to either. If you like to read poetry, and you know me, tell me what you think. For you others, just have fun reading them.

The Last Night and Forever

Left me to myself
Left me here to die
My hate burns deep
Not as deep as pain
It has flowed to the marrow
Killing me slowly

Since you went away
Left me here to die
I say goodbye to you
You say nothing back
I try to hurt you but
I end up hurting myself

Seeing you everywhere
Reminded of everything
I want to eas the pain
I will stand it though

Can I get rid of your image
Make myself blind
Take a knife and then
No.. I'm not a coward

You have left me here to die
You has said to me goodbye
Will I release you from my mind
Will I ever say goodbye to you

Battle

You are feeling alone
You don't think you are loved anymore
You think no one cares
You don't know what your life is for

You might not see it
That someone in front of you
Won't let you down
Won't give up on you

You talk nonsense
You say you wanna die
You say there's no reason to live
You don't know how much you lie

She is your reason to live
She will be there through thick and thin
She loves you with all of her heart
She believes she can help you win

You might not see it
I'm the one in front of you
I won't let you down
I won't give up on you
I am a reason to live
I'll be here through thick and thin
I love you with all of my heart
I know I can help you win

Becasue you're the reason I live

Miss You

I feel like you're slipping away
Further than where you left me before
I can't seem to find the real you
The you that used to be happy
Before she ripped your heart out

Wishing this world would go away
Just us to stay
The only two
Me holding you
You need comforting I can see
I will do everything to make that be

I can't do much
But what I do
Is everything I can
To make you happy again
Before she ripped your heart out

Thinking of you day and night
Trying to find a way to make it right
Pulling you back from where you're slipping to
Sometimes I think you have no clue
How much I worry
How much I love you
How much I miss you
And I miss you...
And I miss you...
And I miss you

Why

Why is the world
Like it is today
What happened
To make easiness go away
What made us ignorant
To true life
Why didn't that knowledge stay
Only worrying about natural survival
That's what we used to be
Money came and greed took over
Natural Survival is no longer a key
Our lives were ruined
And the lives of our children
Will it ever be waht it was before
Before greed became our weak sore
Material possessions
Didn't matter before
Now they are a measure
Of what class you are for
Classified like the animals
Though that fact we tend to ignore

Shutters

Looking through the eyes
The windows to the soul
The soul where all secrets are kept
Min are locked away, the shutters closed
Though they open, few people notice
Fewer, even, try to look
They don't see much
The shutters close
And everything again grows dark
In my soul

Now

Once when I was younger
Thinking life is eternal
I met you and my views changed
You opened my eyes to more of the world
How could you since you're so far away

I know you but I don't
I've never truly met you
Though I feel as if I've know you my whole life
How could I since we met only three years ago
So lonely you seemed back then

Maybe one day I will see you
Let it be sooner than later
I need to see you before I die
Die of the patience I have
The patience that is eroding with every day

Please come to me
Just hearing you sin't enough anymore
That phone plays tricks on my heart
Promises it can't give me or keep
The promise to see you, touch you
Your face, your body, all of you

Doves

Thinking I lost you
I let you go
You needed your space
But I know now
You were afraid
Something would go wrong

I let you go
Without hope of a return
Crying as if I've lost part of me
I might have, but one lonely day
You came back to me
Just like a dove I could have set free

Doves we both are
Flying back to eachother
Needing one another
Trying to find a right
In our angry torn lives
Doves we are
For we are love

Night Sky

Looking up I see
Stars in the sky
Wishing you could
Be here to witness
The beauty with me
Though there's another (beauty)
We can witness together

In the night
Our love fills the sky
The heavens above know
How we both feel
For one another
As we sit there
And listen to eachother
In the night

Still looking up
I see a bright moon
A red moon
Though very beautiful
And I think again
Of our own beauty
That we witness together

In the night
On a full moon day
The moon shines
Oh how it shines for us
And our own beauty then
Shines brighter than
The beauty of the moon's
In the night

Looking away from
That beautiful night sky
Headlights are coming
Down the road
My heart skips like always
Thinking maybe this time
It will be you

In the night
I get lonely for you
Waiting till the next time
When I hear your voice
The voice that haunts
But soothes in my dreams
The voice I love to hear
In the night

Untitled #2

I'm gonna cry myself to sleep
I might find peace in dreams
As I sit and write
Keeping my hiccupping cries
As soft as I can
These tears stream down my face
Why you ask?
Because you made me so sad
Like you didn't want me around
I don't want you slipping
Away from me
Stared at your picture
What did I do wrong?
I feel so stupid
Childish even
I'm crying over someone
I've never met before
But I love this someone
Very special to me
Sometimes i question your love
Had to take that picture
Turn it face down
Before I went over the edge
You mean so much
Saying slight things I do
Can hurt you
Well that goes too
For me from you
I'm here for you but
Are you here for me?
Can I count on you to be
Or do you want me
To kill feelings I have for you
If so why don't you
Come up here and
Stab me in the heart
I'd give anything to
Be able to keep loving you
But if you don't want it
Tell me now
I'll stop myself
From everything
Yes even living
Because I'm not complete
Without you by my side
I don't want a life
That doesn't include you
You are the reason I live
You could also be the reason
... I die
Does your love for me
Grow every day
As mine does for you?
Or are you as empty
As the way you sometimes speak to me
I want to know so
I will know to live for you
Or... die because of you
Just remember those three words from me
I
Love
You

Pain Never Again

Never this much pain
Has shot thorugh my heart
I can't decided for you
Just remember how much
I want and need you
I won't let anyone else in
I can't have pain three times
I will never love again
How can I
If i die?
I might just do that now
Will that help you decide
It should cuz I wouldn't
Be around for you to love
You wouldn't have to decide then
My mind running in circles
God what did I do?
How come I feel you
So distant from me now
I can't stand it
Please don't leave me
I can't stand this
Pain in my heart
If you leave
I will have to deal with it forever
I won't forget you
So I won't love again
Lonely and sad I'll be
All my life before I love again
I don't wanna be ripped
For the third time
I won't let it happen
Everything reminds me of you
I would never be able
To get rid of your image
I wouldn't want to live
Not being able to be with you

(This poem has no title and was written by someone very dear to me. I hope one day this won't happen)

As I sit in my room in waiting
I tune my ears in
To what I can hear outside
of my door, that is locked so tightly.

I hear loud painful screams
From the woman
who has always sworn
To protect our very beings.

I hear objects being broken
I hear objects being thrown
I hear more swearing and yelling
Than I have ever heard before.

As I lie in wait
I glance down at my side
A 10 year-old boy stands there
More scared than ever before.

We are silent, we are scared
Our eyes stay on the closed door
Hardly ever leaving it
We lie in wait.

I glance down at my wrist
And my other scars
From that raging storm
that rages its wrath beyond the door.

My mission now
Should I choose to accept it
is to once again, try and fight him
To let all of the wounds fall onto me,

And not the little boy next to me.