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Chpt 28 -- Buffy
Confinement...
"Damn it
Spike, you're not going out without me and that’s final."
"Damn it
slayer, you're not going out!"
We've been arguing
for about forty minutes now.
I recon by my
calculations that if I keep this up for another six hours and twenty minutes he
physically won't be able to go out.
In case you
haven't guessed by now dear reader of my thoughts; The Ho Is Back.
We've known for
about a week now.
And every night we
have this same argument.
I know I'm probably
acting unreasonable...
No, actually he's acting unreasonably!
I'm pregnant for
fucks sake and I want my baby to grow up knowing its father.
"So do I
love, that’s why I have to take care of her now."
Ooops.
Apparently I said
that last bit out loud.
"No! We do it
together. You promised me you'd never leave me."
My voice starts to
crack.
I can feel tears
welling up in my eyes.
I'm not even doing
it for effect.
"I'm not
leaving you, Buffy!"
There are some things
a woman just knows.
And I know that if
he leaves me tonight.
He won't come
home.
"Please,
Spike...it’s waited a week...it can wait a little longer."
I can't believe I
just said that.
It goes against
everything that makes me a slayer.
But there are
stronger forces at work here,
Stronger than any
God, or powers that be.
Love.
Love for my mate,
And love for my
baby.
"I nearly died
the last time...please, just stay with me."
I'm really sobbing
now.
I can't help it.
I just don't want
him to go.
He sighs.
He's caving in.
"Okay, pet.
It can wait."
Good.
I curl up into his
arms.
"But soon,
love...soon, we have to deal with it soon. We can't have another..."
His voice is
breaking now.
"I know
baby."
I sniff and turn
my head so that I can look at him.
My lips seek his.
Seeking his touch.
His love.
His reassurance.
And he gives it
willingly.
I love him so
much.
So much it hurts
to be apart from him.
Sometimes, I can't
believe how much.
It’s like there is
a part of me missing.
I've never felt
this way about anyone before.
Never.
Before Dru came
back into our lives I used to catch myself staring at him.
Almost as if I
could eat him up.
I know he loves
me.
And that he
wouldn't leave me...
Of his own free
will.
That’s all I'm
worried about.
What kind of power
she has over him.
Am I enough for
you?
"I'll always
love you Buffy...forever."