Letter and Reply 28
Friday, December 5th and Saturday, December 6th, 2003
Letter and Reply 28
Delivered at 1:23 pm, Friday, December 5th.
Billy-mine,
How are you today? I’m actually a bit anxious myself. I need to ask you something, but I think I’ll create a bit of suspense and save it until the end.
You’re not a source of stress for me at all. Especially since you give such wonderful massages... (Thank you). Honestly, I’m a stress for myself. I worry myself about things that really shouldn’t make me so nervous. But they do. I’m just...having one of those times.
Billy, you have no idea how much your assurances mean to me. The way that you said that you know me; it’s like I can just feel it. Though I still think you could know me better. I really, really hope Christmas Eve will turn out. I know you will be perfect, but who will I be?
I can’t wait for a winter vacation, either, as you can probably tell. I’m being quite unlike myself lately. It just started up out of no where. Like bitter irony...or something.
But, hey, I hope to get at least four or five days off coming up. I know I’ll be having Christmas off for sure. More time to spend with you after Christmas Eve comes. I think I’ll need that sleep. I’ll be sure to stay awake for most of the time, though, so I can spend every second of it with you.
Sweetheart, I can’t even picture what I was like before I knew you. I just have so many more feelings now. And they’re directed in so many ways. I can’t even believe that, at one point in my life, I didn’t even think that you were in this world. What a miserable place that must have been. But I can’t remember it. All I know is that it’s heaven now.
At least, it’s mostly heaven, but I still have one thing left to do... I’ll warn you, this is kind of strange. I haven’t planned any of this out. All I know is that...I can’t wait to see you any longer. It’s just too much; I need you all of the time, sometimes I think I won’t even be able to step out of bed in the mornings without losing my mind. Every day is just another day without you near me. And I want you near me. I want you right here next to me, and I can’t wait for that. My whole world is just too desperate for you. So, my feelings being stated, I was wondering if you’d like to...possibly meet me somewhere? I mean, right away? At the Alibi? Tomorrow? At about 7-ish? I know this is really abrupt, and I’m so scared; but I promise I’ll be there, and I promise we’ll talk and I just want to see you so much, please say yes. Hell, I’m so nervous. Say yes.
I told myself I wouldn’t go onto a tangent now, so I’ll have to end this one here. Remember I care about you more than anyone. I miss you every second; I need to have you. I want to make you so happy.
Yours Always,
MS
Delivered at 2:34 pm, Saturday, December 6th
MS -
Of course I'll come. As if 'no' was even an option.
And now I had best leave the rest of my words for you in person.
Love,
Billy
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