The End
Sunday, December 14th, 2003
The End
A Billy Entry
Friday night was disastrous. Out of everything that could have happened, the worst did.
Sometimes I even surprise myself with how stupid I can be. I just jumped into this, making wild assumptions based upon nothing but my own desire for them to be true. But I was wrong. Open mouth, insert foot. Not only is Leon no longer a potential lover, I can hardly believe he would still want to be my friend.
But that's not even the main source of my problems. I've been led astray, by both MS and myself. I fell in love with someone who never really existed and was so eager to put a face on him that I just closed my eyes and picked randomly. And hurt myself in the process. Is it so easy to be misled? How could I ever be sure who it was I had fallen for? I'd like to believe that MS is out there, as he exists on paper, but a person like that is too good to be true. I'd fall in love with a character. And I can't take that chance again.
This has got to end. As much as it will break my heart, I have to end it. It's better for both of us this way.
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