A Bit of Worrying
Monday, November 3rd, 2003
A Bit of Worrying
A Billy Entry
On occasion, I try to remember what life was like a few months ago. Before things got complicated.
But really, why would I want to?
I've got two really important men in my life right now, and while I feel like one of them I'm only getting closer to, the other I feel is slipping away. Dom hasn't said anything about leaving as of late, but I've got to assume it's still going to happen. I just chose not to think about it too often.
As for MS, well, nothing can describe MS. I feel closer to him than I've felt to anyone in a very long time. But every day I long for him more and more, and yet he won't reveal himself. I don't know what it is that's holding him back. He knows how I feel about him. I know how he feels about me.
Still, I'm scared as well.
I've been holed up in my house all weekend, and getting out today was odd and slightly unpleasant. Ah, the troubles of the working world. I just wanted to go back home, with just Dom and my letters for company.
Maybe I'll take some sick days this week and relax. Maybe I just need a bit of a break.
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