Untitled01-07-04Shackled at the anklesAnchored with despairLocked up in a padded roomThat isn’t really thereSmothered with a blanketOf pure insanityHung by a noose of liesShame you couldn’t seeYou forged the shacklesWith your own two handsYou cast you the anchorSo she couldn’t standTrapped her in a roomOf hopeless fantasiesMade each stitch yourselfChoked her till she couldn’t breathUntitled01-08-04Sitting in the darknessBlind folded and gaggedWalking the tight ropeTrusting it won’t sagBe it faith in GodBe it faith in manIt all works out the sameIt’s never in your handShip Wrecked in Misery01-25-04Raped, bloodyLeft beaten and brokenHeart ripped from my chestAnd saved like a tokenA trophy; A ribbonLike some sick fuck’s prizeThat he keeps in his dresserTo remember me byChoke on the bloodThat is only my ownTongue torn from my mouthLips forever sewnHe took all he wantedHe took all I hadTook my esteem, my dignityLeft me crippled real badCan’t run, can’t walkCrawl through bloody puddlesCan’t scream, can’t breathMemories misconstrued and muddledReaching, tearing, clawingJust can’t hold onIn the blink of a bruised eyeEverything’s goneAll that I’ve trustedAll that I’ve knownHe pulled from beneath meFrom my feet I’ve been thrownI gave all I hadBut it’s never enoughThey always want moreThey always play roughCan’t sail far in a shipWith your mast snapped in twoCan’t swim farBeat black and blueThere’s a gash in the hullIn the cold waters, sinking fastThe last lifeboat he tookNo way can I lastTears lost in oceanCries you don’t hearSafe from the wreckageSo far from nearCold freezes the bloodHeart does weakenBody numbsFinal breath takenLungs fill with waterSurface not foundShip wrecked in miseryAlone I drownHugs and Kisses02-03-04Plucked a rose from a gardenSang a song of time since pastSat and chiseled ice sculpturesOf memories meant to lastLay your head upon my breastClose your eyes and drift awayMay the current be your guideTake you back to better daysWhere love does blossomIn the most unlikely heartAnd if tend to with careNothing can ever tear it apartA friendship made strongerThe tighter your gripBut never take it for grantedDon’t let it slipFor a friendship forgottenIs Cupid’s arrow that missesAnd it’s only you who I wishTo smother in hugs and kissesAnother Drink to You02-10-04Feelings, emotionsFlowing like a riverCrashing against rocksReshaping the landDark storm cloudsDrench the skyTears of frustrationRun fast to quivering lipsQuestions and doubtsPlague every crevice of the mindFear fills the soulAs wine fills the glassAnother late nightTo play with her demonsAnother Juliet02-19-04It’s time to play the game you taughtIt’s time to show all that I gotTo raise my fist, put up a fightWe could do this shit straight through the nightNo more smiles or friendly hugsBut point blank to your chest, twenty slugsI don’t forgive, I won’t forgetThe tables turn, the bars been setI lost before, now it’s your turnTo see exactly all that I’ve learnedTo feel the pain of the twisting knifeThe doubt and uncertainty sucking away your lifeI was just another girlAnother chapter in your storyI’m a character on paperYou just couldn’t let beDid you forget I’m a personI can cry tooI feel painThere’s more than just youBut I guess you wouldn’t noticeI suppose you forgetAll I was to youWas another JulietAnd if that torment just isn’t enoughWe’ll see how you like it when I play roughI won’t be another victim of suave RomeoWho locked up my heart and just won’t let goI break free of restraints holding backStand tall, head held high, I fight backI’m not weak, I’ve not lost, and I won’t let you winThis fight isn’t over till you throw the towel inSick of you thinking I’ll roll right overThat I’ll take what I get and accept that it’s overYou walk all over me, kick me when I’m downAnd expect me to walk away without a single soundI was just another girlAnother chapter in your storyI’m a character on paperYou just couldn’t let beDid you forget I’m a personI can cry tooI feel painThere’s more than just youBut I guess you wouldn’t noticeI suppose you forgetAll I was to youWas another JulietBut I have a surprise for you, dumb fuckI’m calling the shots now, and you’re shit out of luckToo bad you didn’t turn away when you had the chanceNow it’s I who gets the last danceI pick the music, and I choose the stepsThey’re pooling their money, and making their betsBut we both know how this story goesThe tragic ending, everyone knowsOnly this time I won’t be put to shameOnly this time when they remember my nameI’ll no longer be the nice girl who’d never hurt a flyBut the only bitch to ever make dear Romeo cryI was just another girlAnother chapter in your storyBut I broke free the chainsCrushing your realityI’m more than a characterI cry tooI feel painI’m better than youI will make you seeI won’t let you forgetNever again will I beJust another JulietCan’t Forget02-22-04I yearn to forgetThat which I rememberOf a brilliant new loveBorn in cold DecemberA time, a placeThat never should have beenWhere feelings did blossomOh, how I wished it wouldn’t endThe touch of your bodyUpon my cold skinThe tingling sensationThe way I would always give inNow I sit in darknessOh, why can’t I love you less?Tortured by detailsI want so to cast my sailsTo float away so very farTo lose myself under the starsForget your face, forget your nameBut in the end it’s all the sameThe sound of your laughI loved the way you’d make me smileIf only I could erase it allMy memory wouldn’t be on trialBlackmail, assault, attempted murderDefendant stands; the juries inTried, convicted and found guiltyMesmerized by the curves of your bodyThat sparkle in your eyes, the smell of your cologneTake it back! Free my soul!Take it back! Let me go!I sit in darknessWishing to love you lessMemory tortures me with detailsJust let me cast my sailsI want to float away so farTo lose myself under the starsForget your face, forget your nameBut in the end it’s all the sameI remember watching you drive awayStanding, abandoned in the middle of the streetAs you grew smaller the further you gotJust as fresh as the day you swept me off my feetImprisoned by these memoriesI claw these walls that hold me inSuffocating, they’re closing in on meWith your face plastered all over themI just can’t fight this any moreThrow up my hands, I give up!Close my eyes, let your memories consume meAnd though I’ve fallen, they lift me upI sit in darknessNo way could I ever love you lessI remember every detailIt’s now time to set sailAnd drift down memory lane, so farReminisce under all the starsNever to forget your face, never to forget your nameIn the end, all remains the same