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November 1, 2001 I just had another DE. Provoked from the stress of workload. I have two assignments, both huge ones due in tomorrow and monad. On top of that I have to study for hospitality, maths and science exams. Then I have heaps of things I want to do, my family wants to do… I cant handle all the stress. Today for the first time my DE wasn’t anything to do with Daniel. For once, I worried about myself. I just have so much stress and pressure put on me, then someone else is kinda stressed too, they get all this sympathy its just that I feel totally invisible, like no-one even sees me. I hate that so much. You know I wouldn’t be surprised if no-one even noticed if I killed myself… maybe Bettina, maybe Rachael, Maybe Laila…but sometimes I even doubt that. I need help. Rebecca 01/11/01