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November 4, 2001 Nobody knows how much it would mean to me to be able to hold Daniel in my arms, my depression and anger and tears would dissolve, happiness would shine through once again, the smile would appear on my face again, my mind would be free from darkness, my heart would thump again, my world would be lit and the box would be broken from around me. Life would move on, and I would be moving with it again. Tears may flow, but these ones are different. These tears make me happy, make me feel alive and make me realise there definitely is a wonderful reason to live. But I will never get to hold Daniel in my arms for a single minute, not a single second or even a moment, so I will wait in my box until destiny decides what will happen to me now.