The sun will never rise for me or again on his face 

today was another one of those decieving days
as i look out my window, the sun rises and birds chirp
never to be repeated, this day brings those i see outside joy
but i must feel despair
after everything we'd done together, you were still all alone.  
i told you if you needed anything to call me
why didnt you call me?
i just want to shout from the rooftops, yell from the mountains
"how can all of you be so happy
when the only person i ever loved is dead?"
i feel guilty in the small moments of happiness that i seldom feel
i soon forget about that happiness
when i see your face in my mind
think about you next to me with your arm around my shoulders
or talking to me on the phone for hours about trivial things that upset me
i dont even want to think about it anymore
Every New Day brings a new torment
a chance to feel new pain and guilt
the only comforts i find are in sleep and the embrace of someone
i do not know
i cant go on.  i have to for your memory
if i dont continue, then maybe i can live with you again
but i will go on
the only thing cheering me up is hoping ill see you when i die
if i knew i wouldnt, life wouldnt be worth living
but death would only bring me eternal suffering
how could a boy so young, with so many friends, feel so alone?
somewhere around 300 people came to your funeral, but no one,
not even me, was there when you truly needed it.