Are you ready?
This place inside my mind, a place I like to hide, You don't know the chances, what if I should die? A place inside my brain, another kind of pain, You don't know the chances, I'm so blind, blind, blind.
Another place I'll find, escape to pain inside, You don't know the chances, what if I should die? A place inside my brain, another kind of pain, You don't know the chances, I'm so blind, blind, blind.
Deeper and deeper and deeper is all i'm turning To living a life that seems to be, a lost reality That i can never find. a way to reach my inner self. I stay alone.
How deep can I go in the ground that I lay? If I don't find a way to sleep in the grave I crowd my mind It 's time I looked to see which was realized I can see, I can see I'm going blind.
I'm blind.
There you are, alone, with no hope of ever having, Something to be proud of, something earned without begging.
Yes, I know you're a person, a person close to me. Who do think you are? What more do you want from me.
Ball Tongue Why are you at home, buried in your self-pity? Why do you insist on making a mockery out of me? Yes, I know you're the person, the person that took time with me.
I loved you. Why do I feel so helpless? Why's it you? Ripping my insides each time I'm with you. Why, oh why do I cry? Why do I really need to?
Why?
Why?
Why?
Why?
Fuck you bitch!
Need to, need to, need to...
Fuck... fuck... fuck... fuck...
I hate you. Why are you taken? I loved you.
Why do I feel so helpless? Does it give you the right to expect your life revolves around me?
Ball Tongue
You were my brother... (Where does our friendship end?)
You were my brother... (Where does our friendship end?)
You were my brother... (Where does our friendship end?)
You were my brother... (I'm not gonna give in)
You were my brother... (Where does our friendship end?)
You were my brother... (Where does our friendship end?)
You were my brother... (Where does our friendship end?)
You were my brother... (I'm not gonna give in) How can you fucking doubt me? But, not again... 8X
Ball Tongue
You're a Phyco-fuck
Ball Tongue
You're a DYKE
I, I'm confused. I hate myself for wanting To give in to needing your help. Skin cold with fear, feel it when we touch. Outside, I know you but, inside, I'm fucked. Can you see in me? Skin cold from touch. Each day confronted with what I have done. You pull me closer, I push you away. You tell me it's okay, I can't help but feel the pain. I hate you.
Anger inside, comes within my body. Why do you hate me? What have I done? You tried to hit me Scream at me, and if you like, Throw your hate at me, with all your might. Hit me because I'm strange, hit me. Tell me I'm a pussy and you're harder than me. What's with you boy? Think hard... A tattooed body to hide who you are. Scared to be honest, be yourself. A cowardly man.
I don't run round, trying to be what's not within me. Look into my eyes, I am free. You're just a wanna-be. Scream at me, and if you like, Throw your hate at me, with all your might. Hit me because I'm strange, hit me. Tell me I'm a pussy and you're harder than me. What's with you boy? Think hard... A tattooed body to hide who you are. Scared to be honest, be yourself. A cowardly man...to come out. Hit me clown because im not for you to know. Now, hit me clown.
Clown you ain't shit, turn around watch your face bleed. Clown you ain't shit, turn around get your face split. Hell you ain't shit, turn around watch your face bleed. Hell you ain't shit, turn around get your face split. Turn at me, and if you like, Throw your hate at me, with all your might. Hit me because I'm strange, hit me. Tell me I'm a pussy and you're harder than me. What's with you boy? Think hard... A tattooed body to hide who you are. Scared to be honest, be yourself. A cowardly man.
Just a-fuckin' little...
I hide, but only to defy you. Take away the only life inside you. I'll see your face through everyone, inside I'm just begun. You think I'm out to scare you? I'm only out to prepare you. For when you stop and turn around - your body's going down. You're gonna waste your time. Your life will soon be mine. You're definitely one of a kind. You're suffering because of me. It's divine. Tell me, why you never liked me? Tell me, once that you'll fight me Bold, and you wait for the perfect time, to take what's rightfully mine. You pave the dumb, that don't bother me. You say your dumb that to defy me. You weigh your dumb on anyone. Oh well.... You're gonna waste your time. Your life will soon be mine. You're definitely one of a kind. You're suffering because of me. It's divine. Fuck you! I'm fed up with you. I'm not as good as you? Fuck no, I'm better than you. You're gonna waste your time. Your life will soon be mine. You're definitely one of a kind. You're suffering because of me. It's divine. Did you really think you'd beat me at my own game? You tried, you see what you got, me ripping at your brain.
Here I am. Different in this normal world. Why do you tease me, make me feel absurd? Walking stereotypes, feeding their heads. I am ugly, please just go away.
I can see inside you fine. This blessing in disguise. Why do you treat me this way? Make the hate stay? I sound like I can never see no escape, all the laughing, all the pain.
If you were around me, what would you do? Nothing probably, you'd just go away. I can see inside you fine. This blessing in disguise. Why do you treat me this way? Make the hate stay?
Faget.
Here I am. Different in this normal world. Why do you tease me, make me feel absurd? Walking stereotypes, feeding their heads. I am ugly, please just go away.
I can see inside you fine. This blessing in disguise. Why do you treat me this way? Make the hate stay?
Faget.
Pussy.
I'm just a pretty boy, whatever you call it, You wouldn't know a real man if you saw it. It keeps going on, day after day, son. You fake.
You don't want none. I'm sick and tired of people treating me this way everyday Who gives a fuck, right? Now I got something to say To all the people that think I'm strange, That I should be out of here, locked up in a cage. You don't know what the hell I fuck now anyway. You got this pretty boy feelin' like I'm enslaved To a world that never appreciated shit You can suck my dick and fucking like it!
Hear my gun but he has a body mighty any say.
Hear my gun but he has a body mighty anyway.
Hear my gun but he has a body mighty going to say.
Hear my gun but he has a body mighty anyway.
Hear my gun but he has a body mighty any say.
Hear my gun but he has a body mighty going to waste.
Hear my gun but he has a body mighty going to say.
Hear my gun but he has a body mighty anyway...
I'm just a pretty boy - I'm not supposed to fuck a girl.
I'm just a pretty boy - Living in this fucked up world.
All my life, who am I?
All my life
I'm just a faget.
I'm a faget.
I'm not a faget. (Or am I?)
You motherfuckin' queers.
Pocket full of posies.
Ashes, ashes, we all fall down.
Nursery rhymes are said, verses in my head. Into my childhood, they're spoonfed. Hidden violence revealed, darkness that seems real. Look at the pages that cause all this evil.
One, two - buckle my shoe.
Three, four - shut the door.
Five, Six - pick up sticks.
Seven, Eight - lay them straight
London Bridge is falling down,
Falling down, falling down.
London Bridge is falling down my fair lady.
Nursery rhymes are said, verses in my head. Into my childhood, they're spoon-fed. Hidden violence revealed, darkness that seems real. Look at the pages that cause all this evil.
Knick-knack paddywhack, give a dog a bone.
This old man came rolling home.
Mary had a little lamb, it's fleece was white as snow. (Baa Baa Black have you any wool? Yes sir, yes sir, three bags full)
Ring-a-round-the-rosies.
Pocket full of posies.
Ashes, ashes, we all fall down.
Nursery rhymes are said, verses in my head. Into my childhood, they're spoonfed. Hidden violence revealed, darkness that seems real. Look at the pages that cause all this evil.
Knick-knack paddywhack, give a dog a bone.
It comes at me, evil thoughts is creeping through my mind.
For you to see that I can't speak what's on my mind. It runs away - it's so predictable. I can in every way, feel the stress all tingled up inside.
Too blind to see, emptiness and sorrow of their lives. You run away, to the cover of their pointless ties. You ask me - it's so predictable.
I'm gonna try.
I'm gonna die.
I'm gonna try.
Another day. Silence overwhelms my mind. Who's to say if I have the time or why should I pray for all the hate to go away? Another day. I can never break free. You wait for me. I crawl up to you. Another day. I'll live forever.
Why should I?
I'm gonna try.
I'm gonna die.
I'm gonna try.
I'm gonna try! Should I? (x4)
I'm gonna try!
I'm gonna die!
I'm gonna try...
Can't stand the sight of you. I can't stand what you put me through. Your life's a lie, that you hide. Is it that terrible being you inside? I can't stand all the thought of you. I can't stand all the things you do. Why do you try, to justify? You are just too scared to be you inside Let it all go. Look at you, all I see is a man too afraid to really be.
I can't stand what you put me through. I can't stand even the thought of you. Your secret lies, that you hide. Is it that terrible being you inside? Let it all go. Look at you, all I see is a man too afraid to really be. You try so hard to be wanted. False emotions tells you fronted. I think being a person relies on one thing, be yourself, let you come through. You're too afraid to really be someone who isn't false and doesn't care to be. You're too afraid to really be. Be yourself let you come through. Fake
Let it all go.
I like to search inside for the things that you will hide.
What's the problem?
Can't you seem to set loose the problems that haunt and taunt you?
Thinking about your life. Thinking about your inner fears. I like to search inside for the things that you will hide.
What's the problem?
Can't you seem to open your body and let me touch you? Do you ever see outside your fears? Thinking about your life. Thinking about your inner fears. I want you to see, master of disguise. For all the things that hurt you, of all these useless lies.
I want you to fear, fill you on up inside. Once I'd took you in, I'd throw you out instead. I try. You win. My life... Is ripping your heart and destroying my pain. Do you ever see outside your fields? Thinking about your life. Thinking about your inner fears.
Please God.
Please God help me.
Please God free me.
Please God help me from my painful situation.
Please God help me.
Please God free me.
Please God save me from my painful situation.
(Want to give it up, no I can't escape)
Mother, please forgive me.
I just had to get out all my pain and suffering. Now that I am done, remember I will always love you I'm your son.
Little child, looking so pretty. Come out and play, I'll be your Daddy. Innocent child, looking so sweet. Rape your mind, and now your flesh I reap You raped. I feel dirty. It hurt. As a child. Tied down. That's a good boy. And fuck. Your own child. I scream. No-one hears me. It hurt. Not a lot. My God. Saw you watching. Mommy, why? Your own child. Little child, looking so pretty. Come out and play, I'll be your Daddy You raped. I feel dirty. It hurt. As a child. Tied down. That's a good boy. And fuck. Your own child. I scream. No-one hears me. It hurt. Not a lot. My God. Saw you watching. Mommy, why?
It's alright
"I didn't touch you there." Mommy said she didn't care. "I didn't touch you there." That's why momma stopped and stared. Innocent child, looking so sweet. Rape your mind, and now your flesh I reap. You raped. I feel dirty. It hurt. As a child. Tied down. That's a good boy. And fuck. Your own child. I scream. No-one hears me. It hurt. Not a lot. My God. Saw you watching. Mommy, why?