Beleagured means I love you and I'm sorry. It means I know I was driving you crazy all the time you were gone.....and it means I am sorry...and it means I wish I could make you better...and it means I'm sorry.....It means I wish I could, I wish I might have the wish to set things right and it means I'm sorry...and so that's what beleagured means...it means I was picking on you...with all my heart and soul I was picking on you.......and I am not sorry for that.