Vibee Talks!

Hi this is MaryAnne, I left Elmo here because
he reminds me of another new page which is all about getting free from religion and walking in relationship with Jesus Christ, the one who after all, has set us free enough to dance like him!!

Without The Amazing Grace of God
I know I wouldn't be here today to tell this story!

How do I start, a page like this?

I guess I will just write and see what happens...
It's been a tough and long road,
at times I didn't think I would make, it,
but by the Grace of God I did.
Not only did I make it,
I am here to tell the story of it all so that others
don't have to go the long way like I did.

We are a product of the choices we make,
and this is not a condemning comment,
but one which I know to be true.

On walking away from an unhealthy marriage
10 years ago almost,
I walked into another unhealthy relationship,
which at the time, I thought was meeting my needs,
but was indeed as the other one was,
destroying me.
I was blinded by the hurt and the pain of dissapointment,
and when we are like that,
we are very vulnerable to anyone
who will "meet" our needs.
I had an on/off relationship with a man in another country,
and it was at the time I was "in ministry"......shock horror,
I can hear some of you say,
hey, I am no different to anyone else,
I just have a different story to tell.
We all have fallen into some kind of "sin"
while we are in survival mode,
and no "sin" is any worse than the other,
as some would have us to believe.

So I neither condemn myself, or judge myself harshly,
I just am sharing this so that others can know me and see me.

Not as I am now, but as I was.

I have re-married to a most wonderful man,
who really is my "Knight in Shining Armour"
and who loves me sincerely and unconditionally,
and has been instrumental in much of the healing
I have needed over the last 2 years.
I have risen up stronger and much wiser,
but it has not been alone,
it has been with the help of others
who have come across my path
to help me see my worthiness and my value.

I am still growing, not claiming to know it all,
or be everything to everyone,
which I had the unhealthy habit
of trying to do in the past *Smile*

This is what I offer to my friends who come by my heart,
help, love, support, acknowledgment and understanding.
For how can we judge another
when we have not really even looked at our own heart.

Wasn't it Jesus? who said,
man looks on the outer appearance,
but God looks at the heart.

Yes indeed, He does,
and I am so glad He does.
For He looked at my heart when no - one else did,
not even me.

He looked at my heart when I was struggling in "sin",
He looked at my heart when I could hardly see my way.

Oh yes, my dear friend
I have learnt(and learning) over these years
to do the same, to look at the heart,
without judging, without condemning,
without fear of being contaminated.

How many of Gods' precious children have been hurt
when they have been in need the most.
The church has not been the healing balm it was meant to be,
it has been the sword of judgement
wounding further it's hurting and dying soldiers.

Let's not have any more of it,
let's be open enough, and brave enough to face our weaknesses
and faults head-on, and be healed.

I'll stop here.
Not because there is no more to tell
For indeed there is
Much more
But I have said enough
To help the reader
See my heart
And hopefully
Be helped in some way
To see that this is a safe place
A Place to be accepted
Not condemned
A Place to feel free
And by the choices you make
To step on the road to recovery
And trust again

To Begin the journey of awareness
Wholeness
Healing
Restoration
Happiness
And joy!! Real joy!

In Jesus Name

MaryAnne - Vibee

Update....since writing this page
I have been released some more
And this has given me the inspiration
To give more and more of my story
The shame and the guilt has been broken
And I am rejoicing in the freedom
To be able to speak out spontaneously
Without the fear or embarassment to be who I am
A Princess
From royal blood
The Blood of Jesus my Lord

We all have the desire in us
To have a partner who is full of His Love and His Glory
To fellowship with a soul-mate
In a deep intimate way

This is a God given desire
It's really our heart crying out
TO KNOW THE ONE TRUE GOD
AND SAVIOUR JESUS CHRIST
To be connected intimately in our hearts
With one who knows us
And is know by us

Release all that pent up anquish
And fear
Release all the dissapointments and pain
Of dreams un-met
Release them
Speak out your heart
Passionately
Without fear of rejection or ridicule
For He understands and waits to hear your words of love

Don't be concerned as to how they will come out
Just let them out!

EMail to Vibee(MaryAnne)

This picture portrays in a very real way
What it's like as we arise from the depths of despair
To a place of freedom and complete surrendered
Worship to God our Redeemer!