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Bright (rtlr-004) released in 10-99

• CLEAR FAITH -- Tried so hard to sink into you, to let your light take my life, show my path, carry me through all the miles,I was trusted to such hope,resting in you, i wish i'd seen what you were,it's not about my trust in the sky,how betrayal invades all of my life--Tried so hard to open my mind as i saw myself redifine, now you've left me feeling jaded, cause i let myself be thrown and misled such hope wasted in you,now i've seen what's useless,placing my trust in anything,still i left myself have to cling--Faith, ripped away from my heart,you let me lose my faith,ripped away from my heart -- I can see what you need,taking me, for your own,and i will and i know i will be -- i wish i had seen before what you were, it's too late for that, i'll just lift myself up from this hole that you've left me in, i know i'll figure my way out -- My doubt had only lifted me up above
• TRICYCLE -- Soon boredom sets in the eyes glaring at this, witness the fault in the armor, soon regret sets in, no strength, how it already ends, if it all cam down, i'd be alone -- Is there a way to turn around to turn away instead of hiding up here -- Hre (cutting in line i won't wait for it everyday) -- Far too much time is spent, even though when i hurt i alwats wake up too soon -- I put it all down, just for this nothing, i put it all down, just for this regret, i put it all down -- i wonder if it's too late for a retraction of what's been done or said or scrawled out -- is there a way, i don't think so -- 3 seperate ways to find myself in this situation, is it worth this -- I'm letting myself fall, I'm letting myself down
• STANDING ABOVE -- I come at you, to topple the wall you built before me, running myself through the barriers that you thought would be a shield to hide what your true self is, for real, i've exposed how you use and lie and steal to create the falsehood that is you, not one thing you said to me was true, flase truth is all you speak of, one up all my life to stand above competition driving you to lies, downplay everything that means something, in my eyes a gift of precious value, who would ever give that thing to you, i don't tell these things for show, just to share something i thought you wanted to know -- Standing above: looking down at who was once my freind, Standing -- abuse of time, used in kind, wuth the will to make a weapon from the mind, but if you don't bother to pay the tolls, i'll take it upon myself
• TRYING TO BREATHE -- I listen to what you say but you force your thoughts on me, i've always looked to you and i thought you'd be there for me -- i guess i'm better than i was before this -- i thought i could depend on you because i knew you'd help me through, but now i see that your goal was to shape me to your mold -- I guess I'm better than i was before this came into me -- you forcing me to judge me -- I'm faced with this decision, to bring you into the open and let you know it's time to end or see your fear as i descend -- i'm trying to breathe here under your weight, but you can't control me this time and i breathe
• COMMON FIXATION -- With a clenched fist reach back and release, lying on the ground, a cry for you to cease, won't stop, not until i understand why i must cave into your demands, too damn hard to admit when you're wrong, look around, how many freinds have come and gone, getting cause you think they don't get it, but it's you who don't get it, won't let it be left alone, to each his own, because you push your views without the option to choose, but you lose cause you abuse what you have no right to use, remember, it will all come back to you -- Ground sliding from under forsaking faces, look on you as you take your fall, grip sliding away now, watching with amusement as they see it all -- you said i can't remove this, you said i can't, you said i can't resolve this, you said i can't -- i can't remove this, you can't back yourself and i will myself and i can;t see why('d you all[that you]) ever wanted to, and i can't -- i know that i can face this --right so you know how i'm supposed to feel, you don't know what i am living for now, i will heal your scars and bandage you, i'll take your wounds and i'll inflict them on me -- never need you, never need this
• RIVER -- Balance: i need to get some more of this facing down, my vices, once i've seen through (you know i) once i've seen through (and i can) look into my days as i struggle to keep my head over, i don't know if i can go -- my numb skin heals, i can almost feel, i will not go, my hands are shaking, i can't control, i can almost feel, i will always know -- i try, i tread, i fold, i sink, i live with this, with this i can't pull myself up -- i reach to garb a hold of anyone to save me, fingers twitching as i take my last breath, until i'm under, i fight to stay awake
• IMMOLATE -- Tried to build up a false front, but i've torn it down, now it's you who is down to none, left standing exposed, should've been wiser with the pathways that you chose, now that you've been stripped of the life that you stole and claimed as your own, time to take a trip to find yourself, bring back something more than just a clone -- i've broken you down, forcing you to make choices for yourself, now finally you've learned all of your actions can easily be turned around to knock you stright, keep you from the lies that fuel your hate, i'll ask you one more time, then i'll pull myself away, you don't, me i cry for you, i see i will always believe in you, i can see what you need, i can't see what you see in me -- On tripping meso i can't win, i can't fucking win -- frustration, attempts to overpower my will, sinking within myself, time to rebuild my direction in life, i felt compromised, overcome this wall for my dreams to be realized -- my direction in life felt compromised
• GIVEN -- I only came with my hands to lend, i didn't think it would have to end up like this, doubt in my face in the first place, why the fuck didn't you leave a trace, not a mark to be found, matter of fact, i don't recall ever having hit the ground, this was never a lie for me -- regret the first time i came through -- at first i thought it was a mistake, recalibarate, find my ground and turn off my hate, contempt for the righteous contempt for the so-called virtuous, it's all back handed lies anyway --regret the first time i came through, i lament the day it all turned around, three hours in and i still -- i push away: you weaken my life, push away: you fucked up my mind, push person away: you steal my drive, push away: cause i'll break you -- as i look into my so-called freind's eyes, i see the person i'm told i should be, i see the person i'm supposed to be, i see the person i will never be, but everyone is better than me right? every fucking person in my life, and if you believe that....

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