I love writing. When I'm expressing my feelings in words, I feel most relaxed. I can relate every thing to every thing. So a poem about mud could really express how tired I am. The joy in that is it makes how I express myself very unique.

And I also feel that there's no other way to express what you feel more beautifully than through poetry. It's more of a reflection on the reader than the writer. I can write whatever I feel, but no one will understand it exactly...people intrepret things differently. I guess that's why I enjoy writing so much. I do it so someone else can take a step back and think. That's all I really ask as you read this...don't write it off as literal. Give it a thought.

What makes my poetry so unique is that is has no structure and rarely rhymes.



"Senses of a One Night Stand"

Kisses are placed in a room lit by candles
Your soft breathing the only thing I can hear
Over the thudding of my heart
No rhyme or reason to our actions
Only sticky fumblings in the dark.



"Dry Cleaning"

A stain on the carpet and we both regretted wanting anything
Blood being our only resolve, we thought it best to part ways
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"Peer Pressure"

A week ago you were conservative and quiet
Then an idea bourne by peers
Smoldered your sanity
Opening your liberal mouth
And covering my eyes
Helped with nothing but breaking of a personality
And the spawning of a new life



"Rainy Days"

I heard it then,
The roaring thunder
Of which I knew
Would be my downfall
All I could do now was wait for the rain
Through ironically,
I lent you my umbrella



"Alone"

I've been sitting here
Many hours gone by
Past late into the night
And early in the morning
Trying to think of words that rhyme
With your name
But nothing rhymes with the bitter sweet taste
That was once you
Now the hollow sound means
Nothing to me
And you've resided miles away
In a cheap suburban apartment



"Ex"

I turn around
Nothing new to be seen
Just you in a plastic black chair
Your head resting in your hands
My presence not wanting to be noticed,
I sigh in disgust
Then I turn back
And I can't help but feeling sad
Eyes glinting with hope you would
Just look at me
But no such luck
Now I must be alone
To settle all my differences
Ones you've never noticed



"Crushed"

I hadn't realized how
Beautiful you were
Lips smiling, eyes glinting...
You seem special
There's no way you'd want me now
But I want you
There's nothing more perfect
Than staring into your eyes
Deep pools of frozen blue that
Ironically melt my insides to mush
And I'd rather spend every
Morning waking up next to you
Than viewing the most
Breath taking sunset
Rather curl up in your strong arms
Than be worshiped by
Countries of poverse and political riches
Then I wonder what you'd say
If I told you all these things
But stop when I realize
I'd end up crushed.



"Bus Seat"

You always said you were looking for the right one
Told me there was someone out there
Over the mountains, bodies of water, and cities' lights
I just casually shrugged my shoulders,
Pretending not to care
But then I thought, couldn't she be a bus aisle away?
A tanned beauty with dark hair and bright eyes
By then I had already lost you to a fantasy
I took the opportunity to stare
Large nose, parted lips, silver eyes
Your being washed over with a glowing red
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You were not perfect
But I loved you anyway



"Not You"

I do not pretend to understand
The minds of men
They are always different
You were always different
Your bipolaric personality
Building me up
Then knocking me down
Like an old brick building
You seem pleased with your conquest
A modern Napoleon
Not caring who you hurt
In your quest to get her
Even if it was me
Selfishly I wonder what it would be like
If I had you all to myself
But I wouldn't stoop to your level



"Fence Post"

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Looking at the chopped piece of wood
Seems hollow
Words seem hollow without you near
It startles me to think
How life would be if I hadn't found you
You deny the connection
But blush when I catch you staring
And you say you don't know me
Though you never took the time to
By this point, trying seems worthless
So you've given up
And it makes me sad for your soul
The strong person you once were
Has been lost to the cowardice of men
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"Love"

Stretching
You love to do that
I've noticed...I watch
Muscular arms raised
Gorgeous hands grasping air
Cotton fabric climbing high
And I pray for the parted flesh
I only wish to touch it
To love it
Love you, your body, your soul
But wishing to hard wears me out
Then I'm only left to stare
And I can't help but wonder
If perhaps you're doing it on purpose



"All I Want"

That's all I want
Someone who'll listen when I talk,
Not be afraid to talk and I'll listen
Someone who can enjoy the simple things in life...
Like how the sky turns a certain shade of pink when the sun is setting
Or how during fall when all the leaves are unraked on the ground,
In the slightest wind it looks like they're dancing
Or during winter when there's no wind and the snow is just falling straight down in large,
Beautiful flakes
Or at night when all the stars are bright
And you can lay on your back at the park and just stare at them
I want someone who can laugh honestly and openly when something is funny
Or even just admit their faults and find humor in it
But could it be that I expect him to be too perfect so I'll feel better?
I hate that
I want him to have faults
I want him to be imperfect
So I can feel human
That's all I want



"Freedom"

I'm not normally smitten by just anyone
You were never an exception to the rule
Through recently I find myself wandering
Lost in those eyes, that voice...
Your soul
How often you enslave the unsuspecting, I wonder.
You can't be held responsible for your actions
So I blame myself
And I don't know when I fell into whatever it is I feel,
But I look forward to
When I fall out of it.
I miss my independence



"He Has To Be..."

He has to be kind
He has to be strong
He has to be faithful
He has to be sweet

He has to be funny
He has to be self-less
He has to be honest
And yet discrete

He has to be crazy
He has to be wrong
He has to try hard
And never accept defeat

He has to be similar
He has to be different
He has to be the many things
I'd like him to be



"Truly"

You have to be fear motivated to truly be human.
For what human can truly be happy with out feeling afraid?
Afraid that what is happening can truly be real.
Yet sometimes it's hard because no one truly understands.
And that's the truth.



"Devastation"

There was much anticipation
As I returned from my mailbox,
Grasping and envelop
Boring a scribbled address.
But it was only a "Dear John" letter from you.
I could say that I was surprised,
But that would be lying.
All I could do was simply shrug it off.
You knew better,
I was heart-broken.
Devastation used to be a word I only knew.
Now, it's a word I write about.



"Gone"

Sometimes loneliness isn't
Just something I'm feeling...
It's something that controls me.
I half expect to wake up one morning
And see no one out my window.
Or to come to the school
And see the halls empty and barren.



"Darkening"

My introspective ability
Just isn't helping me right now.
I feel no need to examine dark thoughts.
Their meaning is clear.
Don't get me wrong,
I've never seriously considered suicide...
I don't feel
Like taking after my father.



"Trust"

When do promises become cynical?
Once they're broken.
I've had my experience.
And some call me untrusting.
But you take pride in that
Sometimes I wonder if it hurts
Because I stopped feeling a long time ago.



"Tears"

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder.
It's the tears shed in an empty room
Because the little drops represent sadness,
Weakness, impurities...the very things
That make you human
That make you perfect...
And everyone needs to cry



"God's Gifts"

There is this happy feeling I get sometimes
It's warm like a fireplace in the winter
And it smells like the wind before rain
The taste is like the first honey of the spring
And it's easy on the eyes like a summer sunrise
Most of all, it's leaves blowing along the sidewalk
It's the same feeling I get when I pray
Because God gives me all these things



"Anger Management"

I don't know when you decided
You liked to yell
To take out your anger
But I wish you'd stop
And I know
That I have a choice
Though I'd rather
Be verbally abused
Than to live life
Without you.



"To Tessa"

Today I woke up
Here in this bed
Listening to rhythmic rain drops
Yet silent they fall from
Grey autumn clouds

I feel perhaps I need a
Time of objectyifing my thoughts
And I can perceive the real me
You could probably help, like always
I feel I'm the only one
Whom is thankful for you
My only wish is this makes you smile



"For You"

I want to write you a poem
One that never rhymes
I hope you aren't disappointed
At least I'll say I tried
Yet it is impossible
To capture you with words
And thinking this I tell myself
Love is for the birds
I try to say I cannot love you,
Still I fail to convince
Myself and you I cannot fool
I've cried every night since



"Past Tendencies"

I could tell myself
This is the last I'm going
To let this happen
But I already did
With you
And unknowingly you've rejected me
Just like the others
All because I let myself feel
Why I can never learn from my mistakes
I'll never know
But it's really not my fault
History has a tendency to repeat itself



"Smile"

Just when I thought
You couldn't get any more beautiful
I saw you smile
And at that moment
I cried
Because I still couldn't have you,
At least I've got more of you,
To keep in my memories



"This Present Darkness"

Crushing sadness screams
Alienating tones
This present darkness
Feels so alone

This horror classic
Cheesy tagline
My life as a graphic
Only worth a dime

Excluding victors die
Barren wasteland
Taught myself to cry
Into sovereign hands

Often fondly dreaming
Night and day
Darkness always screaming
Falseness strays

Rushing madness dies
Sadly in my hands
This present lie
Kills on command

This cult tradgedy
Indulgent pick up line
My life is a blasphemy
Hurtfully unkind

Honored losers rule
Lands of common ethereal
Taught myself to live
In the shadow of a mural

Often loudly screaming
Beginning and end
This present darkness teeming
To begin again



"Sinister Kisses"

Your words seem like wisdom, off hand,
But then they leave me feeling dirty.
Feel better, now that you're 'the man'?

The morning came and I was left with a note of good wishes
Your voice circling my body, like intruding hands
Words spoken seem like scars...an array of sinister kisses



"Stench"

You have become
The sole remnants
Of love lost
The stench unbearable
And I hate to tell you...
You reek of death
Yet you're still breathing
Barely an existence
For one so innocent
Congratulations
You smell like one of us



"Screen Test"

I never meant
For this to happen
Your comments
Spoken in slow motion
And I've stolen your show
Opening night your
Biggest disappointment
The deepest scars
Undetectable
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No apology worthy
Yet the biggest mistakes are made
With the best intentions



"Past Mistakes"

Profound weakness
Fear penetrating me
Constant reminder
Of time lost
And I can remember
Past excuses
Not to smile
But now
I'm just searching
For something to smile about



"Fantasy Lost"

In my dreams
I see everything
That I wish to be true
Desolation sacred
And skies turn silver
All of my days
Spoiled by darkness
When in pain
The earth shall bleed
Our dance is pure
But the weeds need trimming



"To Escape"

My mind is my escape
To the purest streams
And the lushest grass
Because this place is wreathed
In fire and ash
It's getting hard to breathe
And I want nothing more
Than to fly
With the creatures of the night
To the place where you are right now
We can share my dreams



"Autumn"

The chain linked fence
Cool against my face
I gaze on in despair
At the abandon pool
It was once full
And a place of happiness
But now it's dried up and condemned to spend
The days in solitude
Until summer...
May the days pass
Easier than mine



"Metaphorical Holes"

I woke up this morning
Smiling
Even through the deafening sound
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But as the day progressed
The smile faded
Into a dark void
And replaced
By a metaphorical hole
You promised to make it better
I didn't get my hopes up
Because you used
Cheap cement



"Bad Day?"

I'm not sure exactly
What caused it
It couldn't have been
The blinding sun
First thing in the morning
Or being late
For my classes
Due to a flat tire
I don't even think
It was the pouring rain
As I made my way home
Now on foot
Perhaps it was
The love I get from you
Or lack thereof



"Rain"

I woke up to the rain
And tried to ease my pain
Because it all went down the drain
I think I'm going insane
And it all was done in vain
Time to find someone to blame
But it'll all end up the same
Me with nothing left to gain
And nothing left to feign
I'll just listen to the rain



"Payback"

Tonight
You could call
Out my name
And I wouldn't
Be there to answer
Sure it breaks my heart
To know
Your saddened whispers
Are wasted on darkness
At least now
You know how it feels



"Fall"

Fall is here
And the trees are dying
Orange tips
Spread through branches
The disease turns all
Until there's nothing left



"Death"

As I walked through
A field of silver flowers
I heard the angels crying
It was sweet at first
Then the sound broke my heart
I never realized
Something so beautiful
Could sound so painful
And when I turned for home
I lost my way
There was a dead body
Crumpled along a stream
It was mine
And I was free



"Dancing"

Surrounded by love
Nameless faces
The swirling color
Of the waltz
Caught in the middle
Hidden by a veil
A song joined
Elemental pure beauty
And everyone was dancing



"Fate"

We cannot control fate...
I full believe everything
Happens for a reason,
Whether we like it
Or not.
The only choice we have
Is to embrace it
Or fight it.
One of them is going to
Make you happy...
Guess which one isn't?



"Stars"

Have you ever stopped
To look at the stars?
They're beautiful this time of year.
Against the turning trees
It makes for a perfect fantasy.
I've wished on those stars
For so many things.
I wished for understanding,
Happiness,
Time..
But most of all,
I've wished for love.
And staring at those stars
For so long
Makes me believe
That all of my wishes
Will come true.
But they don't.
Maybe it's because
I already have everything
I'll ever need...
Or maybe
While I'm lying there on my back,
Letting the world pass me by,
I've missed the opportunity
For them to ever come true.



"My Walk"

I went for a walk
The other day
And wound up somewhere
I never expected to be.
But I guess it makes sense,
The feet move
Where the heart yearns.
It's given me a lot
To think about...
So many consequences
For my actions.
Yet the heart cannot help
What it feels,
For to be human
Is to error.
But it's your job
To forgive me
When I do something stupid.



"Friday Afternoon"

I guess you're wondering
Where I would find myself
On a Friday afternoon.
The day was beautiful
And my intent
Was to head to the park.
But when I reached it
I continued to walk.
Past the swings,
Down the hill,
Beyond the high school,
Up the street,
Until I hit a green house.
As I glanced I knew
That somewhere
Within the walls
There was a guy
Who need someone
More than any of us do.



"Stars 2"

This summer,
I took a step back
From who I was
And I changed what I wanted.
That could be why
I'm no longer as depressed
As I was for the past
Five years.
But unfortunately,
I had to change
My entire personality
To achieve it.
I don't wish on the stars
As often as I did.
I still wish for more time
But am thankful
For the time
That has been given to me.
I've learned to accept
That sorrow
Is to be embraced
Because without it
I could not appreciate
The value of a smile.
And resolution
Is through understanding...
If I did not understand
How hard things
Were on you,
I could never have
Forgiven you.
But love,
I still struggle with that.
I've just begun to realize
That we're so young
To be using the word
So carelessly.



"Fate 2"

Though it may not
Seem like it now,
Everything that happened
Yesterday,
Or today,
Is for the best.
It's what was
Supposed to happen.
The thought of tomorrow
Being a brand new day
Is reassuring enough
To keep me hanging on.



"Life Lessons"

I've learned three things
In my life time...
1. Be careful who you trust.
Some people may seem
Like worthy adversaries,
But they'll stab you
In the back
At the blink of an eye.
2. You can spend
Your whole life
Trying to make
Everyone else happy,
But that's all you'll accomplish...
Making everyone else happy.
You won't be truly happy
Unless you accept
Who you are
And make the best of it.
3. Love is a beautifully ugly thing...
It can be a curse or a gift...
By choice or by force...
It can kill and it can create.
But most of all,
It changes lives forever.
But when love dies
It's better to let go
And cherish the beautiful
Than to hang on
And smother a wonderful thing.



"Try Harder"

My chances are few
I often miss them...
I fear you're no longer
Within my reach
But I'll try harder
I only have now
And then it's gone



"Some How"

I need help...
Some how this has to end.
Take the pain
And make it disappear.
Why can't I just be happy
For once in my life?
Why can't I just stop crying
For once in my life?
But I guess the tears never end.
They seem to come from no where.
I hurt so much.
A dull ache deep within my heart
Why can't I just live
For once in my life?
Why can't I just stop praying for death
For once in my life?
The two extremes battle
As if there is no end
I hurt so much
A quiet whisper deep within my mind.
I need help...
Some how this has to end.



"Dreaming"

I stared at the stars
Last night
Until I saw your face
It was a nice change
From the void
I usually see
But it would've been better
If you were really there



"Given Up"

I miss you
It hasn't been the same
You're more distant
And it's hard to reach you
Across the miles
That now seperate
The part
That breaks my heart
Is that I feel
Like you're not even trying



"Nightmares Again?"

I had a dream last night
Upon a flowering hill
Surrounded by purple tress
I was bathing in a stream
That ran silver
In the moonlight
Upon the air
Floated the sound
Of a carried love song
In the climax of the tune
The stars fell from the sky
Leaving my dreamland
In darkness
It think it was meant
To reflect my heart



"Garden Day Dreams"

I saw a golden flower
In a field of dying love
When I picked it,
The sky turned black
And the angels cried
I couldn't put it back
So I kept it for you
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On your night stand
I hoped you would see it
For its true beauty
But I knew you'd throw it out
And it would die
Just like my heart



"At First Sight"

I only met you yesterday
But I've fallen for you today
You wish it not
My mind your slave
I'll mess up again
Give it time
Then you'll see me for me
And my everchanging
Heart



"Singled Out"

Why I can't love just one
I'll never know
Straying hearts
Make dying minds
There's a shade of red
Over everything I see
And eventually
I'll fall in love with it
Until I find my
Next victim
Then it's all downhill
From there



"Drama"

The lights dim
The cast is set
The piano stops
The audience holds their breath
The star faints
The director yells
The musical's ruined
The band leaves
And yet, the show must go on



"Autumn Love"

This was a justly end
To an autumn love
My hope for you was
Like the beauty in the trees
The air was crisp
A constant reminder
Of how hard it was
To breathe without you
And the days grew dark
Like my shallow heart
But even fall has to end



"Hello"

Hello
Object of my affection
How was your day
Mine was great
You were in reach...
I haven't cried
Not yet, today
It was your smile
That kept me sane
Did you see the sun
It shone for you
Just like it has
Every other day
And tomorrow
Your eyes
Have I mentioned your eyes
They look particularly
Deep today
And yesterday
And tomorrow
You'll be here everyday
Just not for me...
Just for the day



"Could Be"

Hopeless wonder
My immature dream
The unreachable
Of a romantic's scene

Could be more things
War on my mind
Between my heart
And you that I find

Technology useless
A knights worse nightmare
My only hope
Rests on a prayer



"When..."

When I look at him
What do I see
Eyes of light
Face of grace
Body of love
Skin of snow
When I look...
What do I feel
Heart flutters
Cheeks flush
Fingers numb
Eyes shine
When I look at him
What do I know
Prayers are whispered
Laughs are easy
Tears are too
Fears inable
When I...
I smile



"Worries"

Why does it seem
You're avoiding me?
Look into my eyes
And tell me you're not
I've done everything
You've asked of me
And things you haven't...
Like love you



"All You"

Can't stand
To see you sad
Wish for a smile
Maybe it's just
Your frustration
But it breaks my heart
Just the same



"For Him"

Because you're there
I really can't breathe
I don't want to live
Any day with out your smile
Or maybe it's not mine to see

I won't believe your skin's not soft
Or you're not perfect
I see otherwise
You heart, not mine,
Could it were I wish
Your kiss for a promise
I can make you smile



"Dorian"

I have gone beyond
My limits
This day
And unto
The most uncomfortable
Fortunate has been
My fearless leader
Whom we question not
Of our soaring limits
And still we veer
Into the worst direction



"Parallel Worlds"

The ground cool
Parallel to my back
In my new world
Of flourescense and plaster
Faces of my past
Swirl about my face
They sing me a song
To the beat of a keyboard
And footsteps below
Late night thoughts
Are surely unwelcome
As they echo throughout
But oddly a relief
To this new emptiness



"Flying"

Amazing Grace
How sweet the sight
Of a romantic God
Flying through the air
Defined wisdom
As floated on a cloud
Of hopes and dreams
That are my own
Puzzle pieces make
A whole lot of love
To put together
After the landing



"Get Closer"

I wish he would come
Stand by me...
Get close enough
To smell him
See the sweat on his brow,
His leg muscles when he walks
Listen to his breathing...
Butterfly kisses against the wind
The glint in his eye
My special promise...
-to myself
And maybe more
I'd know
If only he'd come closer



"My Freshman"

I'm a fan of his face...
and his body
He's got great hair...
and tan
I love his eyes...
and...-legs
A good smile is great...
and a sense of humor
He is young...
and innocent
Time will be good on him...
and his soul
Then he'll be perfect
and more



"Warriors"

I've got a lot to think
About life just recently
The darkness of sin
The light from with in
And the challenge to
Rise with the fallen
All the ground
Stained with their blood
Yet time shall prove
Easier for me to deal
With what's on my mind



"In The Midst Of The Night"

The hallway is dark
The sound is too bright
Too much to dream about
In the midst of the night
Journeys are long
The lessons are shortened
My feet are on fire
The pain is distorted
What is the feeling
I've got in my heart
Too heavy to carry
It'll rip me apart
Stopping to rest
Can seem to be right
Yet I dare not risk it
In the midst of the night



"Funny Feeling"

There's something
About the way
You look tonight
Maybe it's
The lighting
Your skin looks softer
Your eyes brighter
There's something
About the way
My heart's beating
That scares me
Your smile
Speeds it up
Your touch
Stops it
What a funny feeling
In the pit
Of my stomach
It aches
Whenever you're gone
And flutters
Whenever you're near
Suddenly everything
You say
Is life or death
Your smiles
Build my heart
Your tears
Bring it down
Maybe if I just
Held your hand
Things would be better
What a funny feeling
At the end
Of my toes
They tingle
And quake
I feel I could
Fall to the ground
Just as someone falls...
In love?



"Hope In Heaven"

Belief in all that lies
Is the only thing
That comforts me
When I walk
Along this almost
Seemingly endless eternity
When my path changes
And I walk among
Those founding fathers
I have hope
That the flowers resemble
The epiphany
Of those behind me



"A Stroll In The Meadow"

And as I walk
My foot falls
Soft on the meadow
Eager my lips
Dripping with the juices
Of the ripest fruits
The hem of my dress
Once white lace
Dirty with sand
From the bottom
Of a flowing stream
The night sky
Littered with stars
Reflected in my irises
Hope in my hands
Love in my heart
I cannot go wrong



"Katie"

The day you stop dancing
Is the day my heart breaks
The cloudy skies will mean nothing
Without your rain soaked giggles
Smile for me now
Just so I can keep it forever
To anywhere I go
That country road never saw it coming
You were there the whole way
The awe in your eyes my undoing
It followed me everywhere
Like honey on crackers
Then through the crowd
I wish they could see it too
How you sparkle in the headlights
To reflect endless emotion
I left everything on the shadowed lawn
You taught me how to live
So I can carry on



"Your Opportunity Has Passed"

I can’t see your smile under all that make-up
Too bad you thought it looked cool
Now everyone knows your insecurities
And I could never keep a secret
What is it I’m supposed to tell them
About last night’s show?
You always manage to make me look bad
While you’re getting all the credit

Your shoes got dirty
When you took the long way
You felt like a million dollars
After your watch broke and you lost track of time
You could ask the trees
But what’s an hour to a hundred years?
Learn to ask God for help
And you wouldn’t feel bad missing my birthday

Your laughter sounds fake like the cross around your neck
You grasp it tight to pray for something different
But you can never learn to say thank you instead
The melted candles are starting to stink
And you insist on watching the flame
I hope he’s watching right now
To grant my wish to make you disappear
Now I’ve diappointed him

Remind me to visit when you get old
I’d hate to know how bitter you’d be
Even then it wouldn’t be your fault
Because the wind still hasn’t died down
You whispered you never meant for this to happen
When do you ever?
I’ll pray for you, you now…
Just remember to starting asking



"He Who Never Listens"

The park’s cold this time of year,
Casual and empty
You’ve seen me there before
So don’t stop now

All the leaves are dead
Just keep smiling
How they could manage the loss
I’ll never know

It’s raining like hell
But I’m in my car
You once told me it smelled of cinnamon
Then left me smiling, alone

I should tell you I love you
Before you ignore me again
It’ll just kill the breeze
Besides, you have my friends

I can’t tell where the sun is
I have yet to see it shine
Through my sleepless nights
And ballpoint pens

I think I pray too much
For my endless remission
But God, I feel sorry now
Lend me your hand

That song you wrote
Never made me cry
Because I’ve been reading your words
Long before you wrote them down

Don’t stop now on my account
You’ve come this far
The best advice you’ve been given
Is to ignore it all

I think I pray too much, I can’t tell where the sun is
For my endless remission, I have yet to seen it shine
But God, I feel sorry now through my sleepless nights
Lend me your hand and ballpoint pens…



"To Dream A Dream..."

You’ve done it again
Burst through my clouded dream
To my front porch
I hate the chair
Envious of its connection with you
But your eyes know better
They see all of my faults
I feel like pencil shavings
Fallen useless to the floor
I wish to be swept up in the wind
Blown away to the crowd
…to the place where I first met you
New experiences wasted
On infatuations
Yet still you cloud my dreams
In that stupid chair



"Ooms"

She didn't let him in on her sadness
and masked it with laughter
and small talk.
It did become easier,
talking,
but she was so used to being by herself
in her room
that she forgot really what was funny
to the outside world.
He didn't seem to mind.
The smile on his face
made it all come naturally.
She'd kill to possess
that kind of confidence.
That's what always drew her to him.
For now work never existed,
family never existed,
and she wasn't growing up and heading to college.
Right then, it was just him and her
heading to the movies
on a split,
rainy day.



"Broken Record"

Everything always ends up this way
I’m a broken record
You’ve worn me out so much
That the scratches go deeper than before
Then over and over again I remember
All those tears of happiness
And the pain that came with them
Different times, different places, all the same
I’m tired of the golden oldies
But as long as you touch me
I’ll dance in circles
Until the music stops playing
Then I have to sit in darkness, waiting
For you to want to hear me again



"Rust"

I watched as the rusty color rushed by
Tear drops small ripples in the stream
I knew this sight
The sight of some one breaking down
The water was cold under my fingers
Nothing compared to my whole body
Submerged to forget
I remembered once I reached sand
The edge of reason
Sharp as broken glass
Cutting through the cobwebs
Of feelings untouched
I left them to die
Now I feel nothing’s changed




"Sideshow"

Eyes meet through the crowd
The rhythmic pounding enthralling
A smile, a blush, a reaction
I feel suddenly like dancing
Throwing my body every which way
Until I die of happiness
Later it stops but I’m on a high
Electicity making me tingle and shake
I play it cool anyway
The sidewalk does little to calm me
Small rocks grasping my thighs
I find inspiration in an abandon cigarette butt
Just to pretend I don’t hear you in front of me
But your eyes are somewhere different
You couldn’t just leave me here, waiting
Still those lips sing a different song
Than the one I’ve been playing in my head
It’s so much trouble you go through,
Only to find a blonde with a bottle
Even if I’m the only one to appreciate the art
That is surely you and your passion
Forget it, this was a bad idea anyway




"Paperback Novel"

It’s all right here, in my heart
Reminds you of the book you put down
Bored with it already
Like you’ve heard it all before
Read it in my eyes
I’m only a paperback
You can bend me easily
And my red cuts are dedicated to you
The perfect editing job
Don’t say you’ve never loved drama
You’re too selfish to hate yourself
I could never be published
Because you want me all to you
So your secrects could never get out
Afraid someone might know already
If they could read between the lines
But that’s the end of that chapter
Then it’s time to start over
As soon as I blink




"Paperback Novel"