The corridor, again? How many times must I walk this dreadful path? Always the same. An old dark hallway. Rotten walls and floorboards. Walking slowly step-by-step. So dark only lit periodically by flashes of lightning through old broken windows that line one wall. Rotted curtains, moth-eaten, flap in the breeze although no wind blows from outside. Outside? There is no outside, this is all there is. The only sound, an old nursery rhyme, but the words are changed “Daddy” instead of “Mommy
No walls, no ceiling, no floor, only empty blackness, but I am standing in a cathedral of sorts. How do I know? From the pews, the podium upon the dais in front of them, and the large stained glass cross hanging in the darkness behind it all, shedding a dull blue light over the congregation which consists of every woman I have ever loved, or will ever love. Quite a few of the faces I recognize instantly, most I have never seen before. They all listen intently as my alter ego, preaches to them from the podium. His lips move, but I cannot hear anything except for a low dull thrum that seems to be coming from everywhere, yet far off. I turn and look to my right and there stands an old wrought iron spiral staircase leading up into the blackness. I climb the stairs, and the congregation disappears below me. I travel up the stairs for a long time, until at last, I come to a landing upon which sits a beautiful young girl, lithe, with long red hair pulled back into a ponytail. Freckles dance along her nose and cheeks as her brilliant green eyes stare sadly at me. I sit beside her for a bit, unsure of what to say, until finally I just say: “Goodbye” She nods, and I stand, noticing for the first time the door behind her. I go through the door to find myself on a rooftop overlooking a city, it is day time, and I feel the warmth of the sun and the gentle breeze blowing around me, then the scene changes, and I am walking in the pouring rain down a city street, it is cold, and wet, and I do not know where I am supposed to go, until I spy a familiar door and knock on it. A woman opens the door, a woman that I know very well. She is dressed in only bed sheets, I can see into the room and notice my alter ego sitting, naked, on the corner of the bed, and I know instantly that they had been together, he stands and leaves, leaving myself and the girl alone in the room. I am filled with a deep sense of sadness and fear, but I look at her and say “I just wanted to say, Goodbye” and then I rose, kissing her gently on the top of her head and departed back into the rain, at which point I awake.
Hush little baby don’t say a word.
Now something new is added.
Daddy’s gonna buy you a mocking-bird.
The walls, horrific and rotten, begin bleeding.
If that mocking-bird don’t sing.
The blood runs down from the ceiling and walls pooling in the floor
Daddy’s gonna buy you a diamond ring
Another flash of lightning through the broken windows shows the flesh, rotted flesh that used to be curtains on the windows
If that diamond ring turns brass.
Blowing without wind.
Daddy’s gonna buy you a looking glass.
Ripples begin forming in the pool of blood and a form begins rising from it. A boy, covered in blood.
If that looking glass gets broke.
His eyes open, filed with pain “Daddy?” The only spoken word. I am awake, sitting up in bed screaming silently, the last line fading from my ears.
Daddy’s gonna buy you a billy goat.
I sit and sob into my knees, knowing that when I close my eyes, the corridor will be there again.