Mood:  irritated

Orginally posted on January 18th, 2004

As the title implies, it's looking like to be a bad day. Half the day is already gone and we have done nothing. I have a feeling nothing in the ways of site improvements or RP will be done today. It comes to know surprise, but it just depresses me that Mike is loosing his gumption. Maybe he'll surprise me though and get some things done today.

Although things do look grim, he's sort of a grouch today and blaming it on cigarettes.

Truly though what has me depressed is my caterer backed out on me, giving me some lame ass excuse, and now I'm stuck with finding someone else and the fearful job of telling Mike about it, I think I'll tell him tomorrow AFTER I talk to mom first.

I need to talk to Mike about the guest list, Dave gave me some phone numbers and addresses and Mike's mom is willing to help with that, she's also gonna call Mike's old clergy friend sometime this week. If he says no though..that's another thing we need to handle and find.

Literally 6 months before the wedding, and all the pressure is rising.

I feel distant from my RP friends, partially my fault, but they are not making an effort to salvage the distance either. I don't see why they have to have "you IM first" mindset. I have and they're not talking much so what's the damn point of me IMing first?
I know there is an excuse behind it like "I'm busy", "You were busy I didn't want to bother you", "I was waiting for you to IM me". Whatever happen to IMing someone just because regardless of what they are doing..simply because you, as a person, missed them?

I guess I'm not cool to hang around anymore because I do web work to make the site better, so more will want to join and help Mike to relieve stress?

Oh well, maybe things will right itself in due time and if not then things were not meant to be I suppose.

Now it's time to induct a new member to our group and hopefully and hopefully get to work and RP along the way.