Mood:  blue

Originally posted on May 29th, 2004

Mom moved out today, as of Tuesday, I'll be staying home alone and on my period unless I can convince grandma to come check on me. If not I guess I'll have to see about getting an aid.

Dunno if we'll game tonight.

We surrendered in utopia and I lost land cause I was not on today.

The dogs will have to be locked up starting Tuesday. I'm on my period and in serious to cry, scream and do violence.

I feel so outcasted and defeated, not to mention unloved and unwanted, but no doubt that's my harmones unalanced and in overdrive.

I just hope beyond hope this does not strain Mike or I, things were going great before this bombshell. He's officially out of debt, he got his notice tuesday evening. We are on a waiting list to move closer to grandma, so it'll be safer for me to stay home, Mike is working on getting another vehicle and he got his own route at work yesterday. All very good things, too bad I have to worry now.

Mood:  irritated

Originally posted on May 28th, 2004

No sex since last Sunday

No role-play since the 3rd of May.

I just started my period.

Mom is moving out Monday night, and I don't know where I'll be on Tuesday, nor if I'll have computer access during the day anymore, guess I'll have to ask her later or tomorrow.

All this is a lot of worry and a lot of stress.

On a good news, I got my pic from Jurty, Tuesday night and she picked up the money today, so I guess western union does work. You can now VIEW the picture by clicking on the underlined word.

Nothing still from Kay yet, but I expect this Monday or the next.

No response on BlackKeri either, nor has she picked up her funds, but I'm not expecting anything right away.

I hope Mike calls that car place soon.

I hope that apartment place calls us in June, so I can be home during the day and grandma can visit me during the day. Is it too much to hope for though?

Time will tell. Now time for me to get some web work done.

Mood:  hungry

Originally posted on May 22nd, 2004

I'm starving so I thought I'd give an update while Mike is out at the bank, and hopefully getting some food!

Well, paid Jurty, via western union, she said she will pick it up Monday, hope it works, cause I don't understand that foreign country stuff! Anyway, guess I'll know Monday, hopefully I'll get my finished smut pic by then as well. Looks so beautiful, I want it! I want it!

Nothing from Kay Allen yet, Pooh.

For months I've been looking at this artist called BlackKeri, and been drooling over her work, but she's expensive (around 160-200 bucks, but worth it her art is even better than Key's or Yerin's in my opinion!
Anyway I saw an opening for her doing commissions, so I wrote her, and woo hoo she had an opening! So I just now paid her Western Union and she said she might start sketching tonight. She takes almost two months to finish, which is good because the concept I commissioned is of Cogliostro and should be done around Mike's birthday!

Hope he likes it!

We had sex this morning, feeding his need, as I really wasn't in the mood much cause I didn't feel good, but I'm happy it was done anyway, we needed it, maybe later we can go for round two.

I gotta go, he's home, and curious, looking over my shoulder, saw my e-mail to Keri so my surprise might already be ruined, he's asked about who is that now. So I'm gonna jet!

Mood:  chillin'

Originally posted on May 19th, 2004

Well Sue-Chan liked the "buttons" we made from her art, so I will add the two I have on this computer, very shortly after this entry. Nothing from Jurty or Kay yet.

I updated the boards, but no true activity yet.

I'll be adding web updates shortly.

Tonight is the series finale of Angel, hope Mike doesn't over sleep.

Had a scare yesterday, got a letter about Medicaid saying I would no longer be eligible after I got a letter on 4/22/04 saying I was still eligible so I called them up, seems there was a mix up and everything is fine and to ignore the most recent letter. I'm happy about that.

I hope to RP tonight, but Mike will probably put it off again. I'm so horny, gonna go distract my urges by working, yay!

Mood:  a-ok

Originally posted on March 18th, 2004

Well this weekend, we didn't role-play or even have sex. I miss Mike but this weekend was nice for "us" time, though I am disappointed that we did not make love to add to the mood.

Anyway on Sunday, we had donuts for breakfast, we went to dunken donuts. After which Mike and I went to Wal-mart and spent over 200 dollars on drinks, cleaning supplies and clothes for me. (His idea not mine, saying I needed to be a real woman and spend his money on clothes and accessories lol!) After the three hour shopping spree, we made a slit decision to go to the beach. Mike sent a half hour standing there letting the water wash over his feet. It lit up his face, in a way I never saw him. It may me love him more, we ate taco bell and went to bed.

Monday he had the day off. We went to ihop for breakfast, picked up some mail packages and then talked to our house renters. We got out of our lease, now we are month to month. We then went to look at a bigger place and put ourselves on the waiting list. Hopefully we'll hear something this summer, and hopefully Mike will talk to my grandpa before June. After which, we went to go see Troy. It was okay, if you like an attempt at realism and Brad Pitt naked at least 3 times. The dialog was lacking but the battle scenes were pretty cool. Worth seeing for certain, but a let down, if you are a fan of the Iliad.

All in all, it was a pretty spiffy weekend. I'm missing my Ogre and playing Xull'rae, hopefully we'll do both this week. It was nice change of pace to really get out of the house though.

Well, I'm off to try to do some web work.

Mood:  cool

Originally posted on May 10th, 2004

No RP.

But we did make love yesterday, but due to Mike hurting his leg prior to the weekend, he wasn't able to finish because it shot too much pain up his leg. It looked terrible, it knotted up, swelled and turned a flushed pink.

Mother's Day was a flop, but mom went riding so she was happy.
Mike called his Mom and talked to her for almost an hour.

We went to the Waffle House to eat and then went to see Van Helsing, good movie over all if a touch corny in a few places.

Jurty finally sent me a sketch, was very pleased can't wait for the finished version, the sketch itself was beautiful! Nothing from Kay Allen, 2-4 weeks more to go, I hope!

Will possibly add our campaign logs to candlekeep.

June is creeping up, no word on moving yet, rent will be 35 bucks more if we don't resign a new Lease by the 15th.
Very strange, just lost the Lifetime channel, very weird!

That's about it, time to try my hand at some web work.

Mood:  lazy

Originally posted on May 8th, 2004

Haven't written in a while simply because not much has happened. Never got to give grandpa the letter I typed up because no printer is working.

Stress level is high and tensions are thick. I hope Mike doesn't snap.

Nothing from Kay Allen still, but Jurty assures me I will get my sketch tomorrow, I'm really excited despite waiting for it for a month.

Still not into working for the website and Mike has been too tired to RP, so things are pretty blah

Hopefully things will change soon.

On a good note, been busy on Candlekeep on their forums, introducing our campaign and logs there. Have very few fans but some think it's cool, so that makes me happy. The head webmaster wants to feature our stuff on his main site, so gotta try and motivate Mike to respond and organize stuff to get that going.

Wish us luck!

Mood:  sad

Originally posted on April 30th, 2004

Well Mike had Thursday off, he finished laying down the tile for grandma, we made love, had breakfast and that is as good as the day went.

No RP, no movies, no true fun all because we all face the problem of moving soon and me not being taken care of again. My grandpa wants mom yo move out in June, for reasons he won't say. I wrote him a letter just now before this entry. I will not elaborate right now, as right now I feel it's a private matter.

I just hope things work out.

Mood:  hungry

Originally posted on April 26th, 2004

Nothing from Kay Allen yet but Jurty says I should get a sketch sometime this week. I hope it won't be another setback.

Things are okay for now, but tensions are getting high.
First no sex. Not since the last time I posted about it in this blog. Second Mike didn't lay down the tile for Grandma like he said he would, now she is not happy. Which will be linked to grandpa and there is already unspoken and resolved problems there concerning our living arrangement and not getting married this year.
Now We have money problems again, Mike checked his credit report, everything was cleared except a no name company that says he still owes over 1300 dollars. They close in 5 minutes, hopefully he got to talk to them today.

This has led to no true RP yesterday, except on the boards, but now I'm too nervous with all this mess to reply, hopefully Mike will have good news when he gets here.

Gonna go before I start to babble!

Mood:  bright

Originally posted on April 19th, 2004

Okay hours later..I'm trying to put down what I tried to earler before this stupid blog glitched. Here we go.

So I've not updated in a week, been too busy to collect my thoughts, sue me.

Lets see nothing of merit to say except that I had a few laughs the past few days.
In a fit of rage Mike tore off the door to the dog cage, the next day he fixed it but put it on backwards, so it opens the other way. This confused the dogs and they kept running into the door trying to get in the way it used to be. After two tries, Giger found the right way..while Babi had to have Mike put her in the cage after numerous attempts.
The next day after four attempts, she finally got it!

The day after that, while waiting in the car for Mike to get back from dropping food off into the house, one of our neighbor's boys climbed the tree adjacent to our car. This caused the dogs to jump to the car window and in my lap to bark. As I tried to quiet them, the boy made faces at them, antagonizing them. He was being cute, but neglected to pay attention to himself and he fell from the tree, bounced, landed on his back, and got to his feet, his face red and looking brave as if to say "that didn't hurt" and ran off. I laughed after he left.

This weekend Mike had Saturday off. Oh how I loved it!
Saturday we gamed with Scott, Rob and D and it felt like old times. We even got a session done for once!
Sunday we made love, (just hope I don't get another urinary again) and he wrote Sue for another commission. Kay Allen got another one done, so hopefully she'll start on mine next and maybe I'll get it by May! No sign of Jurty yet, but I refuse to bug her, but I am anxious to see my "smut" pic lol!
Mike and I also went to see The Passion of the Christ, it was awesome. A wonderfully compelling tale that touched my inner faith that there is God out there watching over us. I am no longer a devoutly religious person, but I still hold firm in my beliefs. I just don't believe in the church anymore. Too corrupt!
It's not too gory, but some scenes are intense, that made you feel angry that no one stopped the madness, or sad for Mary, having to watch her son go through that, even ashamed but still compelled to watch the brutality and betrayal Jesus went through. Satan was magnificent, you could see power in his gaze but the cold lurking evil about him, that sent a tingle along my spine.
Overall, I will recommend this movie to be watched. It is by far the best "bible" story out there. The animated Prince of Egypt coming in a close second!

I had to cancel my dentist appointment today, I didn't reschedule for another one, maybe I will in May (yes I'm a chicken).

Mike starts his own route today, so now he will get weekly days off (Saturday actually started it..and was his first official day off.

Things are starting to look up, and I hope whatever happens next, that there will be more happy days to come.