This poem was written about a guy named Brandon
that I went to christian school with.You will find that I
wrote about him a lot last year until his parents took
him out of that close-minded school in December. But,he was
very interesting to me.One of the few people I could relate
to in that sord of environment.
"Urge to Confuse"
He is the life that yearns for more;
His intelligence so ill burning through the door;
His sorrow so weak, his happiness so unknown;
He wants for life to become overthrown;
He doesn't know tomorrow or the hurt it may bring;
Respecting the fact that only those that fly will sing;
His whole natural being lies in free arms;
As not caring or loving just aching for harm;
I wonder if he ever crys;
My reply, only those who fly.
This one is also about Brandon.And the next one.
"Free Soul"
Running gracefully death reigns in his eyes;
the barrier falls from which his innocence lies;
His world is his toy that he plays with day by day;
the rain stops falling when he turns away;
Ringing in his life is the fullness beginning to shatter;
As he gets weak, down falls the ladder;
wanting in his soul, aching in his heart;
His faith no more will ever part;
He sleeps through his life wishing peace was there;
He combs his strong hands through his rough, dark hair;
His eyes fall over me like the clouds in a storm;
glaring easily fixed on the mourn;
death ceases the day in which he gives in;
Feeling his life line as the beat grows thin;
Looking through his soul I see the tear;
His delicate skin draws me near;
and I never end.
"And It Shows"
He loves the wind and the cool breeze it brings;
he wishes for the night and silence withs rings;
he is a shower of atomic gods;
with forever he no longer nods;
with now he hurts with open hands;
where he walks becomes sacred land;
he eyes depression and the truth never shows;
I ponder over the life he knows;
I worship the place where ever he lies;
And when he learns to cry;
his aching soul will never die.
Now this one is about my boyfriend. It speaks for itself.
"His Arms"
His arms are where I fall asleep;
they're where I go to cry and weap;
His arms protect me from hurt and pain;
they enclose me like the gentle rain;
His arms are a shelter to me;
they wash away the painful greif;
His arms are where I seem to run;
when ever I feel this life is done;
I cry at times just to be touched;
by those loving arms I miss so much.
This is about an abused six year old. I think I have more
sympathy for children than anyone else.
"Clixx"
There once was a girl who was no more than six;
She got beat with rods and sticks;
Her father set her in a fix;
Her mind was his to mix;
Then one day she had enough of this;
She ended her life with a click.
This dates back from my 7th grade summer when I ran
away from home. I was crying as I wrote it.
"Stay Gold"
Sometimes you feel that you don't have the strength and wisdom to go on living;
things in life are predictable and will eventually stop giving;
and everything in life will eventually grow old;
all of the legends go stale that have ever been told;
no matter how bad things get;
always stay gold.
You think that your life will never get better;
all of the bad things that happened are to strong to put in letters;
and all of the thngs that your mother told you just don't seem to matter;
all of your hopes and dreams begin to shatter;
always remember to keep climbing the ladder;
and stay gold.
This is about my boyfriend and what its like to be truly in
love with anyone.
"Melting"
I glance upon his beautiful eyes and begin to melt;
I touch his protective hands and magically can feel what he has felt;
I press my fingers against his sacred face;
All of the pain becomes erased.
His life is a secret that he keeps as the flowers in Spring;
His name is a symbol that the pure heavens bring;
His purity is a crystal with nothing but dreams;
Look beyond the waters for they are not as they seem;
His hair is a cover from the ever clear shame;
I feel as if the night is blamed;
Once in forever, I am the one;
I glance upon his heart and can make out the sun.
This poem is a dedication to Kurt Cobain of the late and great
Nirvana.RIP Kurt.He was so beautiful.
"In Memory"
Pale blue eyes that burned through the night;
fragile body full of fright;
Oblivious thinking, mind at pain;
Stuck in a time of grunge rock and rain;
Words living through the shadows always will ache;
Striking ambition that would never break;
feeling through the darkness of his own death wish;
Into reality, he would not miss;
an innocent smile that always ran;
Gave to us something that no one else can;
Our truth of words, abstract speech;
Grabbing for stars that cannot be reached;
Tomorrow will come and April will die;
But forever you live, forever we cry;
Beautiful hair of unwashed strands;
the red that glistened, the faded blonde stands
We will always remember your fortune and blame;
April, again, has gone and came;
But in the end, for you it rains;
In memory of you.... Kurt Donald Cobain.
This is about pain in life and finding your way through
it.
"Baring the shadows"
Life is a revolution crashing into the rain;
Evolution brings the power to get through the pain;
Although times are rough and the shadows remain;
Time will only tell how many are sane;
To love is a lesson only learned by few;
When you feel at end,you will get through;
A star sent from the heavens above;
is what its like to be in love;
Life is like rain drops only existing in gray;
Even when you hurt so badly,you will find a way;
Feel as one with the cooling breeze;
Forget your problems,you will find ease;
When you feel like crashing in;
Let yourself be your friend;
At times,we all must walk alone;
Never let your voice loose tone;
When you feel lost,desolate,and bare;
Put your trust in yourself's own care;
Grab your life by the hand;
When you feel like falling,continue to stand.
This is the dark side of looking on the bright side
and being let down by your high expectations.
"The sun"
Being happy isint always what it seems;
your true self shows through,although your eyes may gleam;
Be someone great and let your eyes shine;
Then maybe youl succeed at the process of time;
The rainbow is dark,never by your side;
Things that are expected will never obide;
Life's drum beats away from the clear lake;
Never let the monkey shake;
We are all one,freedom and peace;
Be happy and let the kindness release;
Afraid of the night and the bright moon that leads;
never let the sun fullfil your needs.
The following is once again, about Brandon.
I guess I sord of felt for him in a way.
"Satisfy the need"
He runs through my soul like the black,crystal rain;
He hurts as I touch but not with pain;
Tearing at his skin,destroying the high;
The rough strands fall over hovering his mysterious eyes;
Evil drawn from him pulls me closer to free;
Warmth comes over him yet settling with the cold breeze;
From him,I collapse wanting everything to come;
He draws me in, I feel as done;
Together we run, only never as one.
ummmm...this is about a girl at Praise who
everyone liked(except for me...too preppy)
I didnt understand her.
"Flowers of gloom"
Once everyday,she touches his hair;
Her skin innocent,her eyes always bare;
The jade green delight draws her unto the day;
Never wanting or pleading for her own way;
She is so envious with solitare justice for all;
So independent and strong, but never refusing the fall;
What does her mind ache for?What deepens her heart?;
What pulls her together, never apart?;
She wonders alone,everyone falls for her glance;
Her soul itself represents life's dance...
and she sets the pace.
This is,once again, about Brandon except this
also acknowledges a tree that we would spend lunch hour under
talking about the tortures of life.Everyone was afraid of us
especially when we were together.
"To him"
I want therefore it shows out of the light;
My heart swallows him only loving the right;
The tree from which memory hangs;
And what from his shade did I gain?;
His beautiful smile so soothing and cool;
The branches hang,he will always rule;
As their god,he showers and shows;
Only this limbs will ever know;
What he sees through those innocent eyes;
So pure but lively,I discover the lie;
That hovers what he tries to hide;
He leaps around yet subtle and silent;
What lies behind the showing violence?;
what he lives for is life without strife;
He cuts the edges of the sharp knife;
He becomes strung out with even defense;
His soul and skin are always tense;
Through these trees is always my forever;
Or maybe my never.
This traces back to 8th grade.Its very deep
and is about love in a fire sord of...
"The rose"
The rose like all things wilts away;
heals broken hearts day by day;
I compare our love to a rose;
All hearts seem to meet at its every glow;
The rose sparks a fire;
It seems to raise our love up higher;
Drift away into the sky;
I love the rose,not the high;
Even dead roses will fly;
The rose is red but my soul is black;
Your love is what I seem to lack;
Will the rose ever return?;
I think not...It continues to burn.
"Eternally"
Even strong things will break down at times;
the wind and storms run out of rhyme;
the sun washes away,the ending of the days;
together,forever,we all play;
Where do we go?,We only then know;
And what for this life do we have to show?;
Our life-lines will break,nothing continues to grow;
You cant fight the process of time;
You may not be forgiven for your crimes;
The stars all fall from the sky;
the blood comes together;
We all as one die.
This is about a bracelet that Brandon gave me last year.
It was black with two black beads and a penant was skulls on it.
I still have it.The last line of this poem has,however, been changed for the sake
of my rep.
"Soul Mates"
Ties the black band around my wrist;
In life, I worship it like the crystal flakes of mist;
he pulls me back,now drawn back tight;
furnishes my soul with the darkness of his light;
the beads of life,I see no more;
these are what I now adore;
they fulfill my loneliness with him at my side;
I feel as if I can obide;
he glances at me,I turn to dust;
For now I am familiar with lust.
This reflects my personality and thoughts from Praise Academy.
This was written outside the school on lunch hour.It was a very
depressing place to be. I tried to kill myself with the blades of
of green grass I would sit on everyday.
"Only the weak"
The world is a puzzle in which I have lost a piece;
I overlook the darkness and the children lacking peace;
They say its all beautiful,happy,and free;
Only if the world would ask me;
Afraid at the basis,who rules this terrain?;
the blackness falls from my soul,mixes in with the rain;
the violent storm hovers over the world's light;
We really have no need to fight;
Only the weak will die;
Only attention-getters ache to cry;
Love yourself and learn to fly.
This one is for my boyfriend and the emptiness
I feel when hes not around.
"Unspoken"
Two hearts of one feather is what we are together;
Weve been through it all,good times and bad;
In my darkest despair,your love is all I had;
Although I may act at times as though I dont care;
The deepest of my heart is all I have to bare;
The sight of you makes me grow weak;
My hands start to shiver,I cannot speak;
My heart begins to quake;
My smile and veins begin to shake;
Your gorgeous hair shades over your beautiful eyes;
Deep inside I start to cry;
When Im with you,I feel complete;
My thoughts unspoken,my consciousness leaves;
These feelings I have,I dont always show;
But as time progresses,my love only grows;
When you wrap your strong arms around me;
your addicting love is all I see;
You pull me closer,your scent sets me free;
Your hot caressing kisses shower my soul;
In my aching heart,you fill the hole;
You were destined to be together,i hope you understand;
I was meant to be your girl,and youll always be my man.