A Page for Blossom
This is a page with stuff about Jenns and pics of her and such. I decided to put her here cuz she has sent me lots of stuff and she also has a pic of me with my poemies on her page. She's also just a wonderful girlie!! So here ya go.................
First: you can go to her webpage: i became insane with long intervals of horrible sanity
Second: here are some pics of her:
Third: Some of Jenn's Family Pics:
Above: Her brother Byron's tattoos
Fourth: Things that Jenns has either drawn or painted:
Fifth: Poems I've written for Jenns:
In Your Place-08.06.2000
If I could
I would take your place
release you from
your pain and fear
let you be with someone
someone who will take care
if i could let you free
i would
letting them take my life
instead of yours
youve suffered much too long
dont deserve a bit of it
so let me relieve you
they can take me instead
i will take your bruises and cuts
work as hard as you have
endure the names
everything that comes to you
i will collect it all
maybe let them have a taste
of what theyve deserved
for such a long time
i am here for you to talk to
but i would be there
if i could
and let you be where
youve always wanted to be
in the arms of the one
you have loved ((Keithy))
For the Unexpected Me or Am I Her?-07.2000
unexpected things happen
never know who you'll meet
never know how
a friends love
i finally spoke to her
how strange it was
but then
the more we talked
the more familiar it seemed
so many things in common
pain being shared
you realize her time
has been worse than yours
yet she is still lovely
sweet
full of love
how hurt shes been
how strong she remains
love is strong
we are the same
yet different
a good person she is
and how i owe her already
for what shes shared
The Purrfect Love of Keith & Jenn-07.25.2000
the love you 2 share
its all seen clearly
by the ones all around you
especially ones closer
we can feel it pulsate
how special it is
the love i see
flowing from a distance
yet seeming so near
it gives me hope
one day ill have
what you 2 give
one another
because i had it once
never means i wont have it again
how your love magnified
lets me keep my faith
in even the one i love
that has gotten away
something so complete
never forgotten
will always shame the heavens
for their love to the world
will never match
what you feel for each other
Jenn's Story-07.25.2000
pain from the past overflows you
making you weak outside
strength clings to you
keeping you here
being who you are
a loss of so many
keeping their memory alive
sadness surges
cant hide it away
its alright to cry
love you gave
love you receive
all glowing about you
past cant change
present wont either
but you will be free
blossom
were here
watching over you
a part of you
Realization of Goodbye-08.30.2000
realize shes dying
that shell be gone soon
too tired to fight the disease anymore
it has taken over
first time i heard her say this outloud
but i knew it deep inside
only it hurts millions time worse
more than some will ever know
when she says it in her own words
and its there
hanging in the air
like so many things that shell never see again
dont know how ill tell her goodbye
shes the face im yet to see
but one of the greatest people
ive been proud to meet
so now i vow
to see her while she has her own breath left
and able to talk about the things we always do
instead of having my first glimpse be
the tiny body
lying in a dark oak coffin
knowing i wasnt there to help
and that she was yet to be faced
with her greatest love ((Keithy))
Ballad of Sadness-09.19.2000 til 09.20.2000
birth of a child that was not
suppose to happen
she wrote this with a black pen
to me, her treasured wren
i am always in her heart
with her as she cries
with her as she thinks she dies
we are one when she cries
with ever strike i absorb
her pain to make it
better even though i can only sit
and listen about being hit
closer the disaster brings
us into friendship
sharing things even about my hip
and sailing on ships
we will stay friends forever more
eternal single twins
who collect all of their wins
never losing their whims
Your Disease-08.24.2000
withering away
so thin and frail
hardly can we see you anymore
youre body is almost gone
no time to worry about other things
my mind is set on you
youre pain
and situation
my disappearing friend
you can hold on
dont let the words take you away
youll be beautiful
no matter what your size
but the body is almost gone
i know you can do it
you are so strong
believe in yourself
we
the ones that love
are here for you
dont fade away
take the disease
blow it away
even though it's a boulder
you can erode the rocks away
Don't Become that Blackhole-09.27.2000
worried that
you will be a star
that maybe die out soon
and i will not be able to gaze upon
the full incadescence that is you
all your strength
and everything else in you
is pulled into getting better
yet somehow it's not enough
you are in my every wish
and light breaths
for i am you
and you are me
tied together
by thin pink strings
you can have my body
and everything i am
so you can get better
and not fade
my star
my sister
my twin
my bestest friend
please stay here
Can't Do Anything Else-09.27.2000
Sleep has left me
i dont think it will heal
what i'm feeling
food is something
i dnt long for
it isnt going to cover the hole
that i have
opening through my head and heart
what am i suppose to think about?
you mean so much to me
and i need you here
i want you to always be there
so you can talk to me
and so i can talk back
but if you are gone
how can we do that?
do not feel guilty
you are not to blame
none of this did you ask for
but i will be here for you
forever and always
Do These Things-09.27.2000
smile
beautiful girl
you are so pretty when you do
laugh
because sometimes thats all you can do
no matter what your pain
or agony
i know you hurt
i'm here to listen
and to try and collect
whatever i can
shine
you do it naturally
because you are a star
with so many talents
love
even if your heart is on fire
because we love you
and you deserve the best
I Wanted to Try for You-10.18.2000
i cried
because i felt your pain
it became my own
though the silent words
i did not speak
because they refused to surface
how i would bring him back
if it would bring
some sort of happiness
to that beautiful face of yours
i know it was disappointing
to have me squirm
while you needed me
because hes gone
and you cant see him anymore
but i didnt know what to do
while in this shape
and feeling one millionth
or less
of the pain youre in
i'm holding you
even if you cant feel me
and crying with you
like you wanted someone to do
even if you cant see me
or my trembling tears
Living Reasons-10.25.2000
your morbid silence
grasps for life
as you reach for reasons
to even go on
How I wish youd listen to them
and your own beaten heart
so one day I can see
my inspiration for living
and loving every day
how i wish
we could cry our tears together
and never be alone
no matter who leaves us
And There you have it. You now can see the beauty that is Jenns... my sister & my twin even though we look nothing alike :o).
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