As if I am going to let you read my REAL journal! HA!I will only share with you what I WANT to! Deal with it!
070801 and forever GO TO MY NEW JOURNAL
Yeah, I printed out this journal to keep forever, so instead of starting a new page of journaling, I'm trying out this Live Journal thing. Seems pretty neat.
070701Listening To: computer hum YAY! My computer is fixed! We had to get a new modem. However, the library was getting to be a pretty comfortable place. Still am shocked that I got a library card since I have that Louise Brooks biography out ever since 1998. ha! I beat the system! I checked out two movies from the library..."Labyrinth", because I only saw it when I was little, and "Dracula", the original, because have never seen it. I remember "Labyrinth", back then, made me decide I didn't like Bowie because of his teeth. I thought the whole movie was weird in a dumb way. Now I see it is just little kiddly and muppety. So far we are on our third day of installments of watching it...almost...done...pant! Ready to finish it.
The courts have decided that the city can't force the bars down here to close at 2AM! YAHOO! Just all of a sudden they decided this and announced it. Cool!!!!
Carrie might come down next week!
Taylor popped into school yesterday! Surprise! She's back from all her vacationing. We went to eat at Captain D's again and talked all about all our teaching interview progress and all. She's going to NC this weekend to try to get a teaching job up there, where her boyfriend lives. She said in Denmark, where she just went, they eat lots of gigantic raw fish. Not cute sushi. Just a slab-o-fish. She said she had to force herself to swallow every bite, as not to be rude!!
Off to Captain Tangs to get eggroll supplies....maybe some pancit, too! Been going to North Charleston too much!!!!
I'm so sad. Everyone knows that no cool bands ever come anywhere near to Charleston. Atlanta is a trek of 5 hours through this insane, killer traffic. By some act of charity on his part, Marilyn Manson is going to the House of Blues in Myrtle Beach on Monday. Amazing! I want to go so bad. I've never been to any cool concert other than Filter, and that was a 96 Wave Fest. But since it is a school/work night, Allen doesn't want to go. Now, the thing is at 8:30 at night. If he would call out of work, we could leave when I get home from work, get there an hour early, see the concert, and still be home by 12:30. I even offered to drive AND pay for the tickets. But he says he needs ever penny of money from work to fix the clutch on his car. Whaaaaaaa! Normally I would just go get the tickets and kidnap him. but, since he has to work, I can't. Whaaaaaaa! I noticed that today or tomorrow Depeche Mode will be in the Atlanta House of Blues. Maybe in a couple years they will end up at ours. Sigh.
It's very exciting seeing the answers to my barber poll, on entry before last. I wish I knew who answered what. Like, who said do the mullet?! I oly know of maybe three people who for sure always check my page...Carrie, Xtina, and maybe Mike (but his computer is broken) and Stephanie (if she's cool!!!), so who are these other 3 or 4 mystery visitors? Hmmmmmmm. They need to sign my guestbook!!!!! yes!!!! Sign it or else!!!!
070501No music. Just library sounds.My computer got struck by lightning monday, so until we get a new modem (that works...we already tried one that didn't), I have to go to the library to compute. Bla. I must get off in a second because I feel rude being on too long. I am amazed I was able to get a library card, as I have had a book out since 98. I guess the new married name got me out of it! Wheeee! Now I will go check out a movie.
I bought 3 readables yesterday. A Wide Window by Lemody Spicket or something was the first. A kids book that Mike introduced me to. I normally don't read such things, but it is cool. Like, the goth Harry Potter. These orphan kids who are subject to nothing but doom and misery. It is hilarious. And the books LOOK cool, too! Then I got the magazine Stuff For Men. It is Sooooooooo funny! I highly recommend it. Then I got A Wrinkle in Time by that frenchy sounding lady. One I always liked.
I finally got to hang out with Mike again since forever. Two days in a row! Wowwie! Went to several malls, best buy, etc. We saw many a buggy pushin' hottie. Ha ha! All these young guys with babies. It was an epedemic. Then he left his wallet in my car and we had to make the fourth trip to north charleston yesterday to return it. Got to see his cat, Ming, and talk to his mom.
I've just got to go. Feel rude being on for an hour. Adwee (that's goodbye how I feel like saying it right now).
Oh, also decided I will ask Anna, the director at school, if I can have any teaching spot that comes to be open in the fall, rather than the assistant stuff. I am only assistant cause I came in half way through the year. I am bored feeling doing this and have lost my big drive to be a real teacher. But when i was filling in as head honcho when Gina was out for 3 weeks, I was going crazy to be THE teacher. I need that to feel like I am showing my full potential!
070101On TV: Superman theme songSigh. Every Sunday I get in a funk. For one, I know I have to go back to work tomorrow and I know I am no closer to getting out of there and into a regular school. For two, we usually go to North Charleston to Northwoods mall on Sundays, or else to the dollar movie theater up there. That's where I grew up, but every time I go back, I get all depressed. It sucks there. And I think, like, have I turned into a downtown snob from living here for almost 8 years? No. It just opened my eyes to what I was too used to seeing all the time. I always thought it was alright where I was, even though I knew it really wasn't. But now it is really going downhill. Or am I being snobby? No, I'm not. That's why I get sad. Cause I finally see what everyone else has always seen.
I just haven't been fun to hang out with today. I hardly talked the whole way to the mall and back. Must find a way to get happy!!!
The baseball game yesterday was actually pretty fun. The Riverdogs won against the Savannah Sand Gnats. We were sad that there was no Sand Gnat mascot...I really wanted to see such a thing! A bunch of rednecks were in front of us whining and getting all violently stirred up over their seats being taken for about a half hour. One of the wives was getting so annoyed by everyone else. I felt sorry for her...and us, cause they kept standing in our way.
Here. Take my hair poll. Tell all your friends to take it. Refer to photos page to see my hair now. Not that I will ever do any of these, but I would like to! Some, that is! Make sure to leave a comment. Perhaps a style I didn't list?!
063001In Head: "In Your Room"-Depeche Mode-(S.O.F.A.D.) I am hating my hair. It is too blonde. And I am toooo tan. Can't help that...having to be outside all day at school. The contrast is bla. The tan will fade, but I am doomed to have this hair forever. I even cut about an inch and a half off tonight, thinking it would revive my like for it, but no. Boring hair. Check back tomorrow or the next day...maybe I will put a poll on here of how I should do my hair next!
Getting ready to go to a Riverdogs baseball game. We don't like baseball, but the tickets were free from the place we got the car fixed. Supposed to have big fireworks tonight.
Went to the beach earlier. Really good water temp. and waves, for once. Charleston doesn't have good waves.
062701Listening To: "Shadowboxer"-Fiona Apple (Tidal)The big story of the day is retold on the daily picture page.
Dragging myself off this computer to do some major house cleaning today. Peepers also has torn the leopard wall blanket thing off my bedroom wall, as well as the mosquito net thing from my bed. He is bad about that, which is why we have to keep that door closed. It's his only flaw! Will redesign the bedroom wall hangings/mosquito net.
062601Listening To: "Push It"-Garbage (Version 2.0) I decided against coloring my entries according to mood. Or did I?
What have I looked at on the computer this afternoon? First, I check my e-mail. Then I look for stuff on Michael Miller, who that book I just read was about...the schizophrenic guy who ended up killing his mom cause no one ever properly treated his mental illness. Found nothing on him. Then I checked all those online journals I am stupidly addicted to...Xtiana's, Carrie's, and a couple other ones (1, 2). Checked my fast counter. Sad!
Stephanie was supposed to drive me home today cause our car is out of commission (Allen's sensei smashed into it a little), and then her car ended up bombing out, too, so we both had to get a ride to Autozone from Brad and Sydney's ( cool twins from our class last school year) mom! Allen gave us his keys at Autozone (his part time job) and I drove her home and then drove myself home. I get to go pick him up in an hour. Then come home and make some pork chops, mashed potatoes and green beans! Sound yummy? It is!!!!
Something about this CD is draining my thoughts...I can't concentrate on what I want to say!
Allen and I went to Meritage, this swanky little appetizer/dessert/bar place last night, compliments of the gift certificate one of the kid's mom gave me at the end of last year! It was pretty cool! We had chicken wings, a vegetable burrito, creme brulee and biscotti! And sweet tea! Got to make fun of all the young grown ups! All the tiny Martha Stewarts who just want to land a rich husband. All the girls who have haircuts that make them look too old. Bla!
I'm sad! This guy Aadli went to high school with me and he's cool. I've seen him around downtown a few times since high school and twice now (one being the other night) he has given me his e-mail address. The first time, it was in Club 54 and I didn't hear it right. Now, the one I KNOW he gave me doesn't work. I am doomed to always look like I am dissing him by not writing! I had hoped to make him another slave to my webpage...addicted to checking it for updates every day, hour after hour! Ha! Well, maybe next time I will get the address right!
My cousin Amy is pregnant! Yay! This rocks because she had a baby one time before, but she was born premature...really premature. Like, three months. She held on about a month, maybe, but died. Sad. We had to go the little Lily's funeral up in Virginia. Amy had to have a C-section in order to give birth, and, in the process, they had to dig around so much for the baby that they damaged her insides and told her she wouldn't be able to have anymore babies. And one time, while her stiches were healing, she strained herself too much going up the steps of her house and came all undone. Ug. So, we are so happy for her. I hope everything goes good this time. She will be crushed if it doesn't. Grandma needs her first great grandkid. Anyway, YAY FOR AMY!!!!!!
When mom called to tell me that news, she had to add into it all her usual bla bla bla about us ever having babies. Sigh. Every time I call her I hear it! She's like, "I don't know what to tell people when they ask me when you are having kids". She hints that maybe we don't even want any. I'm like, "did I EVER say that"? She's all, "well, you never tell me anything". AAAG! I told her, as I have twenty thousand times, if it happens, it happens. It will be cool. But we aren't ready to go on a mission to have kids today! If we do, it will be the dirty, poor kid on the block! I should tell her to send us a check each month to cover it and we'll do it. Sure, in her day people got the buns in the oven soon as they got married. But we're still having fun. We've only been married almost 2 years! What's the rush! I want to at least get a teaching job (or a real job in general) first so I can feel half way secure. If I was to have a baby right now, I know that I would not go out looking for a real job...I'd want to stay home and I can't do that now. But that doesn't matter to her. Nor does it matter that my cousin Lisa hasn't had any and she is my age, and that Amy only had her first one (that died) when she was the age I am now! She treats me like I am lagging behind everyone and the world is just on the edge of their seats waiting for this! It makes me mad because I almost feel like, no, I won't have one now just cause it will make you happy! I'm waiting til I am ready! And that's not the way to think. I actually think it WOULD be fun and cool and that I am ready, but I also know that I need to use common sense and not try to get into something that I am not completely ready for (financially, especially!) at this very second! Why can't she just accept it when I say to give me a couple years and I will be ready! She really thinks, also, that in a couple years, my then 29 year old organs will just be too haggardly and dried up to be of any use! She tries to make me feel like 27 is old. Please. We know what we are doing. It's just really annoying.
062401Listening To:Prodigy (Fat Of The Land) Ug...That medicine that took so long to get ended up making me intensely nauseous the whole day and night. I thought I would have to go to the emergency room, so I called Allen to come home from work early. Then I called the doctor and he just said it was the medicine, so he took me off of it and I got a new one that is fine. Bla. All that for strep throat. That's the only really bad thing about working with kids...I have been sick more times in this past job than ever in my life! Carrie has a new webpage setup! Very cool! And Xtina has started updating again since returning from Italy! Yay!
Saw "The Fast and the Furious" today...it was ok. Then we went and ate at the new food court by the aquarium...big mistake. Don't bother going there. It was sick.
Went to a party at Wanda's house, who Allen worked with at MUSC. A barbeque thingie. Made me want to redecorate the house. Especially made me want some real sofas and chairs, as I am getting very sick of the ones G-ma and mom gave us...I should be sick of them, since I have been seeing them my whole life. Didn't get to hang out with Mike AGAIN cause I was in misery that day. Will try again THIS week!!!
Not in a big writing mood today...more tomorrow. 062001Listening To:"Remote Control"-Beastie Boys (Hello Nasty)Should I vary my diary colors to reflect my mood? Well, since today's would be BLACK, I can't do that, so I will use the opposite...yellow. But pretend it is black. Man. I am in such a bum mood. No, not sloppy. That's just the word that came to mind...a bad, bum, black mood. Well, I got to be off work today cause I woke up to find the biggest, nastiest strep throat splotch on my throat. It had been a little sore the past couple days, and in a streppy way, but I saw no spots at all. This huge, earth-sized one popped up overnight on my big old cryptic tonsil. yeah...I am all deformed in the mouth. I have a tarus on the roof of my mouth, which I thought everyone had, and only realised that it was ME who was the freak when Allen was like, "aag! What's with the alien in your mouth!". Most people have smooth, flat, slightly curved roofs of their mouth. I have a tarus, like mom and grandma, which is a ridge in the center going in a uvula-to-tooth direction. Like a hill! Well, I like my tarus. It makes me sing good! THEN, I have cryptic tonsils. My tonsils have "pockets", or little "crypts", if you will, which can easily be breeding grounds for nasties like strep. I used to get strep all the time. Haven't in a few years. So, now it came back with a vengance. I told the doctor, "pretty gross, huh?", and he replied, "yeah, pretty gross!"! HA!
So, I get lucky enough to get out of school for the day, but it has been spent being frustrated and mad. I went to to see the doctie at 12. After, I went to Wal Mart on Folly Road to get my prescription. Hadn't been called in. The pharmacist lady was snooty, too. AND, they don't take my state insurance. Arg! So I left all mad, knowing I had to go home and call the doctor and see what was up and change to Eckerds. It's pouring rain, flooded, and traffic jammed out the ear the whole way home. I try to go down Calhoun Street to avoid flooded areas and the traffic made it take 15 minutes to get a few blocks. I was so mad and road raging. I decided I HAD to go to Great Wall for some buffet and just calm down. I have never had to do that. Anger management. I go in and have my buffet, which was pretty good. I was the only one in there....watched CNN. The disco ball and speakers are still up from when it used to be magically transformed into "The Wall" at night--a little techno club.
So I leave a little happier and more nourished than when I came in. I go home and call the doctor and they say, "oh, you wanted the doctor to call in that prescription?". I'm like, "yeah!". How else am i supposed to get it? So, I tell her to call it instead to Eckerds. I ask, "WHEN will it be called in?". She says in fifteen minutes. I give her 45 and then go to pick it up. Not called in. So mad. Had to leave again, having only bought my trusty bottle of Excedrin Migraine and some calming, soothing Chamomile and Vitamin E bath soak--I need both. Mr. Pharmie says that most docs don't call in prescriptions til 5, when they close. Why do they LIEEEE then?! Oh...for all you girlies out there looking for a cute pharmicist, Eckerds on Calhoun Street has THREE! Wowwie!
So, I am writing this while I wait for 4:50 to call that dang doctor's office back and harass them about if they have called in my meds. I NEED THEM! I feel like now I AM going to get sick feeling, just cause I don't have them. I don't feel sick yet.
Yesterday I was in the bathroom at the preschool checking my hair...had the door open. When I turned to leave, CRACK! I didn't know I was so close to the door frame and I smashed my nose into it. I had to close the door and cry! Nose injuries are the weirdest feeling. I was scared it was broken. It isn't, but it is still sore. Surprised there's no bruising or swelling. But I DID go get my new driver's license today and I swear my nose looks bigger. Yesterday I asked Stephanie how it loked and she studied it for a minute and then looked all aghast..."oh my gosh! It looks completely different", she told me with her eyes bugging out! So i rushed to the bathroom (watching out for the door) and looked at it, seeing my same old nose. When I came back, she was like, "well, maybe I just never really looked at your nose that well before!". It hurts!!!
Then, on top of my poo day, I got a letter from Memminger, the school by Xtina's, saying other people got the jobs. So, I am getting depressed about jobs. Wishing I had majored in something else. Teaching isn't like most jobs...you can't continuously search for jobs...you only get the chance once a year! Then you go a whole year with no teaching job and try again the next year, get nothing, and go another year in a weird-waiting-to-get-a-teaching-job job. Sigh. I am really in a bum mood right now, but if things go better within the next 30 minutes I will be ok. Meaning, get my prescription, take a bath, etc.
Complain, complain. I also had to miss my workout day at school cause I refuse to go in if I couldn't make it to school I need to work out. I am starting to get "getting in the upper 20's paranoia". Worried how I am not going to be getting any better looking, only worse. Need to work out. Same weight as always, barely 100, but I feel bigger. Why's that? I don't want to grow up. I need to go hang out with my friend Peter Pan Man/Boy and be his Tinkerbell and stay young forever! Ha!!!
Nose hurts. Ow.
((Later))Listening To: "Shake Your Rump"-Beastie Boys (Paul's Boutique)A few minutes later. Finks. They still messed up. Called it in, but to Wal Mart. I was smart enough to call there to make sure. So, Wally Lady called it in to Eckerds. Mr. Eckerds Pharmie remembered me over the phone. But I am embarassed to call AGAIN over there to check if it has been called in yet. Man. What a RIGAMAROLE.
Peepers has been so understanding and loving to me in my time of despair today! ha! I came in and layed on the floor and looked at my newest volume of Cistern, the College of Charleston update of all alumnis. One girl that was this big raver is now in law school. Very surprising! Anyway, Peeps knew I was sad and was all kitty headbutting my face and laying by me. He rules! Which is why I took this picture of him chilling near me while I wrote all this today.
I'm hanging out with Mike tomorrow after work! I will take my digital camera tomorrow so I can get a real picture of him! I haven't been hanging out with him much at all since we both got "real" jobs. Sorta sad. We've got to work on that!!!!
My entries are long. I like that. I need to eventually print out all of them to put in my REAL diary, since I don't use it anymore. That's a picture of it on the top of this page. I'm on a roll today. I very well may write more later. Beware!
061901Listening To: Depeche Mode: "World In My Eyes"-Violator CD Wheee! Christing wrote today and she is home! Check out her Xtina Page for big journal entries and stuff about her trip to Italy! I figure she'll do some! I hope! How silly--she gets home the day after we leave Charlotte. Oh well!
I'm on my break. I wanted to write my thing for the day and get it over with so that I can do some redesigning of my page after work rather than focus on journaling. Going to do that and work out because I Neeeed to!
So anyway, Charlotte was COOOL! We want to move out of Charleston eventually (I think, but sometimes I think not) and have considered Savannah, St. Augustine, FL, or maybe Charlotte or Virginia Beach, where my aunt Paula lives. I don't know. It is such a hard decision because there are SO many places! How do I choose one!!! It will be a long time, anyway. I like Charleston so much and have always lived here, but there are problems...the school district (and all of SC in general) stinks, there is such a small middle class, and I am sick of seeing all this confederate flag uproar. I hate, hate, hate prejudice of any kind...what I see in other cities is minorities who are more equal and accepted. That's what I like. It's not THAT bad here, but it is compared to other places I have been. Anyway, enough of that....I was talking about our trip.
We went to Carowinds and rode every roller coaster (I challenged myself!). I loved Top Gun! We wanted to ride it a second time, when it was dark, but it had gotten stuck! Bad sign. Allen wanted to ride it once it was fixed but I shut him down! Ha! We spent the daytime at the water park (fun, Matrix-like birth canal water shoots! ha! Pitch black inside with tiny light holes...very fun!) and the night at the ride area. Fun fun! We ate Olive Garden for supper til they gave us the freeze out...brrr. Sunday we got to see Carrie working at Dean and Deluca in her Deananddelucasuit! Ha! We had our very first dean and deluca eating experience and got to see The Mallion Stallion there. This guy thought he was the schmoothie of schmoothies in his riding boots. Actually, he was really cute for an old guy! We waited for Carrie to get off work so we could hang out...shopping at the mall til then. I was so sad that they didn't have Sephora. That is the coolest store! But I bought a neato fake Gaultier tattoo shirt...all yellowy with diamonds and all this chinese stuff on it....I will take a picture to add to my splurge page. I also got a Destiny Child "Survivor" shirt--tank top chamoflage with green leather straps!
When Carrie was set free, she met us at the mall and took us to Wolfman's Pizza! Very yummy! I had a spinich and chicken personal pizza...Allen got a calzone and she got the Mikado or something...greek pizza. It was cool seeing her again! She had another Thornwheel Chris date that night! And he asked her out for a third! The drama continues! I still wanna see what this Superstar looks like! He's a rocker! Yeahhhhhhhhh!!!!!
Now it's time to return to the doom tomb! Just kidding. Speaking of doom tomb, I love reality shows. I even was obsessed with Big Brother (and a new one is coming out soon! Whee! Eddie was cute! Even with just one leg!!!!!! Who cares!). So, I am all into Fear Factor now. Last night they had to lay down in a pit of flesh eating worms! Ha!!!! Tis vegetarian chick had to drop out cause she picked the card that said she had to eat one. Anyway, back to school.
061801In head: The hum of silenceExhausted. Charlotte was cooool this weekend, and we got to hang out with Carrie (wheee!) and ride allll the roller coasters at Carowinds, but I am to tired from it all and from my bad sleep last night to go into detail. Last night Allen was grinding his teet, the cat was meowing at odd times, and the power went off and I had to reset the clock...like, no REM at all last night. Now, to go take a nap and hopefully I won't end up waking up all grumpy, sweaty and headachy, like I usually do. We have important shopping to do after karate...pillows. The ones on our bed are killing our necks! Maybe I will write more in awhile if I decide not to sleep.
061501In My Head: "Duvet"-BoaI just busted up Allen's car, or something. I went over this bump I go over 4 times a day, every day of the week, and then his noisy flowmaster zoom got louder. By the time I got home, I heard a rattling and I was sure I had a flat tire. Then, our neighbor announces to me that the exhaust pipe is hanging down. I was like, "aha!". I don't think it is the exhaust pipe, as I thought that was in the back of the car. This is perfectly in the middle and is some sort of pipe. I got to get out of school for the rest of the day, though, and I will get to go to Carowinds early, too! Not that I am an expert, but I think this looks like something halfway easy to fix.
So, that was my turn. Allen had it the other day with our cool mobile! I forgot to tell Carrie and Christina this....Mark, Allen's sensei in karate, came to class the other day and told allen that he accidentally hit the schmooth mobile. Allen was like, "that's ok", cause Mark said it wasn't bad. Well, it ISN'T bad, but to fix it is gonna cost at least 300 dollars. Mark said he would pay for it, but we feel bad telling him how much it will cost. ARG! Our luck! Been having lots of bad luck lately...the ticket, getting thrown up on by Cameron, having a hard summer at work, etc.
Yeah, work is crazy in the summer because the days are less structured, and we have more early 3's or BARELY 3's, who aren't potty trained well enough and cry all the time. And we have a new girl who is really nice and all, but has no education background and doesn't understand how to really manage a class. This is hard cause it's her class and mine together alot and I feel like I always am the only one disciplining her class (she has an eeeevil clas, too!). Well, Stephanie and Ms. Maxwell do, too.
OOH! I just realised! I am off work! During business hours! I can actually go get my license renewed! WHHOOOOO HOOOOOOOO! I'm ging right now! What will I wear, what will .........DUH! I AM A RETARD! THE CAR IS BUSTED! Shoot. I got all ready. This stinks!
I am depressed now. Not really. I need to pack and wash dishes. Aren't you glad you are taking the time to read my journal to find out such amazing things? I'll go write Xtina, call mom and grandma, pack, and wash dishes.
061301In My Head: "Justify My Love"-MadonnaWow! A week since I have written! I feel so lazy! Lots has happened. I would have had many long stories to tell every day, but now I will just tell them all quickly.
Friday I got 2 speeding tickets at once. I got stopped on this 20 mile an hour strip by my house because I was going 35. Man...I'm bad! Whatever. So, instead of giving me a 4 point ticket, I just got a careless operations violation and have to pay $210. WHAT!!!! Everyone I tell is amazed. But the cop said I can get it reduced if I go to court. Guess I have to, or else I will be putting it on my credit card! THEN, he gave me a $90 ticket for having an expired license! It's been expired for almost a month and I just let it go because a teacher at the school told me it was goodd for thirty days after your birthday. Guess she was wrong! He said I can get that one dropped all together if I renew my license. So, $300 worth of tickets all for 15mph. AAAAG!
I had two interviews this week...one at the elementary school I went to when I was little, and one at a private Catholic school. I put in a billion resumes everywhere, both private and public, cause I just NEEEED a job! They both went fine. The Catholic one today was strangely tougher because the principal had these bulging eyes that just stared at me and it was really unsettling. And everytime I would answer a question, he'd stay quiet a few seconds, which made me feel like I needed to go on when I had nothing else to say! But he was nice. Actually, he looked JUST like Ned Flanders on The Simpsons!
Still feeling very pessimistic about getting a job.
Last night/today, I allowed myself to spend some money for redecorating the bedroom. Spent too much. I have always liked Indian decorating (not Native American), and at Barnes and Noble I was terribly inspired by a book of it. Luckily, my house is slightly like this anyway...lots of red/dark stuff or else really bright colors. So, I was going to allow myself to spend a little money. I spent more than I should have, but it was all worth it. The biggie was a cool sari that I hung on the wall (even though I really liked it on the bed). I HATE my walls cause they are ugly butt WHITE! Can't paint apartment walls. When I get a real house, I will have a room with red walls and all the other ones will be drastically different...like totally bright/pretty colors. Fruity colors. Anyway, the lantern puts all these cool swirlies all on the ceiling and underneath it. Got a few candle holders. Made a shrine for Peepers! A little dark table that is on the floor...just his height, with a mirror, a candle, and a coooool Egyptian bone-carved cat. Then, I got a bunch of red glass dinnerware from Waccamaw, cause it is going out of business. Whoopie! I love red glasses! For those interested in seeing the secret inner sanctum that is my bedroom/all the stuff I bought, look at this Page of Things I Bought Recently!.
Carrie is hanging out with Thornwheel Chris! Neat! It is like a soap opera hearing all her daily updates! We are going up to Charlotte, where she is, this weekend and hopefully will see her/them!!!!! Also, we're going to go to Carowinds!
Speghetti for supper on my cool new red plates!
060601Listening To: Depeche Mode "Stripped" Highland Mix SingleMy OWN elementary school, where I went, called for an interview today. Must return the call tomorrow. This school is one I subbed at and said I'd never go there again. However, it is right around the corner from my grandma's house and two of my school teachers still work there! Two plusses. And the same principal as when I went there, and he goes to my childhood church, too. You know, I am desperate and I will work anywhere. I'll MAKE those kids act right, darnit!
Within 5 minutes today, three kids had climbed to the tip top of a wooden structure at school, taller than Stephanie, who is about 6 feet tall. A girl puked all over the playground. A kid peed on the ground. Within 5 minutes. We felt all negligent! Oh well. Two days left of this week.
Going to take a bath and a nap.
I miss all my friends who have gone away for the summer!
TONIGHT is the NEW Bobbi Night!
That means I WON'T be taking a bath...I will just be getting stinky.
Got to do bills. Ug
I never go on AOL IM anymore. Maybe I should peek if someone's on.
Not in a big thinking mood. Maybe I will write more later. Feel like caveman. No write good.
060501Listening To: Ozzy Osbourne: "Crazy Train" DOCUMENTARY OF A THERAPUTIC SPENDING SPREE! Munching on tomato slices with parmesan cheese, salt, pepper, and greek dressing. And black cherry kool aid. It's dark grey outside. I am in a delimma...do I call Mike and try to get him to come hang out or do I stay home and play with my new shampoo and conditioner (Revlon Colorstay...Like my hair!) and take a big relaxation bath? Hmmmm. I think I will e-mail Mike and make an appointment for Thursday. I might even take a nap tonight. Must remember to potty like a big girl before I nap. Oops...stuck in preschool teacher mode. WHOOPSIE! I had an accident!
I bought two eyeshadows...a metallic cold and metallic silver. They were cheap (Wet 'N Wild), so no harm done if they suck. I'm really in the mood to go buying stuff again. Maybe I will just go to Wal- Mart. That's only 10 minutes away. I don't NEEED anything, but it would be nice to FIND something! Hmmmm. I leave you now so I can decide what to do.
(((Later)))Listening To: A PERFECT CIRCLE: "Magdalena" (Mer De Noms)Yeah, cause I bought it. At Wal-Mart. The "clean" version. Ha! I don't care. I haven't bought many CD's lately. I spent more than I should have today. I hate to go to Wal-Mart and spend alot cause you feel like you didn't. All those cheap things add up, though. So, my shopping spree today has left me with lots of fun stuff and now I vow to go back to pretending I have no money (pretend? ha! I DON'T have money. Only stinking credit cards). Now I have an hour and a half til Allen gets home to play with my stuff! I have...my shampoo and conditioner that I have been unable to find lately, deodorant (Wheee! fun!), bottle of Exclamation perfume (cause it is Allen's favorite! So middle school and fun!); two awesome (this is a word I NEVER use vocally) bracelets that are just velcro with cool iridescent sequins, clear sequins, black stuff, etc.; set of 6 blackish shiny beady bracelets to wear with my two others, which I wear on both wrists like superhero cuffs; spearmint gum, A Perfect Circle CD, some vitamins, and anything else I can't remember. Fun! Oh! I had a bad Wal-Mart experience at the cash register. This Ms. Rivers was the cashier and she rang up my stuff on the lady in front of me's debit card. She had rang up all her stuff and I waited til it was obvious of that til I put my stuff on "the belt", as she called it. It was SO obviously seperate. She starts ringing up my stuff and I think it is while the lady's card is processing. Those that are highly skilled at the cashiering biz (as I once was at the veggie bin) can DO that! The lady freaks out when she sees she signed for my stuff and the two start arguing. Ms. Rivers is totally blaming us for not stopping her. We both agreed that we thought she was done with one and starting the other. Rivers goes on and on mumbling to herself about people needing to alert her to seperate orders and that EVERYONE always tells her if things are seperate and it's just common sense and all this. I kept calm and just said nothing cause it wasn't my fault and I wasn't gonna waste my time looking stupid and arguing. But I made sure to roll my eyes a couple times as she mumbled so that other people could see that I wasn't just a dumball. The other lady was all like, "what's your name, customer service, bla bla bla, I'm not a happy camper". I just didn't want to be involved in the stupidity that all could have been solved by, "oops! Duh! I'll fix it".
I have to go now cause I promised Mr. Peepers that I wouldn't be on long! He wants me to take a bath cause he likes to sit on the side of the tub the whole time and splash in the water. Time for a little mini-spa! YAY!
060401In Head Cause I'm Too Mopey To Get Up And Push Play: Miranda Sex Garden (Carnival of Souls)Sigh. Crap day. ? Yes. The day was good at school. I worked with Insignares, who knew all the scoop on the psycotic kids I just got last week. She was their teacher in the 2 year old class. Then I left school to go to my interview at Memminger Elementary. All hopeful and wearing my rainbow-y sweater...the closest thing to teacher clothes I will buy. I have this split personality now...all colorful and cutsey for school, all black and sparkly colors at night. Anyway, interviews suck. Principal was trying to blow off looking at my portfolio. I had to almost force her to! I felt like I didn't answer the questions very well. Felt like she saw me as just some preschool teacher. She mentioned the tons of candidates she has interviewed already. On top of it all, there is a freeze on hiring. Cause older teachers have been "riffed" or something, meaning they can fill spots that would have been open or something. I forgot what exactly. Now, the principal was REALLY nice and funny and all. The school really seemed like one I would like. She took me on a long tour. Said she will be calling in a couple weeks. But I just came home feeling so depressed. I feel like an orphan that no one wants. There's this supposed drastic shortage of teachers in Charleston County and they are going and getting teachers from freaking England to teach when I am RIGHT HERE! Yoo Hoo!!! Over here! If I don't get a job this year I will be so upset. If I can't get a job HERE, how can I be good enough to get one anywhere else? The preschool I am at now is AWESOME! I mean, we really teach them stuff and it is where all the best familiy's kids go, but I want to teach elementary kids! I want to make some kind of difference in someone. I wanna TEACH real stuff and make them do homework and book reports and all that junk. And I feel doomed. Only another month or so to get a job. Man. If SOMEONE would just hire me, they would not regret it. I sound pitiful.
So now I am eating depressaroni. This Kraft macaroni looks like I feel. It is the normal kind, but all squished flat. I must have bought a silly shaped kind. Stupid macaroni.
I had to paint my nails in a cheery way to try to snap myself out of this. NYC 128A shiny pink with SINFUL's Happy Day sparkly stuff on top.
I will feel better once I eat supper and go downtown walking. OH! We went to Bobbi Night last night and we were one of MAYBE 10 people there! We left. This sucked cause I had made this special effort to be the Bobbi rival. I had on my long black skirt with the peacock shirt, my hair in this high ponytail, half braided and half spiral curled (tee hee), big old colorful beaded bracelets (i.e. a ponytail holder) all up my arm, diamondy clips in the hair, totally cool makeup, etc. All for NOTHING! AG! I was too girly. It was cool. I will do it again tonight to snap myself into happiness. What happened is THIS! Heather (a girl who works with Allen) told him that in those two weeks that we hardly went to Bobbi Night, a new place opened. Brooke Collin's boyfriend (a bobbi...Brooke is) opened it. Called Avalon. It is across from Huddle House on King Street. We WILL be driving by to check it out tonight. RUMOR has it that they have shows Wednesday and SATURDAY (WOW!) or Sunday. I hope they are open every night and i REALLY hope they are techno. DJ Wendell was still at Indigo last night, which is a bad sign. But where Bobbies are, so is good music.
I was all inspired to clean out my nappy closet tonight and now I am not. Wha. COULD get back in the mood. I don't hang up any clothes. I am sick.
No. Bump depression. BUMP IT, BUMP IT! I will get up and wash the dang dishes and clean my closet and start cooking supper (tonight we have a baked chicken, more corn on the cob, and fried okra!). THEN, to reward my behind for doing all that hateful crap, I will get all tackily gussied up like last night and be READY to GO! Yes!
One last thing. While all alone at Indigo last night, we attributed the lack of people to the HUGE (ha) thunderstorm they were warning us of, the spoleto finale, and this big "wreck" on the old bridge that connects West Ashley and downtown. I find out today from Insignares that the "wreck" was a white Blazer that went over the side of the bridge. Three passengers and they haven't been found yet.
060201Listening To: "Fix Me Now"-Garbage I added my final section to the main page...Abominations. The weird links I like that I won't put on the Demented Links section because that one is history. Just three for you for now. Look at the first page if it takes you all night. It is so funny!
Went shopping today (as if I CAN!) and bought GOOD stuff. Long black skirt, alot like that which I wore as my uniform in the Lobby Lounge, but with a slit up each side. Tight and springy. A red and black snakey (even though I usualy hate this print, this is a good one) sleeveless shirt made of the same slinky stuff. This outfit ROCKS! Then I bought a black (no way!) supposedly underwear type shirt, but I can wear it as a tank top and it looks totally cool. Then, I got that colorful peacock shirt from Express that I wanted before but was $50. It was half off! Wheeee! Everything looks wicked badd (ha) with the skirt! Will wear it tonight to Bobbie night!
We saw Moulin Rouge last night and it was pretty good. Lots to make fun of in it. Lots of people walked out. I suspect cause it was PG-13 and a little on the Disney side, in a way.
Making pork chops, white corn on the cob, and broccoli for din din!
060101In My Head: Poison songs (god)I was a scary little kid. Not really. I was very quiet and shy, never did anything bad to anyone. Well, I did tape a girl named Dawn's hair together in second grade. And in middle school I would yank you strands of my friend's hair who sat in front of me whenever I wanted to get on her nerves. The other friend, Tanya, with the waist length blonde hair, I would sometimes color her hair with black permanent marker. I still think that's funny. But as I was saying, I was a nicey nice good kid, the tiniest in class, who was usually the teacher's pet. But I had a dirty secret that only my closest friends knew about (in elementary school). Luckily they didn't get scared away! I liked to play Mommie Dearest. I am confessing!! I was obsessed with the movie and my mom had the book. It fascinated me. I remember vividly grabbing a white plastic coathanger and begging Lisa to play Mommie Dearest and let me beat her with it! HA HA! She wouldn't let me. She may be the only victim. I didn't take rejection well and never persued my dream! And whenever my mom would spank me (not too often), I would overreact in my head and think of myself as Joan Crawford's poor daughter! Never had the can of Ajax thrown at me, though. I also liked playing Wonderwoman (the height of coolness back in the late 70's!) and tying Lisa to grandma's railings and leaving her. I am lucky I didn't turn out to be some big freak. Just thought I would share that with you.
I didn't get the job at the school. Whatever. Many of my co-workers said that the assistant principal caused them to quit because of sexual harrassment, anyway. No broken heart today. Another interview Monday.
Remember my new crush, Josh Hartnett? Scroll down a day to see him. Well, I got my new issue of SPIN in the mail and have a NEW new obsession. Dave Navarro. Haw have I never noticed him? He has problems. His mom and aunt were murdered in front of him when he was 15. But he is a SLEAZE! in a good way, I mean. Now, I said that Josh Hartnett was the opposite of all I usually liked. Has small eyes, tiny nose, BROWN hair, isn't foreign. So, compare and contrast him and DN, which is basically a PERFECT looking guy! All evil looking and stuff! Ooh la la! I have three pictures up of him in my room now...one by my keyboard, one on my door, one on my screen. Allen will love it! Ha!
052901Listening To: Cheb Mami (Meli Meli)Long entry tonight. First, today was the first day of the summer program at school. We got 11 new kids and they all seem pretty good. There are about three that I can already predict will be SUCH fun (ha). They were actually pretty quiet all day...Stephanie and I were like, "talk, darnit!". It's nice being in just one class, instead of 5! Last week I didn't think I would miss all the old kids, but today I did. Our new kids aren't them and when I saw all our old kids in their new classes with their new mixtures of kids and all, I was like, "whaaa! I want them back!". I also miss Dee and Taylor, who have moved on! Boo hoo! When Stephanie came in today it was like the only familiar face all day. My co-teachers are people I know and all, but I don't hang out with them all afternoon like the kids and Dee, Stephanie and Taylor. My blaness could be definitely attributed to the weather. Cloudy and rain/sprinkle/pour/sprinkle/mist/pour all day. I have a subliminal headache from it.
Our air conditioner is totally busted. Last night was so hot. We slept in the computer room on Allen's old bed/Peepers throne. It was cool and flooded with moonilight. That was the only good part. I woke up alot (heat, Peepers knocking the door down to get in, nightmares).
Nightmares. I bought these red sunglasses (red lenses) the other day because Allen did and for the past two nights I have had nightmares. Could they be from seeing the world as eeeevil all the time, now? It isn't really evil looking, more pink sunset. At night it is evil. I like it. Last night we had a major storm while we were out driving and I had the glasses on. Red lightning is cool.
We saw "Pearl Harbor" on Friday, which I was not all gung ho for. I went anyway. It was better than a kick in the head. VERY predictable. VERY cliched...every line. Every shot was going for a cinematography award. But it was still good (meaning it made me have to close my eyes so I wouldn't cry). MOSTLY because Josh Hartnett (who played the second leading man role) was CUUUUUUUTE! I am not into guys with small eyes. Or small noses. He had both but he ROCKED! I've decided he is a sleazeball (a good thing) just like i finally fell for the Brad Pitt thing, after years of resistance. I didn't like him JUST because everyone else did. We saw "The Mexican" a couple days ago and that just strengthened my new belief that he IS cute and he is always in good movies.
Next weekend Allen wants to go to Carowinds. hear that, Carrie? Wanna meet us?! I'll be writing you! Anyway, this is funny since we JUSt went to Savannah. I don't mind weekend trips every weekend! Not at all!
So, we went to Savannah! Look at my pictures page to see the pictures we took. Wow, finally some ok pictures of me on here. Allen was in this big batty mood, which I found funny! He was like, "lets take pictures in funky alleys and cemetaries"! I tried to stay away from dorky cemetary pictures, but there are still a couple. I don't know what got into him. Must have been the red glasses!
The way up there I was in a rock star coma. I just sat there being the drummer of whatever was playing. Mostly, The Cure-Disintegration. On the way home I was in a Popy Brite world, reading Wormwood. "The Elder" is the worst story ever. This baby gets electricuted when he bites a Christmas tree wire thinking it is licorice. The dad and mom hate each other, and the dad is so distraught that he decides to bite the wire, too. Ug. Anyway.
Well, we ate Greek food the whole time we were there. First at this place called Yanni's (guess why we went there?! Ha!), where Yanni himself (mythically) sat at the bar, naked except for a white towel around his waist, rubbing his olive-oiled stomach, chortling, "eat! eat, my skinny friends...eat until you DIEEEE! Ho ho ho!". Something like that. They gave us SO much food. It was like we were taking the gyro challenge. Gag thinking about it. The last day we were there we were FORCED to eat at the Olympic Deli, which was a better bargain and had better food that Yanni's. We had pizza. We only ate there because Casbah, the Morrocan place wtih belly dancers (wheeeee!) made us wait 20 minutes past our reservation time without even ever checking on us! That place smelled so good, too. Apricot chicken was clucking for me, but I had to settle for a dang pizza. We WILL get to that place eventually. This is the second time we've tried to go there and failed!
So, we went to the Greek place (I have worked at two Greek restauraunts and am a conniseur, or however you spell it!) was because we had to get something half way fast. We had to get to the 10:30 Bobbi Show at Club One. It rocked. We saw a 10:30 and a 12:30 show. The place was pretty cool, but the dance floor was tiny and the music was dancey, but not techno. The upstairs was where the show was. They had a big stage and chairs and all. The bobbies were AWESOME, and when Carrie and Xtina get back, they ARE going with us down there! Cause they will be in awe. In GA, the Bobbies like the big hair. Samnatha Foxx was the MC and did this whole comedy act thing. She and Micah Scott (what's with the ones with that last name being so talented in the dance area?) were the best. Anyway, we'll go there again. We'll go to Casbah, too!
Anyway, tired of writing. Too much to say, too lazy to proofread, too tired to write well.
052701Reluctantly listening to: AC DC (being blasted by my neighbor)About to walk out the door to go to Savannah for the day and night. 052401Listening To: "Welcome to the Fold"-Filter (Title of Record)I am determined to get off this computer soon as I write this. Walking through the cafeteria this afternoon I got a snootful of bleachy clorox and was stricken with the desire to clean! Such a rare thing. My place is clean, but I am talking about serious scrubbing. Also, the entire keyboard area is surrounded with junk. Let me tell you what: 2 glasses, cat brush, my hairbrush, box of cuphooks, nail clippers, slave bracelet (ha ha), Filter CD case, Allen's watch, water spray bottle, pens, butterfly I made at school to show the kids, ripped out phonebook page of listings of schools, red candle in blue holder, spoon (not a heroin spoon...peanut butter spoon from yesterday!), digital camera, zit cream, another spoon, wooden/blue bead necklace from Joy, pink nailpolish, vanilla lip gloss, chinese art calander, mirror, spanish/english dictionary, notebook, and Michelena's macaroni tv dinner box, which I just ate (not the box). Lovely.
On my way home from Harris Teeter a flock of crows almost flew into my open car window! I like the windows down and the air or heat on. Waster. There were five of them and they seriously came so close. Dumb crows. They need to look where they are going or I'm going to slap them down. I actually cringed! Ha!
Bobbie night was so so. The performances were good, but the place was filled with what I shall call Spoletians (Spoleto Festival people). I like art. I like smart people. But these people were just getting on our nerves with their stupid dances, such as the pogo! Yes, this asian guy was doing the pogo dance. The place was uncomfortably packed. On top of it all, hardly any regulars. Only Iceman and Pat (who was actually dressed like a normal girl tonight!). Oh, and Potbelly and Sonic the Hedgehog. The male version of jessica mayhem. And Mike's arch enemy, the Mouse Man/Tender Rodent. Allen named him that. The one Mike almost kicked the buttocks off of at Patrick's one night for being a druggie punk. They started witht he manager playing that cheesy caberet song on the piano on the stage and some guy that normally doesn't do drag all dressed up and singing. They called him Abbie Normal. Why do we have to go all out to impress the Spoletians? The cast of the musical Footloose was much cooler when they came. One had on a nifty glittery Bauhaus shirt. Anyway, Sable Chanel was totally cool (remember, the Epcot Slut). One outfit was what I called the Baby Blue Ice Queen. Then she switches up with the SpiderCrow outfit. Very batty. Lady Rage, as we call her, was not raging, unfortunately. She did this cutsey song (I forgot what). I think she was having a bad night. I think she was raging against the Spoletians. Brooke Collins did "Stranger in My House" really well. Had one new outfit! Woooo!
None of the original people are clubbing anymore. The cool kids from back at the Treehouse. They have moved or are not into it anymore. Probably they just go to some cool place we aren't invited to, like, at one of their houses. Whatever happened to Scoliscole, Gravedigger, Lips, Bobbie, Sonic Youth Boy, Lightman, Jessica Rabbit, all those old bobbies, zuri, julio, julio's g-fri, Holliwood, that blonde girl that looked like Alicia Silverstone, bla bla bla? Have they grown up and turned boring? I'm glad we haven't.
Another elementary school (Memminger) called today and I have an interview Monday after next for a 1st or 3rd grade spot. That's right in the middle of the cool downtown, so that would be good. I could come rescue Xtina from her Magazine Street place quickly, since it is right scross the street. I've herard bad about that school, but I have also heard good...that the teachers are REALLY dedicated to that school and loooove it. I'm just going to take the first school that asks me. I can't risk waiting and picking. I'll get paid the same no matter where I am.
Taylor and I ate at Captain D's for lunch, which she hasn't had but one time when she was little. Now she is hooked like a fishy! Ha!
052301Listening To: "Freelove"-Depeche Mode (exciter)Must peel eyes off of screen...growing weaker...computer coma coming on...humpback..getting..bigger.....growing weaker....
Naaaaaaaa! WE went to Waffle House last night! jealous? There was this rhythmic whrrr the whole time that we had fun with. It was like a droning om chant coming from the stove vents. But what it REALLY was was so much more...our lullaby, Buddhist monks in the wall, our return to the embryo, our feedings swishing through our umbilical chords, our hypnotic rocking music, and more that I forgot. It won't LET you remember. Yes, I did actually go into the fetal position in the booth. You couldn't help it. Except for the one break we had when a frisky old man put "If The house Is A-rockin, Don't Come A-knockin" on repeat.
Yeah, I'll take a break to get my usual snack of a giant tablespoon of peanut butter (it's quick and easy, a recipe from me) and then be back. Addict. I'm in a mood.
Tonight, we go to Bobbi Night. For those unfortunates who aren't down with our lingo, Indigo Lounge's dragshow. Hate that degrading word. Bobbie and his black thong flitted into our world back in the Treehouse days, about 8 years ago when I was but a bitsy baby college freshman. Since he was the first, he is the king! Queen? Whatever. So, we've been uninspired to go dancing and to Bobbi night since Carrie and Xtina left because we have gotten used to having a fiendy gang to protect us from Hook Hands/The Captain, who waits outside and berates you if you don't buy his flowers. Ray might go tonight. Two karate guys will make me feel safe. "Head like a hole, outta control", he rocks away. He said he's been going all the time lately. I am missing the whole place. The glow in the dark hooka caterpillar in the corner (ug), the mossy ceiling, the castles in the sky (ug ug ug), Roboboonkie. Gimme gimme. Must dance! Need a fix of the Schmell! Ha ha! Tonight will be a late one...I plan on staying til the end, which sucks here in Charleston because everything closes at 2. Stinking downtown oldies, ruining all our fun. Annoying. If they'd just turn down their Miracle Ears at bedtime they would never hear a thing. We have Memorial Day off, so we will celebrate it with another Bobbi night on Sunday! The vets would be proud of our display of respect.
Blasting: No Disco!-Depeche Mode (Speak and Spell) yeah, so I am in a tiny DM mood. Those come and go every 6 months. Really, I just changed it to some poppy DM because "Freelove" was bringing me down, maaaan. Give it an hour and I will have on the screaming techno diva dance on. Dang...internet keeps shutting off. I may have to highjack the AOL account of Andrei's. That's Allen's brother. Anyway, this music is strangely not hitting the spot. Starvation and boredom could explain it. Maybe I just need some yak!! Feel unpretty today! HAHA! Will wear something weird tonight. Don't know what. Sure it won't be very weird once I pick it out. I'm in one of those moods wanting to get into trouble. I want to have some adventure that makes me have to run from cops or something! Bottled up energy is bubbling to the top now that it's sinking in that we haven't been to Indigo in a few weeks. Now I can't wait.
"Tora, Tora, Tora"--DM (Speak and Spell) Aah, finally found the right song. Now I'm happy.
052201AAAG! Nothing like writing a journal entry while your computer is offline and you don't know it! Here I go again.
The interview was cool! I felt very energetic since it was at 5. Could I have talked too much?! They are hiring all the teachers by the beginning of next week. There's a sub principal because the real one died. They still need to hire one for next year. Also, I met the assistant principal, and he seemed really cool.
Taylor went to her interview earlier and I am waiting on her to call me with the news. We both did portfolios the night before our interviews and mine got looked at very carefully! This is good, because it says more about me than I can. Her portfolio is better cause she has actually taught a year. She was at a terror school. Friday is her last day at the preschool because she (like OTHER people who are somewhere lost in Italy!) is going to Europe. I hope we BOTH get a job at this school because it would make being a first year teacher easier, having someone I am friends with there. Plus, I could see us becoming really good friends and hanging out and all!
I know, you might not be interested in this documentation of "The Journey To Teacherhood", but soon it will be over. Either I get a job and don't worry about interviews or I don't and still don't worry about interviews. I want this job SO bad, though!
Hi Carrie! I said your name! Sorry I haven't written! This is all my news!
MIKE! ha! I said it! For the first time on this page! He's the photo masta' cause he made my pictures load faster! He needs to send me a picture of him so I can put it on here, or else I am going to attack him with my digital camera!
Make sure to see my daily photo!
Now, to go work on my music and picture pages!
052101Good news today! I went to that interview and it went good. No time to elaborate tonight...tomorrow. Got Wormwood by Poppy Brite tonight. Cool, quick stories to read.
052001It's the weekend, and that is why I am not writing alot. Plan on a huge entry tomorrow! LOTS of cool news to tell you. Last night I got the other part of my birthday gift from Allen...first was the Depeche Mode CD, then I picked out a new Miranda Sex Garden CD. Cool! I thought they weren't even together anymore because some of them went to this dopey Midieval Babes group. This one is called Carnival of Souls and it rocks, as usual! What a cool surprise! Then, I got a sweater (yes, a sweater) to wear to my INTERVIEW tomorrow! It is very unlike me, but I still really like it. It is teachery, and VIBRANT, so they will definitely remember me as the girl in the rainbowy striped sweater.
Oh, I will go on and tell you the big news. Taylor (who I work with now) and I decided to go to one school on our lunch break Friday to give them our resumes. We came up with all sorts of stupid ideas...since we look alot alike, we were like, we can dress identical, go in and say in unison "we want to submit our resumes...when will OUR interview be", etc. Anyway, it was a pretty cool school, alot like Stono Park, where I did my student teaching. This school is right past the mall. The secretary was nice to us (not like at that past school...bla! That secretary would always practically ignore me til i stood there forever). And she gave us interview appointments right there! I go tomorrow at 5 and Taylor goes tuesday at 4:40. Cool! Amber, at work, used to work at this school and said it is really good and is going to put in some words for us. It would be perfect if we both got a job there and could be new together! There are 5 or 6 openings. And for once I have an interview at 5! Not at 10 in the morning, when I am all groggy. I am a night person. So, maybe I will do better at this one!! You'll find out tomorrow!
051801How am I going to get more people to look at my page? Not being encouraged to write because of my latest counter stats! Anyway, I got the new Depeche mode "Exciter" CD and Linkin Park "Hybrid Theory" today! Wheee!
051601
The past couple days I have been in a very big mood to LEARN. For instance, I HATE, LOATHE, HATE only a few things...banking, politics, doing bills, cleaning (except when the mood strikes me), and having to learn about things I can't see (meaning math and microscopic-type things).But one of those has been taken off the list. For some reason, on the way home from Pennsylvania, I was stricken with the mood to learn how to invest in stocks. I think it's cause I am so poor working at this school. So, I have been studying and have now decided to do part 1 of getting control of your money...quit spending it with credit cards. I only have 3, and I really have cut down. I want to pay them off wildly, but at the same time, I make just enough to pay bills. Bla.
So then, today, I decide, "maybe I need to babysit kids from the school...everyone else does". I printed up a letter that I will give to (select!) parents and I decorated it all cute. Still deciding if I want to give them out tomorrow!
Then, I have spent all night tonight studying bipolar disorder. A couple people in my family have had it, as does my ex-bestfriend from middle school.
learn, learn, learn.
I wish I had more free time. I wish I could stay up as late as I used to. I am going to make myself stay awake longer.
I was supposed to go to teach a lesson Friday, but the assistant principal called and said they already filled the positions. Thanks for waiting to see my lesson! Punks. Well, truthfully, I didn't like the school. Mostly cause of how they made me wait around for an hour and a half that day and I STILL never got to talk to the principal. And I really didn't want to drive to that place every day. I was dreading the lesson. I told myself if i didn't get the job there this time (the fourth time), I would give up on that place. Now I do. Bla on that school.It's a relief, actually!
I washed my nasty kitchen rugs tonight!
I wonder how Xtina is doing in Italia?
I need to write Carrie! (See, I mentioned your name again!)
I miss Bobbie nights cause we don't go anymore since C+C (music factory?) have left town!
I need to organize this journal...I think I will start doing it by months...one LOOOOONG page like this per month.
Will I get my b-day present today from Allen? Hmmmm!
I might start my photo album tonight or tomorrow. I just want my pages to look more interesting. But I am always more interested in getting the CONTENT on it than worrying about the LOOK.
Finally, I am hoping people will still look at my page! Otherwise, it is very unmotivating!
051501Happy Birthday plus one day for me! Now I am 27. I feel stuck on 23. Came back from PA yesterday and ate at a Myrtle Beach restauraunt for the b-day. I was craving steak, which I never really want except once in awhile. Got a steak sandwich! Got some neat stuff for presents...a bracelet from Allen's mom, Bath and Bodywork's Cucumber Melon kit thing from his dad, jewelry box that plays "Diamond's Are a Girl's best Friend" from my mom, money from grandma. I "requested" a shower radio from Allen! He hasn't gotten me anything yet because we haven't had time. That's ok!
Pennsylvania was pretty cool. We went to the Poconos and stayed at another fabulously 70's Poconos palace! This one had strange compartments in the rooms, very good for hide and seek. Or for storing bodies! Muhahaha! We also got to see where his parent's new home is being built!
When I got back home, I was slightly bla. Not that PA is my favorite place, cause it isn't, but I missed it. I didn't want to be back in Charleston. I have memorized this place. BORING. Plus, I wish we lived closer to his family, who we never get to see. He has a big fam, 2 sisters and a brother, compared to my only child with a mom and g-ma self. There is stuff going on up there that we really need to be there for, too. Not just his mom's yummo Filipino food, which we ate every day! We're having lumpia (eggrolls) tonight that she sent home with us.
Today I am getting used to this city again. It's been a pretty good day. We had the Teddy Bear's Picnic (aw) for school, where the three year olds get their graduation diplomas! Had that at James Island County Park. I called one elementary school and set up an appointment for Friday to teach a sample lesson. Then, on my way out of school, the director gives me a letter of intent. It said they want me back next year and they gave me a raise if I come back (a big 50 cents). I told her I will, definitely, unless I get a public school job. The school I am at REALLY is awesome, but I need more money. I also found out today that I will probably be working with leigh this summer. Cool! I will be in only one class! Right now I go between two classes as the assistant, and both those classes have a mwf/tth group. Then, in the afternoon, I am with a different class. So, I have 5 classes, while everyone else has 1. Everyone says I have the hardest job in the school. Plus, I do the supplements, which is collecting kids from ever class around noon to go to special areas (gymnastics, ballet, music...). ballerinas I get to dress! Quite a task. About 10 4 year olds and half act like they don't know how to dress themselves. I have to do it in 15 minutes and then take them to lunch. Anyway, only 1 more week of this and then I will have it made with my one class all day long!
So, today has been all cool. And once I got home, I was stricken with something that only happens about once every 2 or 3 months...feeling like my house is really cool and relaxing in it. I mean, I dyed my hair, then cleaned (and realized I am quite a clean person except my mountianous closet...i use no hangers!) and then had a whole makeover type night. Torturous peel off mask, painted my nails, bleached my teeth...Then I ate a little greek salad while watching Seinfeld (what am i doing? I really only like Simpsons and Third Rock From The Sun at this time of night). Now, my boiled eggs are done and i will go eat them!
Christina is off to Italy today!
050901For all of my adoring fans, this is a dark day. Why? Because I must leave tomorrow for Pennsylvania to visit my family-in-law for mother's day! That means a possibility of no new pictures or journal entries until Monday night. They have a computer, but I don't want to be in front of it and be rude! Fear not, I shall return. Don't go killing yourself. I'm excited to get up there and see everyone, since we haven't seen them since we got married over a year and a half ago! I hear a rumor that we might go to New York OR the Poconos while there.
There is one problem...we are going by plane. I HATE airplanes. I used to really like flying when I was little, but now I think too much on planes and get all paranoid. I sit there convinced that this is the plane that is going to crash for a big world story. They say it's safer to fly than drive, but not in my brain. The statistics weigh heavily against me. Big hunks of metal and delicate wiring are not meant to be in the air!! I hate planes. Bla! At least Xtina and Carrie (ooh! Ya'll can look at your own pages!) are meeting us in Charlotte for the layover!
As for all you stalkers, do not think this is the time for you to rape my house. I have a killer cat and he will be HUNGRY for human flesh while I am gone. He is programmed that way. I might have a large dog and a bear or something, too.
Going to dye my hair now. Might put some dark streaks in it...still debating. The dark is temporary stuff, anyway. 050801Here I am, still recovering from the depression attained by going to Suckfest! Moping with sore throat. Today, though, I cut preschool and got alot done. Went to doctor, got rediculously priced prescription, cleaned, did bills, shopped, called for follow-ups at elementary schools. Now my brain is frying from Clorox fumes in the bathroom. Mmmm...bleachy!
I have always been wary of online diaries, because I am very attatched to my normal one. I never get up the momentum to write in it, though. I think I will use this instead of that one and just print it out and stick it in my book! That means, more entries for you! Must make them more interesting, though!
Old man in Kerr Drug pharmacy was trying to look cute for me today. Kept clapping his hands peppily at things, throwing his Baby Ruth candybar in the air very stylishly (dropped it once), trying to look youthful. He was pretty suave for an old guy! Ha! I found it cute. 050701I think I have developed allergies. For the past three days my throat has felt like I am breathing in a dust of some kind. Disgusting. Must research to find out what's in the air right now.
Ok...Last night I was not inspired to write about 96Suckfest. It was pretty easy to forget. I mean, it was fun being there, I guess, but none of the music was my thing. The reason we went was because Collective Soul would be there and we like that "Heavy" song. It sounds like Peter Murphy. Also, Crazytown was there, and we thought there might be some hope for them, since they sing that "ok" song, "Butterfly". The trip would be better than a mummified fight to the death. Anyway, as the title of my report shall be called, all we found there was:
96 Suckfest
We begin our day with, "oh let's get there right at one, before the crowd! We are so smart!". We get there at 1:30 and the line is a mile long. No big deal, because we were full of energy. We have several sightings of people we know (or at least talk about and have codenames for), and we begin with Schmell. Yes, Schmell, often referred to on Carrie's Page. She followed our car with her eyes as we pimped by and she KNEW, yes, she KNEW that we were cool! We then decided to hang out under a shady tree til the line went down. Allen's idea. I sat right in a nice briar patch or something and got stickers all in my butt. Ug. When the line got mostly in, we got up and took our spot in the line of suck. We sat right under the VIP section, where we hoped to spot some cool musicians or something, but no such luck...they were obviously TOO cool for the 96 Wave Lounge. Whatever. When Filter was here with his cool self, we sat right beneath him all day and he passed by us within inches about a million times. Aah, the memories. But I guess I should expect that the likes of Five For Fighting (who?) are just too good for that. Well, we don't wanna be their friends anyway! The only person in the VIP box I knew was my old best friend that I tried to avoid, for reasons unmentioned. I'm not gonna dis her on the internet, like Destiny's Child says. Anyway, the stadium seemed filled with a decent, even nicer crowd than usual, but the scuz started to ooze out of the red dirt soon enough. The beer was flying, baseball caps blocking my view (I loathe them), tank tops and bare skin a-plenty, tattoos, did I mention all the rednecks?, just ug, ug, ug. I am sorry if this review offends you or you think I am just full of hate. Whatever. So, the bands come on.
OUR LADY PEACE: This was the only band besides Collective Soul that didn't make me want to leave. The only problem was the singer's voice sounded so totally the same in every song that I started to want to smack the nasal whine off his face. Mummy Kata. No, it wasn't that bad.
AMERICAN HI FI: Another whiny, syllable over-enunciating, comic book fanclub and proud of it, "cool nerd" type band. You're not the boss of me, now-esque. They were ok. That's all.
FIVE FOR FIGHTING: Who? I don't even remember them.
COLLECTIVE SOUL: Again, they were the best ones. Despite the Bee Gee's look that the singer sports, they rocked. Enjoyed watching him baton twirl his microphone stand. Luckily, the crowd thinned out on this one because it was getting cold and windy, so we were very close. They were the last band. They did alot of songs I have heard on the radio and like, but not enough to go buy their CD.
SISTER HAZEL: heh?
TRAIN:Yeah, they have one ok radio song (the milky way one), but ug. No. Just no. Oh my god. It is a bad sign when the singer comes out in a button down shirt, Huey Lewis and the News sunglasses, and wearing my most HATED instrument around his neck:the saxophone. Run for your lives! Did he think the tambourine and harmonica would make him any better? Noooooooo!!!!! Aside from the visuals that I could judge by, the music was just that same old country rock type that seems to be assigned to southerners to like. Bla. I can't remember a note of it. Hootie. Bla.
And I have saved the BEST for last
I shall crown them Crappytown
Oh yes, Crazytown. That's who the picture is of. Sad you can't see them better? Don't be I christen their music as Old School Hammertime Fartcore Crappmetal. They used every old school line that rap has ever heard, aside from, "c to the r to the a to the z to the y to the...". Yes, yes ya'll, and you don't stop. Only Beastie Boys is allowed to do this. They sounded so average...any guy from the audience could have done their songs. The instruments were ok, I guess, but the guys playing guitar looked like they needed to be in a cooler band and should have been embarrassed to be playing with Crappytown. Felt sorry for them. Then they kept throwing shout outs to drugs (about them not doing them anymore...I am so sure) and the word that embodies white trash...I hate to even give it a spot on my webpage...i will say it like they would: t to the i to the t to the t to the i to the e to the s. Disgust. And they went on and on and on-on-ne-non with that word. That was the last straw. Did I mention that one band member who shall remain nameless kept doing the running man? We so enjoyed watching them make fools of themselves.
So, that was 96 Suckfest. By the end of the day, I felt like I had people overload and if I had to look at one more piece of skin with a corny tattoo I would puke. Then the drunks started wanting to get in fights around us. Wheee! Also, I am sure all the baseball dust and fiberglass webbing in the air from the "carpets" did my throat alot of good.
I forgot to mention the bottles. Aquafina bottles being thrown all over the place. Had to constantly avoid being pegged, especially while wasting my time waiting for Crappytown. I DID want to throw one at this kid who was on his dad's shoulder's. The dad was bending down with great effort to give the kid a constant supply of bottle ammo. I guess I could have thrown a couple at daddy, too. The concert ended on a happy note, though. The lead singer of Collective Soul got slammed with a bottle and threw a fit! He told the audience he would pay anyone who would bring up the guy that pegged him to the stage $100. H could do better than that. He was seriously going to kick butt. One of the last things he said was, "Do you know what I hate? Stupid F...ing A..Holes". I agree.
050601Thank gosh, I am out of the funk. I surprised myself by talking about it to Xtina and I feel much better now!
Going to the 96Wave (the local anti-bubblegum station) 16th Anniversary concert in a couple of hours. There are actually no bands that I really like that are playing, because I can't judge if I really am into a group by one song. At least there aren't any horrible local bands there this time. Charleston local music is so...not even deserving my taking the time to think of a bad word to call it. There are only two slightly local bands I like. Turku, which is a band from Columbia that does Turkish music, and Thornwheel, which is Tatum's roommate from Charlotte and he is all industrialish. Very cool! And I am one of the lucky few with an autographed burnt CD of his! Wheee! Yes, Thornwheel, I do now require a donation of any monetary amount for this plug on my internationally popular website. Pay up!
My work hours (8-5 fivedays a week) are finally getting to me. No longer is 2AM when I think of getting tired. Now I get sleepy around 11, even on weekends. This is very uncool because I am all falling asleep on late night movies, falling asleep while cruising downtown, falling asleep on Saturday Night Live. Must find a remedy. Don't want to drink coffee anymore that I must (meaning in the afternoon at school so I can get re-excited about being with these kids all day). Tea, my favorite, doesn't really wake me up. What will I do??? Must get a real teaching job so the hours will be shorter. 050401Blah. Funk. In just the past few hours I have worked myself up into a wonderful funk, which stinks since it is Friday. First, all the kids at school were totally horrible today. Now I am all dirty and dusty and annoyed from being outside with them for the past two hours. Plus, I feel like I got a sunburn. Yeah, for awhile I had decided I was going to do an experiment in pigmentation and see how dark I could get this year since I know that I will whether I want to or not because of all the outside time at school. Normally, I am sunscreen girl. About 4 years now I have been totally anti-tan. Now I have decided I don't care about that tan phase anymore because I saw a few girls the past few days that had mega tans and i was like, "what am I thinking?".
The other reason I may be in a funk is because Carrie and Xtina are leaving tomorrow for NC/Italy. They'll be back in August/July, but I will still miss hanging out with them. At least I have Carrie's toothbrush still as a momento! I will sleep with it under my pillow every night! Sniff (my nose, not the toothbrush).
And then there is just other stuff that I don't want to reveal on here...maybe that is bad and making my journal incomplete. I'm not really talking about the most important things on my mind that are exactly what I should. Something that has had me in a slight funk since last night. Oh well. And here I am trying to write theraputically and not getting the job done. I think I need to go write in my REAL journal now. Sorry, audience. You just aren't going to know it ALL!
050101I don't have anything to say today. I added a warning to my demented links page because I am paranoid that my mom will find it and freak out. Even with the warning she would. She's just like that. Why do I worry, though? I am 27 years old and can do what I want! I worry cause she will still come after me and beat me with coathangers! No,I am sure she has no idea I am even into making a webpage, plus, she probably never goes online. But her dudeman probably is stalking me down! Anyway, at least I can give people I know my address now and not live in fear that they will think I am a PSYCHO preschool teacher.
042501Billy the Birthday Bear will make you HAPPY! Just like ME! BBB started as Jerry's birthday candle, then was recycled into Carrie's. On 051401 it will be MY turn! I can't wait for his birthday bear blessing! Yay! And I got home for my lunch hour and that principal called me and apologized...well, she better have! So, I have to call her back on 051001 and set up a time to go in and do a writing lesson with some 3rd graders...4th and 5th is what is open for next year, which would rock since those are my favorite grades...cause I like to make them crank out the writing projects! Muhahahaha!***In the meantime, i just have to say rain sucks, as does not being able to get a car in reverse and having to mess with it for five minutes until I finally just get out and push it in the parking lot. Bla. It will all be cool, though, since tonight is Bobbi night and there will be Bobbi's-a-plenty at Indigo<---wheeee! And I get to work out after the kiddies leave school today.
042401AAARG!...Today I am full of RAAAAGE! So, I go to this elementary school for an interview, and the secretary hands me this muy confusing map of the school and tells me to explore the classes and all until the principal can catch up with me. So, being a superior mastermind, I plan ahead and tell her that I can only stay an hour and a half because I have to get back to work. Ok, fine. So, I spend exactly an HOUR AND A HALF wandering the maze of halls, looking at hall art, and looking for classes that aren't either 1)taking a test, 2)out to lunch or 3)in a special area.What do I find appropriate to sit in on? ONE class! One second grade class, where this kid sits in front of me the whole time, turned around backwards in his chair, trying his hardest to get my attention and constantly making some references to his neighbor (which i believe that i have been violated by!)about me looking like I would be able to "bake cookies", which he says while doing some pelvic thrust, pull-the-cookie-rack-out-of-the-stove type move. He finally (after a good 10 minutes of this and my flat out ignoring his behind) decides to ask me flat out if I bake cookies. I told him that I thought he needed to turn around and do his stupid butt second grade reading worksheet (well, not quite in that way). Yes, that is why kids are afraid of me. Arg...stood up by the principal. I intend to write a "thank you note" that makes a point to say, "sorry I missed you", as if it was my fault. I am just too annoyed...must get back to my perfect little preschool now.
050801Here I am, still recovering from the depression attained by going to Suckfest! Moping with sore throat. Today, though, I cut preschool and got alot done. Went to doctor, got rediculously priced prescription, cleaned, did bills, shopped, called for follow-ups at elementary schools. Now my brain is frying from Clorox fumes in the bathroom. Mmmm...bleachy! 
050701I think I have developed allergies. For the past three days my throat has felt like I am breathing in a dust of some kind. Disgusting. Must research to find out what's in the air right now.
042501Billy the Birthday Bear will make you HAPPY! Just like ME! BBB started as Jerry's birthday candle, then was recycled into Carrie's. On 051401 it will be MY turn! I can't wait for his birthday bear blessing! Yay! And I got home for my lunch hour and that principal called me and apologized...well, she better have! So, I have to call her back on 051001 and set up a time to go in and do a writing lesson with some 3rd graders...4th and 5th is what is open for next year, which would rock since those are my favorite grades...cause I like to make them crank out the writing projects! Muhahahaha!***In the meantime, i just have to say rain sucks, as does not being able to get a car in reverse and having to mess with it for five minutes until I finally just get out and push it in the parking lot. Bla. It will all be cool, though, since tonight is Bobbi night and there will be Bobbi's-a-plenty at Indigo<---wheeee! And I get to work out after the kiddies leave school today.
