I thought You were wrong, I wouldn't change my mind.
I guess I just didn't want to listen, my life was mine.
I knew You understood, but I wouldn't let You see my eyes.
I hid who I was behind a sinful disguise.
I wouldn't accept who and where I was at the time.
I stood in my mental state and wouldn't come over the line.
I was doing things my way, I'd be where I would land.
"I know it's not true, but You dont seem to understand."
I was alone in life, I couldn't straighten out.
I felt very cold, I might've started to doubt.
I knew something wasn't right, and obviously so did He.
One day, I came to Him, crying on my knees,
"My God, my God, I've been living a lie!
I knew You understood, but Your compassion I wouldn't buy!
I understood nothing, though everything I knew,
Take me back, I strayed from You, Jesus, and on my knees,
I beg You, take me back, please forgive me!!"
At first I expected Him to tower over me, and harshly put me down.
Oh God, I thought, here it comes, lightning coming down
He'd reject me, I thought, He'd not even say goodbye.
I quivered before His feet and wouldn't look Him in the eye.
Opposite of what I thought, He too got on His knees
Right there before me and suddenly threw His arms around me.
"My child, I love you, I've cried because you've sinned."
Then standing back with blood running down his head, "your sins are forgiven."
His precious blood shed for me, new life to me He had given,
And since then, with a new personality, crazy, saved, Forgiven.

© 2003 Xenophonic Scream (Kae Lunde)