Today...I feel like shit, my body is so warn out from my silly obsession with abusing my body, this time by smoking way too fucking much. I'm not in such a downer mood today though. I think I was still high when I woke up this morning and went to school. My brain just wouldn't work, so i did my make-up. I figure that if I feel like shit there's no sence in letting everyone else know by looking like shit too. I think i'm in the mood to spend what little money I have right now. I feel like going christmas shopping for some interesting things I might find in some shops downtown. I want to go to Victoria Secret as well, I don't really have the money to get anything, but I might be able to find some new little bra in there. I really need some new clothes. A girl needs to have a new really cool ass bra ever now and again. Maybe some undies too...hmmm, I really do hate shopping, I dont know why I feel I must right now...I think it's because I just saw my paycheck, and it makes me feel better that I'm going to have money again. Though I wont get it until tomorrow, because I have direct deposit, which will only go through on Friday. Well...I think I'm going to contact good ol' Tasha and see if she will go shopping with me. Maybe I'll bring that camera she let me borrow and take some nice photos for my photo class...Hmmm, maybe today will have some use come out it. Im glad, I only have to complete 2 hours and 15 minutes of community service.