Aching hearts hurt worse then any other pain, at least that’s what she had been told when she was younger. It was something she had come to know well and had found out time and time again that it was true.
Bleeding hearts hurt worse of all, when a loved one tore out her heart she realized this. It had happened many times with her past lovers but never had a friend done it to her.
This time it hurt more then the past times, the others could be left behind but this one was always going to be there with in the same rooms at many times through out the day. The man she loved from afar had given up on her and went on to the next best thing.
Fate, she had never believed in it, perhaps this is what this was, fate working over time. She was more opt to think of it as pure irony at her misfortune.
Irony, she laughed at this word, she had felt the need for exploration and had gotten a whole quadrant. She had wanted words from home to find that she had been left for someone anew. Another Captain she had found only for him to be everything she hated. She’d found the love of her life only for him to turn away when it could finally be. Irony… she hated this word.
Home was on Earth, that’s what she had been fighting for, that was her mission, to get her crew home. Home had never seemed so far away as when it was right before her on the view screen.
Regret was something she lived with every day of her life. She now added one more regret to her list of many, home had been on Voyager exploring new lands, together.
Time, it passes slowly now. Day in day out the same ole thing, the same people and species nothing new ever arises. She sees them often, a reminder of a mistake she had made. None seem happy, they act it, she acts it, but she knows what they know… they had all died the moment they crossed back into federation space.
